I'm going to do a diary too :)

vl2588

yay love plastic food!!

pammyj74

Sorry I havent been about reading peoples threads but have been trying to use my time more wisely as you have said. It does take a lot of time to read back on peoples threads to see whats going on.
I am really putting my time into surveys and toluna and competitions and ebay again now. I am not being ignorant honestly.

If you want to rant, the best place to do it is on here hun, hope you are feeling a bit better than you did. You are so close on onepoll now yay
well done on the amazon vouchers already

gerbiljo

Hey thanks pammy I am so behind with diaries too. I am feeling much better now, I have been really down and fed up. Work has been really getting me down and they have said I'm likely not to have xmas off year this as I keep booking it off every year, which is fair enough but at the same time DD will be starting preschool and I probably won't get to take her, pick her up or meet the other mums and I presume she'll start going to bed earlier (she's asked to go to bed a couple of nights lately) and I just feel I 'need' xmas, it just feel like another hurdle springs up just when I don't expect it which makes things harder. I feel very denied of being her mum and it's been chipping into me. We have decided that if they won't let me have xmas and I'm still feeling the same I will just leave at the end of the year (might of already said this so sorry if I have) and be left with a £30 somethingishK mortgage which in my mind is 'teeny tiny' compared to what it was and be grateful for that and enjoy life a bit more. we shall see...

I got rejected on most surveys today and I am on £39.50 onepoll grrrr, but I was going to over pay it but now I am going to give it to my friend who helped me out the other night tho not sure if she'll accept it or not. I need to retry and register for toluna but last time they couldn't do it as apparently they were merging with someone? anyway my little stray dog died and I have a vet bill for it now which might mean I don't quite make next months target, but were a bit ahead so I'm gonna try and not worry, we will be going under £70k so can only be happy about that really rather than odd amounts I don't quite manage.

Anyway all direct debits should have come out by the weekend so I should have some extra there all of which will hopefully reduce the impact of next months shortfall. Looking forward to february, I have eaten junk food but not chocolate so come feb my diet is off (might cheer me up a bit) and can finish off the remaining xmas choccies

vl2588

You are doing really well hon, don't be disheartened. I think having the option of quitting is marvellous, try to keep it in mind and try to let the fact that you can't have xmas off go - only if you can't fight it though!

If you saw message about BBC2 don't

gerbiljo

My parents wanted to go away xmas so that is kind of an issue as its my dads 60th on the 29th
I didn't see anything on bbc2

The option of quitting is good as mentally I feel that's acceptable and if I keep going then I feel that's a bonus

gerbiljo

£40 on one poll yipeeeeeeeee!:j:j:j:T:T:T

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Well done on the surveys!
I think having the option that you can quit work if you need will do wonders emotionally- and with a 30K-ish mortgage you also shouldnt have the worry of money hanging too much over you. Life is too short to drag ourselves through a job that makes us miserable and Ill bet you would still find some great ways to be creative and OP if you needed to!

vl2588

BBC2 made me cry when I wrote that (baby otter died). I guess I was just ready for tears!

Well done on the £40 one poll. I am at £5 odd so far!

gerbiljo

Oh no just as well i didnt watch...
Well if onepoll ever send me anymore surveys I'll race u haha (even giving u a head start!) they gave me an exact amount to get me til 40 then no more- at least I got to 40 tho!!
Thanks YO definately I must not look at quitting as failure!

Well £35 shop last night including £8 on cat litter (don't buy that often) and £4 on a top for my daughter- thats pretty good I reckon ( I went thru our whole cupboard and wrote a list of every dinner so it was strictly essential only...except the daughter top hahah)

gerbiljo

Garden season has restarted and spent £20 in a garden centre, this is obviously undoing our good work at the weekly shop, i guess i hope it pays for its self, tho of course it doesn't but I guess we do eat better when we have extra veg