depression

flis21

Rose, oh I am sorry honey, losing your job must be awful. Although I don't thnk it is long before I will be following you. Had a serious talk to my husband last night and we could just about keep our heads above water, paying rent and essential bills, on just his wage, so I might quit my job. It is making my depression a lot worse and I don't want to end up back where I was at the beginning of the year, which was my lowest point.

I do have a job interview tomorrow for somewhere else, but don't want to end up pining all my hopes on that in case I don't get it. Part of me thinks I could do with a couple of months off from working to get my head straight a bit, but I am worried, firstly, about relying solely on my husband's income, it doesn't seem very fair on him, and secondly about what I would tell workplaces when I wanted to return to work.

I don't know what to do. Am phoning in sick today, really can't face going to work, feel sick and shaky at the thought of it and I know I would just cry all day, so there is no point. I have to take tomorrow off sick anyway, as I have my interview and I am going back to my doctor tomorrow. Had a panic attack last night, so I think I need to go back on the beta blockers, to help control my heart rate. Really feels like it is going to come out of my chest somedays as it beats so fast.

Tiff_2

Slayerx wrote:

Hi everyone hope your all well.

I'm off back to the doctors but couldn't get an appointment until Monday without seeing the doctor I saw last time. Hopefully this doctor will take a more sympathetic view.

Morning Slayerx - good luck for Monday angel - let us know how you get on. If you have any problems I'll send them a Tiff letter - believe me, no-one wants a Tiff letter!:D
Just remember angel - there are always more options to go onto so don't give up. And don't eat the doctor like you did the last one!:rotfl:
Calm down dear, it's just a doctor's appointment!;)
Best wishes x

Tiff_2

Welcome home hun! Big hugs x

Tiff_2

Poppycat wrote:

I couldnt see my daughter yesterday as I cant afford the trip every day but she is being looked after and OH is with her always, she did have visitors today from my Mother, and MIL and my youngest. I wasnt going to go until Friday but I may go later today, Thursday.

OH told us she was sick and tired which is understandable given what the poor babe went through, I admire her so much for what she went through she is normally a wimp, hates needles etc but having had the Op and gone through pain and I could see it in her face, chin trembling, oh I love her so much.

I just struggling sleeping with worry all time, what if etc goes through my mind, silly I no but cant help but feel that and I wish it would go away.

She doesnt eat a lot never has done, and because of CMT she is often sick, I am a little concerned she aint eating and she is quite skinny and small, but she has a heart of gold, bless her, shes my babe.

If I learned something this week its family are so important and its times like this we have to pull together.

We dont have much cash but what we do have is each other and love is free

I no I suffer from depression and if I was alone I probably wouldnt be here now, its because of my family that keeps me that bit sane.

Thanks for your support and best wishes to you all.

Hey Poppycat, How are you this morning?
Just thought I'd mention that the DWP Social Fund can give you a grant for travel to the hospital visiting for close family members - give them a call because I'm not bright enough to retain all the details!:rolleyes:
She'll feel your love wherever you are hun. Does she have one of those hospital phones by her bed? think it's 50p per min from BT line ( they have to make money - even from the sick - but at least you'll be able to talk to her when you're at your lowest or want to say goodnight.
Don't forget, she probably won't want a huge number of visitors in 1st few days (you excepted;) ) as she must be exhausted after what she's been through.
Your other family are all here if you need us. xxx

Poppycat

Thanks Tiff for the tip. I do qualify for travel costs to and from hospital to take my daughter there and back but no visiting. It aint much but it helps, I get 10p per mile and just doesnt quite cover it even though I dont put me foot down but it does at least soften the blow.

Tiff_2

rose07 wrote:

hi all, ah tiff nice to see ya, but what you doing up at this time? lol
ok i just need to do this:AAAAARRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHH
phew that feels a bit better
i have lost me job this week, due to health rocketing.
well lots of things not alright (but wont bore yas wit all detail) and having an impact on how i feel.
plus had a mega arguement with my mum before bet she will kick me out soon.
anyhooo
hope you are all ok, it has been abit quiet today, but i have found it hard to post today too, just not great at the mo, but tomorrow a new day and a new 24 hours that may or maynot get worse lets see.

hope your all taking care of yourselfs
xxxx

Hi Angel -Very sorry to hear about your job - you've got to concentrate on yourself now. Your health comes first. Sorry to re your row with Mum. You can bore us with details whenever you want to (said welly-wearing Tiff) - you know how this thread works hun, we support each other.
You'd be surprised at the times I jump on here - could 5.30a.m. 0r 10.15pm.:rolleyes: I just got off when you posted this or i'd have stayed on. You can tell us - it's just between you, me and 11,000 others!:D Another point of view etc. - you know how great the posters are on here.
Slow down, rest and let us know how you are hun.
Be kind to yourself angel x

Tiff_2

flis21 wrote:

Rose, oh I am sorry honey, losing your job must be awful. Although I don't thnk it is long before I will be following you. Had a serious talk to my husband last night and we could just about keep our heads above water, paying rent and essential bills, on just his wage, so I might quit my job. It is making my depression a lot worse and I don't want to end up back where I was at the beginning of the year, which was my lowest point.

I do have a job interview tomorrow for somewhere else, but don't want to end up pining all my hopes on that in case I don't get it. Part of me thinks I could do with a couple of months off from working to get my head straight a bit, but I am worried, firstly, about relying solely on my husband's income, it doesn't seem very fair on him, and secondly about what I would tell workplaces when I wanted to return to work.

I don't know what to do. Am phoning in sick today, really can't face going to work, feel sick and shaky at the thought of it and I know I would just cry all day, so there is no point. I have to take tomorrow off sick anyway, as I have my interview and I am going back to my doctor tomorrow. Had a panic attack last night, so I think I need to go back on the beta blockers, to help control my heart rate. Really feels like it is going to come out of my chest somedays as it beats so fast.

Hey flis - feeling any better this a.m. flis? The job is obviously making your health worse - so there's one answer already. Good luck with the interview and [STRIKE]vets[/STRIKE] err, doctors, angel.
Tiffy Tip :rolleyes: - don't sl@g off your current employer (even if deserved) -say you are looking for new opportunities and challenges and that's why you're leaving.
If you take a couple of months off, say you took a few weeks off to study/ enjoy Christmas together as a family for thr first time in years/ donate your kidney/or that you'd heard that they were doing the interview and you've fallen madly in lust (yes, I know what I wrote;) ) ,but you miss being part of a team at work.
If you leave out the kidney & fancying them bits, they are all valid reasons.
We're all here for ou flis, Good luck! x

EthelBloggs

Tiff wrote:

Hi Ethel. Why not give your pharmacist a call & check that it's ok first? Some natural meds may not mix well with some things. Just a thought hun!
Best wishes

Good point.. I didn't think of that and became really nauseous after I took the vits

More research required methinks

Tiff_2

Poppycat wrote:

Thanks Tiff for the tip. I do qualify for travel costs to and from hospital to take my daughter there and back but no visiting. It aint much but it helps, I get 10p per mile and just doesnt quite cover it even though I dont put me foot down but it does at least soften the blow.

may be worth a call to the grant fund with it being a child - worth a call because they change all the rules at DWP every 3rd Wednesday and on each full moon.:rotfl:
I hope theywill transport her home to local hospital as soon as she's well enough to travel.
off to do sme more thinking!;)
Talk later. x

flis21

Tiff wrote:

Hey flis - feeling any better this a.m. flis? The job is obviously making your health worse - so there's one answer already. Good luck with the interview and [STRIKE]vets[/STRIKE] err, doctors, angel.
Tiffy Tip :rolleyes: - don't sl@g off your current employer (even if deserved) -say you are looking for new opportunities and challenges and that's why you're leaving.
If you take a couple of months off, say you took a few weeks off to study/ enjoy Christmas together as a family for thr first time in years/ donate your kidney/or that you'd heard that they were doing the interview and you've fallen madly in lust (yes, I know what I wrote;) ) ,but you miss being part of a team at work.
If you leave out the kidney & fancying them bits, they are all valid reasons.
We're all here for ou flis, Good luck! x

Hi Tiff,

Thanks for your post. Agree about the not slagging off my current employer bit. The new job is actually term time only, so am going to say that my SIL has asked me to look after my niece in the school holidays, so I want to change to a job that is term time only to allow me the time to do this. It is not technically a lie as she has asked that if I get the job could I help out a bit in the holidays.

Feeling really !!!!!! today, but have phoned in sick for today and won't be going in tomorrow either, so no more work until Monday, which makes me feel a bit better. Still feel very shaky and a bit teary tho. Can't wait to see my doctor tomorrow, he is fantastic and always makes me feel a bit better. Might ask for a referral to the CMHT again, as I think I am going downhill at the mo and I need the extra support.

Well, hope everyone else is ok today. Might be on here quite a bit today as I am at home all day now.