depression

feelinggood_2

jellycat40 wrote:

that is good new poppycat.

Thanks to all for your goodwishes and especially those of Betty and tiff.

Feeling good what can I say, we have no magic here. Go and see your GP/Careteam if you have one. Tell them how you feel, there is no shame in it, you are poorly. We are here though to boost you and give you what support we can. You are doing well to manage to post, you have had some rough times. Self harm is something I can identify with and I would urge you to get some help for this. There will be a self help group in your area it is a matter of how to source it that will be your problem, GP's not always the best informed. Do you have a psych unit near you? They will have details.

Good luck hun

Louise

Just a bit scared to go to the doctors, as everytime I do, they end up putting me on meds that make me have scary thoughts.
The crisis team in my area said I wasn't a risk, so didn't need to seem me, I tried conselling, the wait for physcotherapy is about 10 weeks, the same for CBT.
You think I should go abck anyway?
I'm just terrifed of them sectioning me :-(

jellycat40

You generally only get sectioned if you are refusing help, you are not. You want help.

Try asking your doc for different meds and you don't need to be a danger to get help. The crisis team, yes they are there for just that, crisis, but there are Careteams out there on the NHS who can be a phone call away, just keep on. I know it is difficult when you are feeling so s**t but do you have anyone who can be your advocate or friend in this and come to appointments with you.

You can't go on the way you are, maybe you could see a different doc in your practice.

Louise

feelinggood_2

I jsut don't want to risk everything. I don't want them to do anything I don't want them too. I've seen a few doctors there, and they all offer the same things. I told the doctor my concerns over pills last time, and she assured me the ones she was giving me were okay and they weren't
I'll stop interupting your thread now, I'll be alright
I've got my medication on tap (yay vodka!)

feelinggood_2

Right guys, I'm off.
Basiaclly, I can't cope

rose07

Tiff wrote:

Hi my Rose!
I know - I should be so lucky right?:rolleyes:
Not famous to get a stalker, thank God. I'm not far off giving in - my defences are getting weaker.:o
Sorry you had such a bad day hun - and yet you still managed to post!:T
Another one who hides behind lol's & :rotfl: ! Hah - I got my own wellington boots now Rosie!!!;)
I hate days like that - it's like your brain can't decide what to do with itself
and puts your body on hold while it figures it out!:rotfl:
Hoping today is better for you angel - look after yourself!
Much love Tiff x

yeah you know me to well, if i just lol, and :rotfl: then at least i dont have to face things.
i always manage to post silly as it sounds but it keeps me going you lot just have to put up with me rambings. lol

ok got a story for you all, was going to tell you all this yesteray, have any of you ever saved anyone?, i have a few people they are all long stories but am going to tell you one now.
if you found someone wanting to kill themselves would you stop them or help them, silly as this may sound but each time i have wanted to do it i have always wished people wouldnt get involved and just leave me in a curled up in a ball??
ok anyhooo.
i was at college and one of my best mates came into college with blades he came towards me and said im going to kill you, then he took another one of my mates and held her round her neck with a blade, i was trying to get him to calm down, it was awful i was only 17/18. i was sitting talking to him, while all i could see in my other mates face was fear, i managed to get my mate away from him. she was terrified at what he might do he was shaking and well bit unstable., i was very concerned for him as i knew how he was feeling. he was sitting cutting himself, i tried and stopped him, but got caught with the blade myself, he had a whole load of them.
then suddenly he ran out of college and siad to me and my mate, right im going to kill myself we ran aftr him my heart was beating soo fast at what might happen next, we got down the road from college and he stopped and said dont come any closer or i will do it, i didnt know what to do.
my mate started to talk to him, i began to feel useless untill i realised that i knew how he felt and if he just told me what had happened to make him feel this way we could sort it out together. my mate was beggin him not to do anything silli. he wouldnt stop going on about it he had the blade to his wrist and kept saying things, my mate couldnt handle anymore, she spent about 15mins just trying to get him to understand that its not the way to go as it were. she couldnt handle anymore and went to try and find a tutor, i went up to my mate with the blades in his hand he was an ex of mine and i gently said why what is wrong, i held him and said whatevers happened you can tell me i wont judge i wont have a go i will just listen, he said how a few things had happened at home and how he couldnt cope anymore. i could relate to what he said, i managed while we were talking to take the blades of him, he then said how he didnt really want to do it but couldnt see anyway out, i said there is always another way, even if its just talking to someone, you can talk to me anytime im not going anywhere. he burst into tears and said he was sorry, though he didnt need to say sorry as i understood how he was feeling i have been there done it. i told him to go home and relax and ring me llater that night and we would chat. he headed down the road and i was left holding the blades that he had, i suddenly became aware of the harm i could do to myself with them, i ran into college and found my personal tutor who i had a very close bond with could he take them as i didnt trust myself with them, he did, and then asked me what had happened i told him and he said i did the right thing.
anyway guess your wondering why im telling you this, well yesterday i went back to college and all these things came back to me, i went to see my old tutor that was not just a tutor but my friend we still keep in contact and are friends now.
anyway dont know if you would call it saving my mate but he was soo serious and i somehow was the only one that managed to get the blades and takecare of him, theres not a day that goes by that i dont think about that day.

ok so there we go, a little story for yas. just needed to get it off me chest, thanks. hope you all dont mind as i know it could be a happier story.
and tiff, im not going anywhere so i can wait for as long as i need to, it is better to tell someone than get all stressed about it, im here for you and anyone else always xxx

rose07

hi everyone flis, betty, slayerx, Mrs A, jellycat, and well just everyone.
hope you are ok?

poppy glad your daughter is ok, and that you are all getting through it as a family, this will keep you strong, sounds like your daughter is very strong and of course you should be proud, stay strong and your daughter will be strong too. xxx

jellycat, hello, havent seen ya in a while?
are you ok?
take it easi and be kind to yourself x

feeling good, hey hun, do you have any interests or support in place to help you out?
one of the things that has had an impact on my depression is being raped too, (cant believe i said it havent been able to say the word in a while) .
are there family that can understand and talk too?
try not to worry about the whole being sectioned thing yeah easier said than done i know, but you sound like you want the help and you dont get sectioned if you want help its usually a free choice thing and its not like in the movies hun, i have been there, its alot more controlled nowadays, though maybe it does depend where you are?
main thing is if self harming then you need to get help with this asap, i have self harmed so can relate. and the people around you are there to help, so let them and dont be scared bring someone with you if ever your scared.
and we are all here for you too, your not interupting the thread all are welcome and its what we are all here for, let us know how you go, take care xxx

Tiff, im not wearing me boots today, so i will be tip toeing around. lol
anyway hope you all ok, betty mrs a, and taking care of yourself, if not do it now. lol.
take care all
xxx

Slayerx

Hi everyone hope your all well.

I'm off back to the doctors but couldn't get an appointment until Monday without seeing the doctor I saw last time. Hopefully this doctor will take a more sympathetic view.

Sugar_Coated_Owl

I haven't checked this thread in a while.

How is everyone doing? :grouphug:

I'm pretty much feeling the same way I was this time last year

Take care everyone.

skintchick

So THIS is where this thread went! I've been posting in DT about my depression being back. Haven;t caught up on posts here yet - will read it tomorrow when i am not half full of rum and coke (!)

but hugs to everyone who's having a bad time.

maxinecook

Just found this thread

Can't believe so many people feel like me. I've felt so lonely with this disease for so long .I am full time working mum with a sometimes employed husband who suffers with S.A.D so my poor kids have 2 loonies in the winter time as parents. On the outside noboby would know I suffer with depression ,I hold down a full time job ,drive a car have 2 beautiful well adjusted daughters but I am slowly dying inside.If I don't work I just stay in bed all day and night ,I take a whole lot of drugs prozac for depression ,3 differnent ones for high blood pressure and thyroxine so I rattle a lot.The last few months have been very tough for me ,my husband lost his job and has just got a temp one recently so our income dropped by 2/3 and I have been trying to make ends meet by cutting back dramatically and doing matched betting (which I am being very successful at) but I am getting lower and lower ,I'm drinking far too much sometimes 2 bottles of red wine a night ,can't sleep . My husband is a lovely man but from the time we met he wanted to be my best friend and over the years I've let friends drift away my family all live in in Dublin so can't really help me out and now I find myself so low with noone to talk to. i don't know where to turn to -therapy has never helped me in the past
Any one got any suggestions

Thanks
Max