depression

flis21

feelinggood wrote:

Hey all
Sorry to butt in on your thread, I just wanted to ask some advice
I wondered if anyone has found a good way to cope with depression?
Think I'm on my 3rd bout of serious depression, and I am trying to work out what to do.
First bout, I drank it away, don't remember much about it. The was prescribed an SSRI and started self harming. The pain eventually went away, after about 1 year. That was my first serious bout and was sparked by a rape and fathers imprisionment along with bullying and a few other things. That was 6 years ago.
2nd bout I was prescribed SSRIs but took myself off them when the suicidal and self harming thoughts came back. Tried conselling, but only went for about 4 sessions. The pain went away after about 3 months.
Starting to notice the erratic behaviour and feelings/urges that I got the last 2 times, and am trying to work out what to do?

I think if we could answer this we would all be very rich and happy and not on this thread!!

No seriously, you have to find out what works for you. For me it is medication (SSRI and an anti-psychotic) and taking walks with my husband where we talk everything through and I can let a lot of my emotions out. Also having a periodic good cry, which helps to relieve some of it as well.

You have to find out what works for you. Talk all the options through with your doctor. Things like exercise and good diet are supposed to help (although I am not good at either of those!!)

I hope things go ok for you and if you need any help or support we are all here for you. That is how this thread works, if someone is having a bad day the rest of us rally round to help out.

flis21

Hi Everyone,

Sorry, it is me who needs some support this evening. Am feeling really low. Have been really upset and hating work and thinking no one there likes me and everyone talks about me behind my back. Well my boss calls me into the office today, tells me that I am lazy and then repeats to me some slightly 'negative' comments I made in confidence to the girl I am working with. Basically now feel that my boss hates me (which I thought before anyway) also feel that my team mate is spying on me and reporting back my every move to my boss.

Feel that I am really useless and !!!!!!, no matter how hard I try and how much work I put it I am not good enough, so feel worse about myself. Really feel that I can't do anything now. Have not felt this low for ages, have been crying all afternoon, not that anyone at work really seemed to care.

Really want to hand my notice in, but don't have another job to go to. I keep trying to work out what is making me feel like this, is it my boss (who is a horrid cow!), is it the job itself, is it the culture in the company or is it my illness? I just can't figure it out. I am tempted to think it is a mixture of my boss and my illness, but how much is attributable to each one? And should I leave my job because of it?

Can you tell my anxiety and paranoia are kicking in!!

Dora_the_Explorer_5

Flis, sometimes it's hard to figure things out. Have a look at this, it might help a bit. Good luck.

http://www.livinglifetothefull.com/elearning/index.php?option=com_frontpage&Itemid=1

rose07

flis21 wrote:

Hi Everyone,

Sorry, it is me who needs some support this evening. Am feeling really low. Have been really upset and hating work and thinking no one there likes me and everyone talks about me behind my back. Well my boss calls me into the office today, tells me that I am lazy and then repeats to me some slightly 'negative' comments I made in confidence to the girl I am working with. Basically now feel that my boss hates me (which I thought before anyway) also feel that my team mate is spying on me and reporting back my every move to my boss.

Feel that I am really useless and !!!!!!, no matter how hard I try and how much work I put it I am not good enough, so feel worse about myself. Really feel that I can't do anything now. Have not felt this low for ages, have been crying all afternoon, not that anyone at work really seemed to care.

Really want to hand my notice in, but don't have another job to go to. I keep trying to work out what is making me feel like this, is it my boss (who is a horrid cow!), is it the job itself, is it the culture in the company or is it my illness? I just can't figure it out. I am tempted to think it is a mixture of my boss and my illness, but how much is attributable to each one? And should I leave my job because of it?

Can you tell my anxiety and paranoia are kicking in!!

hi flis
im feeling awful myself too tonight.

but back to you...
your boss sounds like a bit of a !!!!!! hun, its good that there are other people round you at work and not just you and him, see if there is another time when he is like this towards you film it or record it so you have a backup against him, and make sure you talk to people about it.

even if peopledont seem to care at work we care about you and im sure your family do. xxx
if they cant see how much you are upset by things then they need to take a good luck at themselves sometimes people dont know how to react or what to say.

what is it you feel that you need to do hun? do you need a job? eg do you have a family to support and as to your health you need to do whatever it takes to be ok.
take care
im here if ya need a chat
xxx

Tiff_2

feelinggood wrote:

Hey all
Sorry to butt in on your thread, I just wanted to ask some advice
I wondered if anyone has found a good way to cope with depression?
Think I'm on my 3rd bout of serious depression, and I am trying to work out what to do.
First bout, I drank it away, don't remember much about it. The was prescribed an SSRI and started self harming. The pain eventually went away, after about 1 year. That was my first serious bout and was sparked by a rape and fathers imprisionment along with bullying and a few other things. That was 6 years ago.
2nd bout I was prescribed SSRIs but took myself off them when the suicidal and self harming thoughts came back. Tried conselling, but only went for about 4 sessions. The pain went away after about 3 months.
Starting to notice the erratic behaviour and feelings/urges that I got the last 2 times, and am trying to work out what to do?

Hi feelinggood -join the gang - we'll all help if we can - great thread for that this is. I think the first thing to do is get to your GP asap! You've got to treat each bout as a new thing. If you try and compare this that and the other angel, you'll only end up as confused as I get!;)
Angel it's not up to you to figure out what to do about it - that's what they pay the docs for. I can imagine you must feel frightened and depressed at the thought of what might happen next - which is why you got to go and see the doctors. Go now while you're still in the early stages og what YOU (the real expert!) is recognising as the start of a problem.
Reading between the lines, it sounds more than depression with the traumas involved. Has something happened recently to upset you or worry you? If so, you might have reactive depression but the docs need to diagnose what's wrong hun - I'm no expert by any means!
If you're an old hand with depression, then I hope they told you that there are many medications and therapies to try - don't give up hun because the next one might be a winner.;) Just be totally honest and if something's not working, you have to say so.
I'm sending you big hugs and thinking of you and I hope I've been of some use angel. Let us know how you get on. I'm catching up on my posts -busy, busy Tiff ! - so I'm sure everyone has been giving you great advice and support. I should have read theirs before posting. Sorry for any repetition. Best wishes x

Tiff_2

Poppycat wrote:

Hi guys, thanks very much for your kind words.

I went to hospital this morning about tennish my daughter went in for her Op at 8.30. When she awoke around 11.15 myself and Oh went in to see her, she was in so much pain, but bless her she was so brave, I cant believe how good she was, I am a coward in comparison to her, she made me so proud, I just had to have the odd tear but hid it.

Fortuntely she didnt have a much bigger operation than we were led to believer that being where her hip went into the socket, cant remember name, but we were told she would be out this Friday but it looks more like Monday or late weekend.

Hi Poppycat:hello:
Thank God for that. Thinking of you and yours angel. To have gone through what you are going through disqualifies you from being a coward. Where do you think she gets her courage from?!;) Keep us posted
Much love Tiff x

Tiff_2

Hi guys -is it just me or is it starting to feel like family around here?;)
I hope everyone is holding on and I'm sending you all much love.
When I explain you'll understand why I've been posting in a hurry this last few days and I'm sorry if I've neglected anyone - I will get to you - don't say I didn't warn you!:rolleyes:
Sounds like a lot are having a rough time at the moment - keep posting everyone! Hoping rose, flis, razor..., slayerx, jellycat, bettyboop and the rest of the gang (too many to list) know I'm sending huge hugs to you all.
All we can do is look forward to tomorrow - after all it's a chance to scr*w another 24 hours up! :rotfl: Be kind to yourself guys
Much love Tiff xxx

rose07

hi all, ah tiff nice to see ya, but what you doing up at this time? lol
ok i just need to do this:AAAAARRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHH
phew that feels a bit better
i have lost me job this week, due to health rocketing.
well lots of things not alright (but wont bore yas wit all detail) and having an impact on how i feel.
plus had a mega arguement with my mum before bet she will kick me out soon.
anyhooo
hope you are all ok, it has been abit quiet today, but i have found it hard to post today too, just not great at the mo, but tomorrow a new day and a new 24 hours that may or maynot get worse lets see.

hope your all taking care of yourselfs
xxxx

Poppycat

I couldnt see my daughter yesterday as I cant afford the trip every day but she is being looked after and OH is with her always, she did have visitors today from my Mother, and MIL and my youngest. I wasnt going to go until Friday but I may go later today, Thursday.

OH told us she was sick and tired which is understandable given what the poor babe went through, I admire her so much for what she went through she is normally a wimp, hates needles etc but having had the Op and gone through pain and I could see it in her face, chin trembling, oh I love her so much.

I just struggling sleeping with worry all time, what if etc goes through my mind, silly I no but cant help but feel that and I wish it would go away.

She doesnt eat a lot never has done, and because of CMT she is often sick, I am a little concerned she aint eating and she is quite skinny and small, but she has a heart of gold, bless her, shes my babe.

If I learned something this week its family are so important and its times like this we have to pull together.

We dont have much cash but what we do have is each other and love is free

I no I suffer from depression and if I was alone I probably wouldnt be here now, its because of my family that keeps me that bit sane.

Thanks for your support and best wishes to you all.

Poppycat

Hi Rose07, sorry to hear of you loosing your job, I have been there so I no what its like.

Try and not despair, yes I no its hard, I been there, I never thought I woudl be out fo work for so long because of ill health.

I hope you get better soon and a job comes up. I get some relief from doing so voluntary work it doesnt pay but the rewards of helping others helps me

rose07 wrote:

hi all, ah tiff nice to see ya, but what you doing up at this time? lol
ok i just need to do this:
phew that feels a bit better
i have lost me job this week, due to health rocketing.
well lots of things not alright (but wont bore yas wit all detail) and having an impact on how i feel.
plus had a mega arguement with my mum before bet she will kick me out soon.
anyhooo
hope you are all ok, it has been abit quiet today, but i have found it hard to post today too, just not great at the mo, but tomorrow a new day and a new 24 hours that may or maynot get worse lets see.

hope your all taking care of yourselfs
xxxx