depression

Poppycat

I had a terrible day. Firstly my daughter was taken to hospital 50 miles away for a operation we were waiting for since early this year.

I had a argument with OH in car about a sat nav silly argument and then when we got to hospital the staff member that let us in children ward hadn't a clue who the heck were were. We then had to wait almost an hour in a playroom until someone I assume would see us, and to top it all a parent came in after us and was seen to first, I just lost my rag over it.

It was just the stress of my daughter having here operation tomorrow that's flipped me really, I am feeling so sick, tired, and stressed. She has her Op tomorrow so its another 100 mile trip to hospital, OH is looking after her there as I have another daughter to look after.

She's usually pretty lazy around house, but she is so helpful tonight, its times like this when families pull together.

Eldest is having a hip operation in the morning.

rose07

aaawww poppycat, soz you havent had a great day here is a :grouphug: from me.
is your daughter ok?
yeah your right its times like these that you find out who the people closest to you are.
are you ok though? i can be very hard when someone you love is going for an operation im sure everything will be ok.
but stop take a few deep breathes, in and out, slowly.
lots of anti stress vibes on thier way too you poppy, . . . . .
take a deeep breathe in. . . . . . . . .. . . . .. . . . . ... hold for 3 seconds . . . . .
1. . . 2 . . .3. . . . . and breathe out.

and we are all here for you. xxx


im feeling not ok today :mad: :sad: _pale_ :think: ???
hard to have the words but there we go. lol

hey everyone, hope your all ok
and tiff a stalker? where? :eek:
love to all
xxx

ps: aww tiff you musta heard me coming that time.

Poppycat

Thanks for the support, she inherited CMT which she has had all her life its only when she was 14 that we knew (actually it was about this time last year we found out) though which it has only became a real problem over last few years when her body maturing, she limps badly so hopefully the Op will correct the hip, the leg bone is being broken and re-angled and her hip is being realigned. She dos suffer other things, like frequently sick, shes quiet small/skiny for 15 and she prone to poor circulation. On the bright side there always someone wors ethan yourself

rose07

aaawww big hug well i hope it all goes ok and that your daughter will be ok?
it all sounds quite painful.
it must be scary for her and you all but if you all stay strong as a family you will be stronger together. xxx

Tiff_2

rose07 wrote:

aaawww poppycat, soz you havent had a great day here is a :grouphug: from me.
is your daughter ok?
yeah your right its times like these that you find out who the people closest to you are.
are you ok though? i can be very hard when someone you love is going for an operation im sure everything will be ok.
but stop take a few deep breathes, in and out, slowly.
lots of anti stress vibes on thier way too you poppy, . . . . .
take a deeep breathe in. . . . . . . . .. . . . .. . . . . ... hold for 3 seconds . . . . .
1. . . 2 . . .3. . . . . and breathe out.

and we are all here for you. xxx
im feeling not ok today :mad: :sad: _pale_ :think: ???
hard to have the words but there we go. lol

hey everyone, hope your all ok
and tiff a stalker? where? :eek:
love to all
xxx

ps: aww tiff you musta heard me coming that time.

Hi my Rose!
I know - I should be so lucky right?:rolleyes:
Not famous to get a stalker, thank God. I'm not far off giving in - my defences are getting weaker.:o
Sorry you had such a bad day hun - and yet you still managed to post!:T
Another one who hides behind lol's & :rotfl: ! Hah - I got my own wellington boots now Rosie!!!;)
I hate days like that - it's like your brain can't decide what to do with itself
and puts your body on hold while it figures it out!:rotfl:
Hoping today is better for you angel - look after yourself!
Much love Tiff x

Tiff_2

Hi Poppycat.:hello:
Thinking of you and yours angel and hoping that today goes well for you all.
Thanks for posting and sharing.
And yes, there is always someone worse off than yourself as the saying goes, but sometimes it is your turn!
Poppycat, your pain is as important to you as anybody else's is to them. You're obviously a very strong person and also very stressed at the moment so come on here and shout at [STRIKE]Rose[/STRIKE] er, I mean Tiff whenever you need to.
Seriously angel, it's very hard to maintain that 'calm-it's-all-okay' exterior to everyone when on the inside you're terrified, worried and exhausted. I'm sure everyone will understand you being super-stressed over the coming weeks. Just try and snatch a few minutes of you-time whenever you can - you have to top up your own reserves when you can in order to carry on being strong.
I hope that this operation relieves her pain bless her. I'm sure everyone here is sending you all huge hugs and keeping you all in their thoughts.
Much love Tiff x

bettyboop61

Poppycat just wanted to send you a hug to let you know I'm thinking of you and your family, it is very hard when you have a child in hospital, the stress is unbelievable and on top of that you have the very long round trip to and from the hospital, you must be very exhausted, hang on in there and all will bbe well I'm sure. Big hugsssss again.

Morning Rose:wave: morning Tiff:wave: How are you both this morning? I'm not feeling to hot myself today:( don't know why, I've just got this terrible sinking feeling oh well I guess I'll just have to plod on like we all have to do!!

Hi Jellycat, I've got the opposite of you at the minute, I have increased the dose of my AD and I can't sleep, its such a pain, especially when you know you have full days ahead of you and your lying there in the night unable to sleep! Mind you its just as bad being extremely tired and knowing you have things to do but your just too tired to do them, we just can't win can we? But hopefully things will improve... all we can do is hope isn't it?

How is everyone else? Slayerx, flis, etc

Hope you all have a better day, hugs and love

Betty

feelinggood_2

Hey all
Sorry to butt in on your thread, I just wanted to ask some advice
I wondered if anyone has found a good way to cope with depression?
Think I'm on my 3rd bout of serious depression, and I am trying to work out what to do.
First bout, I drank it away, don't remember much about it. The was prescribed an SSRI and started self harming. The pain eventually went away, after about 1 year. That was my first serious bout and was sparked by a rape and fathers imprisionment along with bullying and a few other things. That was 6 years ago.
2nd bout I was prescribed SSRIs but took myself off them when the suicidal and self harming thoughts came back. Tried conselling, but only went for about 4 sessions. The pain went away after about 3 months.
Starting to notice the erratic behaviour and feelings/urges that I got the last 2 times, and am trying to work out what to do?

Poppycat

Hi guys, thanks very much for your kind words.

I went to hospital this morning about tennish my daughter went in for her Op at 8.30. When she awoke around 11.15 myself and Oh went in to see her, she was in so much pain, but bless her she was so brave, I cant believe how good she was, I am a coward in comparison to her, she made me so proud, I just had to have the odd tear but hid it.

Fortuntely she didnt have a much bigger operation than we were led to believer that being where her hip went into the socket, cant remember name, but we were told she would be out this Friday but it looks more like Monday or late weekend.

jellycat40

that is good new poppycat.

Thanks to all for your goodwishes and especially those of Betty and tiff.

Feeling good what can I say, we have no magic here. Go and see your GP/Careteam if you have one. Tell them how you feel, there is no shame in it, you are poorly. We are here though to boost you and give you what support we can. You are doing well to manage to post, you have had some rough times. Self harm is something I can identify with and I would urge you to get some help for this. There will be a self help group in your area it is a matter of how to source it that will be your problem, GP's not always the best informed. Do you have a psych unit near you? They will have details.

Good luck hun

Louise