depression

flis21

Hi Rose, glad you seem to be feeling a little bit better today. Was really worried about you the other night, but we all have a bad days!

Robbie was fantastic, atmosphere was amazing, it is the first concert I have ever been to, so I didn't really know what to expect. But when you have 65,000 people with their arms in the air singing along at the top of their voices you just get swept along with it. It was fab.

Feeling really tired now, but don't want to go to bed too early. I am not the best sleeper anyway and I don't want to end up waking up at 3am and not getting back to sleep, so thought I would come on here to keep me awake for a while.

On Tuesday night Stephen Fry is doing a programme about depression at 9pm on BBC2, looks quite interesting, he talks about his battle with depression and other people (including Robbie and Carrie Fisher) talk about their experiences as well. Must be worth a watch.

rose07

thanks flis
yeah do feel a bit better, have to be honest i was worried that night too.
absolutely shattered today though after last night, didnt get to bed till 7 this morning.

i do really like robbie, i think he is greeeat. must have been great to be there, and be out with your mate there, musta been quite overwhelming too tho?

will have to watch out for that stephen fry programme as sounds like it could be good.

hope you are ok flis?
and manage to sleep tonight
xxx

Tiff_2

Agutka wrote:

Snap out it, why are you crying, no point in crying, what's the matter? why are you upset, stop being upset. you're always in a mood. what is it now? god, you're always like that, why can't you be happy?

I can hear people say these things all the time. There are no answers and they can't accept that.

I was diagnosed with depression some 10 years back, but I got better within a year, stopped medication and sessions. Except reading this thread I am wondering if I am better at all. Thanks for making me think about it... It explains a lot. I'm not crying or feeling particularly blue, but have complete lack of motivation, ambition - could just be lazy :rolleyes: . But reading through my old diaries I am horrified at how unhappy I have been all my life. Which is making me question who I am? I don't think I know myself at all... If I am right to relate to the world as I do. Feeling extremely hard done by, but also feel I am misleading myself in some way. That I perceive the world all wrong. Should talk it over with someone really.

A recent incident - we decided to try for a baby, and after our first attempts didn't work I got, well, depressed. That is the correct word for it. I have never felt anything like it - like a huge black weight fell down on top of me, I knew it was wrong. It only thankfully lasted for four days but it scared me - I did not smile once, cried a lot, felt a weird restlessness and worst of all I felt an incredible urge like I wanted to hurt myself - that's what got me out of it - I literally walked it off one afternoon, as I was getting no support and was very close to something stupid. Very overwhelming. I can't see how people can live with that.
Mentioned this to my family and all I got was 'why? you shouldn't get upset, it's perfectly normal not to conceive at first' Yes I know that thank you. There is no reason for it and people just don't understand that.

Sorry to charge in there unannounced. Hope y'all are great this evening.

Hi Agutka - you're very welcome here - no apologies needed.
I'm so sorry you've had such a hard life angel. Looking through your diaries is bound to be upsetting but it serves a purpose: you can look at it & say 'That was how my life used to be and look how far I've come!'
You're obviously a survivor hun, so I'd hang fire on deciding whether or not your depression is coming back or not. After all, you've just had a really rough time and it's natural to feel the way you did - there'd be something really wrong with you if you didn't!;)
People mean well and others just want you to shut up, because you make them feel uncomfortable - they can't relate to your experiences and they're not brave enough like you to express their emotions.
Don't doubt yourself Agutka - you do know yourself! You know why you're feeling the way you do, you know that you made an excellent recovery from depression 10 years ago, and you know how much you wanted your trying to get pregnant work. I'd give myself some recovery time if I were you angel. It's very easy to confuse depression with a normal reaction to a hard situation. I'm hoping you're getting support from your OH - he must be upset too.
Next time someone tells you to 'snap out of it', and they know what you've been through, ask them if would they like you to pull a rabbit out of a hat too because that's equally as impossible for you to achieve at the moment as 'snapping out of it'!
When you've been through a hard time, you have to be kind to yourself and you have to give yourself that time angel. You feel how you feel and you can't help that and if people were more understanding and stopped telling you how to feel, you might feel better more quickly!;)
Keep in touch - hope I've helped a little. Best wishes x

Tiff_2

mclaren wrote:

its neither - its simplly plain ignorance imo. These people who are mentally ok think that its a joke and just are plain ignorant and dont care about what we think about etc....

People are generally unaware of how depression affects you unless they've experienced it. We do have to remember that there are some very kind people out there too (will let your all know when I find one!:p ) who will listen and care.
IMO, depression should be talked about as much as possible in everyday life - only then can people understand and lessen the stigma. It's amazing to think that 1 in 4 have it and yet it's still something that's whispered about. We should try and re-educate people when we can. Other peole are just frightened of it and because they don't know how to react, then it's you they want to change.
So the next time someone tells you to 'snap out of it' etc., say to them
"Great idea! And how exactly do I do that? Don't you think I would if I could?!"
Maybe then they will realise that you haven't just broken a nail!:rolleyes:
Hope you're doing ok mclaren.
best wishes.

Tiff_2

rose07 wrote:

hello all

how is everyone today?
slayerx glad your feeling a bit better.
flis - wow robbie williams, that must have been great, what was the atmosphere like?

well i think i have a hang over, silly as that sounds but its been so long since i have had one i have no idea, not very well anyway. but ok.

tiff i forgot to wear me wellie boots, :rolleyes: ,
anyhooo hope your all ok
just a quick post as not feeling to well
xxxxxx

Hi Rose!:D
I'm running out of places to hide! :eek:
Still I'm very proud to say that I've had the world's first internet stalker!:rotfl:
Seriously though, hope the drink has worn off & the double vision has gone and that you're a sober Rose this Monday morning! I'm glad you had a good time - good for you!:D
Talk later - if you can catch me
Much love x

Tiff_2

Hi Everyone - another day of being a busy Tiff!
Just wanted to say hi to bettyboop, flis, slayerx, agutka - in fact the whole gang and to wish you all a great Monday! Huge hugs. x
PS. Did anyone hear Rose's wellington boots coming this way?

EthelBloggs

Hiya everyone, hope ur all doing ok today

I'm on citalopram (sp?) and I bought some vitamin D and 5-HTP at the weekend to see if that helps as I normally get very very down when the weather starts changing. Not really too sure about dosage so I'm going to read up a bit before I start taking them.

Take care and have as good a day as you can

Tiff_2

EthelBloggs wrote:

Hiya everyone, hope ur all doing ok today

I'm on citalopram (sp?) and I bought some vitamin D and 5-HTP at the weekend to see if that helps as I normally get very very down when the weather starts changing. Not really too sure about dosage so I'm going to read up a bit before I start taking them.

Take care and have as good a day as you can

Hi Ethel. Why not give your pharmacist a call & check that it's ok first? Some natural meds may not mix well with some things. Just a thought hun!
Best wishes

jellycat40

Hi all, glad you are all hanging on in there. I am doing ok, up and down.

The new anti depressants the doc gave me tire me out and I can sleep for England. I am trying to go to the gym and walk lots to try and combat it (doc advice) but unless someone picks me up and takes me I don't go. Fortunately have a friend who does sometimes.

Went away at the weekend with OH, DS1 and DS3. Had a nice time. That is an improvement I thought something was nice!

Louise

Tiff_2

jellycat40 wrote:

Hi all, glad you are all hanging on in there. I am doing ok, up and down.

The new anti depressants the doc gave me tire me out and I can sleep for England. I am trying to go to the gym and walk lots to try and combat it (doc advice) but unless someone picks me up and takes me I don't go. Fortunately have a friend who does sometimes.

Went away at the weekend with OH, DS1 and DS3. Had a nice time. That is an improvement I thought something was nice!

Louise

Hey Jellycat!:hello:
Wow, you're sounding so much better angel - great news!:T
Hopefully the Ad's will get used to your system shortly and then you'll be so full of get up and go, you'll only need 45 mins sleep a night!:rotfl:
It's good that you've recognised the improvement yourself Louise - that's a big step & will be encouraging for you.
Thinking of you - you go girl!:rotfl: