depression

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(((feelinggood))) - you must do what you feel is right for yourself, it sounds like you are in a situation that is only going to make you feel worse as time goes on and you need to get out even if it is hard, you cant go through life feeling miserable

(((Rose07))) - I hope you feel better soon and find someone to talk to who can help.

Ive had a pretty !!!!!! day, its payday and yet again ive been underpaid. As im not at work at the mo I cant check the payslips etc to see what has gone wrong and get it fixed. Im going to call head office tomorrow and scream at someone. Its this kind of !!!! that makes me feel like quitting because its certainly not the first time ive been screwed over by my employers - my whole time of employment has been one long nightmare after another and its doing my head in.

I recently asked to reduce my contractual hours because of the stress and was told they were going to move me to another branch, and was given half an hour notice that I was covering in another branch for my last week so I didnt even get chance to clear out my desk. At no time did they ask if it was ok and they knew I was having problems but didnt care if it was going to adversely affect me. Ive also had other problems and its just getting too much.

When im in my new branch I sit there silently screaming to myself all day because I cant cope with it. Now I have to sort this out tomorrow and at the moment I cant face it but I have to to prevent financial destitution - when all I really feel like I can do at the moment do as little as possible because my sleeping is incredibly bad, the antidepressants are making me feel really wierd, and taking a shower feels like a climbing a bloody mountain.

Anyway, sorry for the rant, im still wide awake but physically exhausted, ive just spent the last couple of hours cleaning manically to take my mind off the nightmare that is employers and it hasnt worked.

Jo x

Tiff_2

Miroslav wrote:

Get to bed early tonight, I know I need too!
I'm okay. Down about 'S', happy with my musical achievement......hmmmmmm, 'S' can't get out of my head

And now the new single by Girls Aloud is on :rolleyes: They seem to have murdered Tiffany's "I think we're alone now"

Tiff? Tiff? Who said Tiff?:D
Hi Miro Well done with the music hun!
Have you noticed that your music has vied for even position with 's' recently? Before that, miro was all 's' & nothing else which is understandable when you like someone.;)
Sometimes it's really hard to fulfil the expectations of others angel - as I said before, she's obviously got her own mental ill health issues and is probably giving you all that she can give you right now. It must be a heady feeling to be down in the depths and then someone comes along who makes you want to surface - but sometimes our expectations can be too much and the person can't live up to what we want them to be, and sometimes not.
Hun, don't put all your eggs in one basket at such an early stage. I don't want you to go from this:j to this hun.;)
Your life has to be made up of more than one person angel - from what you've been posting, you're throwing pheromones around like no-one's business!:rotfl: Women everywhere, bless you! So that should show you hun that there are options romantically and otherwise, if you can just raise your eyes and look with an open mind.
I'm so glad about your music miro. You know why? Because it shows that there is much more to you than 'flatmate' and 's' alone.
Fill your life with as much as you can angel - it'll give you a world of choices.
You have to get out into the world (says the recovering agoraphobic!!!:rolleyes: ) miro - the world won't come to your door. You keep up the good work!;) And before you ask - no, I'm not coming on to you! Just in case you were scared!
Much love
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Good Morning Guys
Well, yesterday was rough for quite a few of us so to anyone that's hurting, please remember, you're not alone.;) Today's another day - don't say I didn't warn you! :rolleyes:
Huge 1-In-4 hugs to Rose!;) :grouphug: Thinking of you hun :T

May I just make a comment please? (like you could stop me?! :rolleyes: )

To our lovely friends Ethel, CC and FG, you have been saying how unhappy you are in your relationships - and I send you hugs for that - and you don't know whether to stay or go. I'll try & send you the personal replies you deserve later but, imho, for what it's worth, if you are having to ask the question so much then you have your answer. If you're in love and you are being loved there is no doubt. I wouldn't presume to tell you what to do but surely a future left full of hope is better than a future left full of regrets? Please feel free to Tiffy at any point!;)
And fg, keep that cap on the bottle - you've been doing really well! :T You haven't failed hun either - you just had a hiccup that's all. Also maybe you should try to get rid of the drinking first and then stop smoking? :think: It's an awful lot of pressure to put on yourself angel - maybe just one step at a time? Having said that hun - good luck to you!;) :grouphug:

To Saz,hope you are ok hun - I know how busy you've been. Don't burn yourself out angel - we need you!:D :grouphug: If you need to (& you're not too scared!:rolleyes: ), please pm me for what will probably be totally useless words. Have a good day.

Morning blinky! Hope you're well and getting some sleep and hoping that things with 'r' are going well. Ahem - those two comments were not meant to be connected!:D Wishing you well too. Tiff hugs:grouphug:

Miro hun - I just realised why I'm immune to your dairy milk button pheromones - I'm allergic to milk!;) :rotfl: Have a good day hun.:grouphug:

To our lovely friends elona, flis, ruby, jo, gemini,et al, I'm thinking of you all and wishing you a wonderful Wednesday.

Public Health Warning
It is announced that Tiff, along with 3000 of her unused hormones, will be let out in public today for the longest time yet (a few hours) and will also be going outside her home town for the first time in years.
The public are advised ...
not to make direct eye contact ,
to allow Tiff to go to the head of any queues ,
and should Tiff escape from her leash, handfuls of £20 notes have been known to calm and distract her.
Remember, Tiff could be coming to a town near YOU!!!:rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:

Finally :rolleyes: , apologies for posting my poem yesterday - I wrote it between posts and even forgot to give it a title! Sorry guys!:o :rolleyes:

I'm very nervous about today, Tiff's feeling a bit of a http://images.google.co.uk/images?q=tbn:IOBnP5uuAqfd1M:http://www.historicnewburgh.org/Scaredy_Cat.gif ! :rotfl: Wish me - and yourselves - good luck!
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Miroslav

I will reply properly to posts since my last visit later, when the workmen are here and i'm stuck in my living room with nothing but their germs and attitude seaping under my living room door :rolleyes:

Anyway, very depressed last night, so I came to some decisions that i'll likely reverse, as I never know what i'm doing anyway!

My decisions....

'S' doesn't really like me anyway. She's going, barely keeps in touch now, after all the nice things she said, she doesn't act like they are true and I can't deal with the way things are. I need to concentrate on me, and not so much on her. Yes, I will constantly talk about her still and my feelings for her, but I can't keep chasing her, only to be let down. I'm going to try and be more distant. If she wants to know me, she'll make the effort.

I've been too hurt in life to be let down again. I need someone to make the effort with me for a change, not me make all the effort, only to be given empty words in exchange. I've been there, done it, got the t-shirt.

I walked to her's this morning, to post a copy of the CD, with an apology for it sounding so bad. Everyone has been nice about it, but she's a proper operatic singer, so i'm bad compared to everyone else, but to her, i'm like a peasant in the singing stakes. I just hope she doesn't laugh at me or never speak to me again.

I need time to re-group and consider my future.

The above may all change if she phones later and asks me to marry her :rolleyes:

More chance of Britney wanting my body than 'S' to be honest, at least Britney is 1/10th on this planet, whereas 'S'................. I just think she thinks i'm not good enough for her.

Back later (soon!)

Miroslav

Workmen are 25 mins early :eek:

9am means 9am chaps :rolleyes:

Miroslav

EthelBloggs wrote:

aaaaargggggggggh!!!! it's a long time since i've been this miserable and frustrated :mad: the fekker who nicked my laptop changed the pw to it so atm I can't get in and see if my work is still there.. I'm praying it is otherwise it's 2 years down the drain b/f works in IT and could fix it easily just keeps saying he'll do it later :mad:

I just feel like throwing it all out the window and myself after it!!!!! I'm sooo !!!!ed off I'm siting here crying cos im prolly gona have to pull a couple of all nighters to get the work done in time and i've got so much other stuff to do as well :(:(

Sorry for being so selfish when some of you have far worse things to worry for at the moment

What a bummer!

Not only a thief but a cheeky !!!!!! too.

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

I was under strict orders from Mr Miro to have an early night tonight, so I'd better be off soon

Oh my, someone listened to me.

I need a dairy milk button to get over it

Miroslav

Tiff wrote:

Tiff? Tiff? Who said Tiff?:D
Hi Miro Well done with the music hun!
Have you noticed that your music has vied for even position with 's' recently? Before that, miro was all 's' & nothing else which is understandable when you like someone.;)
Sometimes it's really hard to fulfil the expectations of others angel - as I said before, she's obviously got her own mental ill health issues and is probably giving you all that she can give you right now. It must be a heady feeling to be down in the depths and then someone comes along who makes you want to surface - but sometimes our expectations can be too much and the person can't live up to what we want them to be, and sometimes not.
Hun, don't put all your eggs in one basket at such an early stage. I don't want you to go from this:j to this hun.;)
Your life has to be made up of more than one person angel - from what you've been posting, you're throwing pheromones around like no-one's business!:rotfl: Women everywhere, bless you! So that should show you hun that there are options romantically and otherwise, if you can just raise your eyes and look with an open mind.
I'm so glad about your music miro. You know why? Because it shows that there is much more to you than 'flatmate' and 's' alone.
Fill your life with as much as you can angel - it'll give you a world of choices.
You have to get out into the world (says the recovering agoraphobic!!!:rolleyes: ) miro - the world won't come to your door. You keep up the good work!;) And before you ask - no, I'm not coming on to you! Just in case you were scared!
Much love
Tiff xxx

Tiff? Who's Tiff?


Ahhhhh, but the music was about 'S', so it kinda never changed

I guess i'm just very fond of 'S'. I know she has issues, so do I, and she expects me to be certain things, which I can't, but I explain to her why, she just.........ignores me and pretends she didn't hear. She can have as much space as she likes, it's down to her now, I can't keep putting myself out. I'll be there for her, but I can't talk to her for a while about things. She's got to show she cares and not just say it. I'll still buy her Xmas pressies too, even if she forgets me. It's a 2 way thing, where i'm doing most of the work.

My music was naff. No-one was horrible at all, but the other people were so talented.

Maybe these other women are just being nice It's not like any have made any further efforts.

I didn't think you were coming on to me You can see my personality, these other women can't, and when they do, like 'S' they think "He's got the looks, but not the personality" or "I'm desperate but not that desperate"

Miroslav

Tiff wrote:

Miro hun - I just realised why I'm immune to your dairy milk button pheromones - I'm allergic to milk!;) :rotfl: Have a good day hun.:grouphug:

Public Health Warning
It is announced that Tiff, along with 3000 of her unused hormones, will be let out in public today for the longest time yet (a few hours) and will also be going outside her home town for the first time in years.
The public are advised ...
not to make direct eye contact ,
to allow Tiff to go to the head of any queues ,
and should Tiff escape from her leash, handfuls of £20 notes have been known to calm and distract her.
Remember, Tiff could be coming to a town near YOU!!!:rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:

Allergic to Milk? No wonder you steer clear of Simon COWell Sorry My Pheremones attract many woman, even if it is those from other planets!

:eek: I just hope you aren't coming to my town..........I have dodgy workmen on my side :eek:

feelinggood_2

Biggest post I've ever written coming up, but I need to take a break, this is hard work!! My fingers hurt hehe.