depression

rose07

just got back from walking,

i feel soo drained
but it was good to talk.

we walked down the road then up the road, then down the road, then we went up the plantation, over branches, brambles, mud etc....
then found a house to shelter in then walked back home
all in the pouring rain and the wind

Phew!!! Im Exhausted.

im sooo confused right now

im soo sore today tho, i cant go to A&E Saz hun, im too scared, i have this big scared cloud stopping me. besides they would see things alot worse than a sore foot and i dont want anyone to know. im too scared of what might happen to me. x

Tiff_2

Evening all! :rolleyes:
yep, I think Tiff's in the doghouse - never a good place for a cat!:D I've been hauled over the coals a little on the DFW board for posting a Farepak victims help link.
But Tiff was having none of it! I was really shocked & saddened at the reactions!
I wasn't doing anything wrong I don't think, and so Tiff got upset, fur on end & gave her honest opinion.
The irony is that some of the things that I'd posted had also been posted by our wonderful MSE Martin in his weekly tip! I hadn't read his thread before I posted & I just wanted to get the word out and they even seemed upset that I'd posted it on a few boards!
I am sorry if I upset anyone here with my Farepak info.:o
Got to go and herd up DS ready for college tomorrow guys so I doubt I'll be able to get back here tonight. Hopefully this is how tonight will be for all of us -

I've got so much I wanted to say to you but I guess it's enough to say I'm thinking of you all and that I hope Monday is kind to us all. Feel free to PM me if you want or need to.
It's good to be home guys
Much love
Tiff xxx

blinky

rose07 wrote:

im sooo confused right now

im soo sore today tho, i cant go to A&E Saz hun, im too scared, i have this big scared cloud stopping me. besides they would see things alot worse than a sore foot and i dont want anyone to know. im too scared of what might happen to me. x

Please don't be scared.

Okay I look at it rationally see with a few scenarios if it helps.

i) (likely) - A&E just treat your foot and don't pick up on anything else. They are busy.
ii) - A&E notice something else is wrong and send a psychiatrist nurse to have a word. They would just talk and it might help you feel better.

Alternatively, make an appointment with a nurse or doctor at your local surgery and get the foot seen to.

Sorry you're feeling confused - we all do at times. Is there anything I could do to help?

Tiff_2

rose07 wrote:

just got back from walking,
i feel soo drained
but it was good to talk...im sooo confused right now
im soo sore today tho, i cant go to A&E Saz hun, im too scared, i have this big scared cloud stopping me. besides they would see things alot worse than a sore foot and i dont want anyone to know. im too scared of what might happen to me. x

I heard that Rosie! Thought I wasn't here huh?;)
I'll be online as usual in the a.m hun. Remember what I said angel? We're not going to do fear anymore - we're going to go for the help option. Infections are so nasty and easy to get angel and you should really get it checked out. Sometimes we let our gremlins appear bigger than they really are hun. Taking care of yourself comes first hun. I'm always with you - don't be afraid. I'm so proud of what you've achieved angel. have a think about it hun.
Much love
Tiff xxx

blinky

Tiff wrote:

Evening all! :rolleyes:
yep, I think Tiff's in the doghouse - never a good place for a cat!:D I've been hauled over the coals a little on the DFW board for posting a Farepak victims help link.
But Tiff was having none of it! I was really shocked & saddened at the reactions!
I wasn't doing anything wrong I don't think, and so Tiff got upset, fur on end & gave her honest opinion.
The irony is that some of the things that I'd posted had also been posted by our wonderful MSE Martin in his weekly tip! I hadn't read his thread before I posted & I just wanted to get the word out and they even seemed upset that I'd posted it on a few boards!
I am sorry if I upset anyone here with my Farepak info.:o
Got to go and herd up DS ready for college tomorrow guys so I doubt I'll be able to get back here tonight. Hopefully this is how tonight will be for all of us -

I've got so much I wanted to say to you but I guess it's enough to say I'm thinking of you all and that I hope Monday is kind to us all. Feel free to PM me if you want or need to.
It's good to be home guys
Much love
Tiff xxx

:A :A
Don't think you've upset anyone with here - certainly not me. I can see nothing wrong in what you've done.

What Farepak did totally stinks.

All you've done is posted some information which might be helpful to people. This was a very good thing to do :A :A - especially as these Christmas saving schemes target the people who can least afford to lose money in them.

It's good to help people, I like doing it - it's just I'm crap at it

I find it hard to understand why people on boards go off on one when you post something from a different board when it's purely there to help. :mad:

Hope you get some sleep and don't just count sheep.

rose07

blinky wrote:

Rose you can have as many hugs as you need, hun.
YEY thanks blinky i love hugs xxx
I know you're in a bad place and I wish there was something more I could do to help. It's the depression that wants to isolate you from everyone and put up a wall. It's a bl**dy selfish illness - as it deprives you of the things you need to beat it.
Thanks hun, its all just soo confusing, when i was talking to the councellor i was frozen. its soo weird, as its a part of me it is ruining everything, i dont understand it, im soo confused, i know you all are going to slap me when i say this but, i am soo confused, as i cant see my pain, i know im hurting, but dunno why. i am very confused at just what is going on as, well, its like if you have a sore leg then people can see it, whereas with this, i can be hidden, it is not easily seen by people, and if you just put up a wall and say im fine then people wont know any different.


Hope your foot isn't too painful - Have you had it looked at? [COLOR="Magen[COLOR="Magenta"]ta"]it is fine thanks tho, to be honest with you my arms ache more then my foot, its like each bit of pain numbs then pain inside at the moment. i am kinda floating today, empty, numb, strange feeling. but not a nice one and more confusion[/COLOR]

Monitoring is nothing to worry about - usually means short, regular appointments to check how you are doing. It's almost a pre-emptive measure so if you do start to feel worse they can spot it, rather than waiting for you to go in when you are really bad.
Medication - again nothing to worry about. It's not a sign of defeat or weakness in any way shape or form - if you had a physical illness you would take something for that, wouldn't you.
I think the best way to think of medication is like a crutch - it helps you along. On my good days they allow me to help myself in other ways. On the bad days they just about keep me here.
thanks, im just very scared, i dont wanna be locked up and the key thrown away

My personal feelings are that to really beat depression and anxiety you need to attack it from multiple angles - reducing stress and trigger points, adjusting lifestyle (healthier eating etc) and working on beating the negative thought cycle. Medication is simply a weapon in the arsenal.
I realised one trigger last night, so can write it down, my lifestyle is soo mondane, get up go to work, come home, go to bed, get up and so it continues, its soo pointless. like everyone is the same!!!

Don't worry about side-effects of any medication. ALL drugs have side-effects (even asprin). Not everyone experiences them and the effects can vary. Sometimes the side-effects can be beneficial (e.g. I take Zispin which has a side effect of making you sleepy. I take it at night and it helps me sleep). There's a vast cornucopia of medications to take. If you find the side-effects on one too much, just ask to switch to another.
Thanks this is something i have been wondering about, i am not very good with medicine

Hope everything goes well on Wednesday. Thinking of you thank you i will need all i can as i have no idea how im going to get through it

Ethel - Hope your day with your daughter went well.

Tiff - Hope your feeling better soon.

Everyone - Thinking of you all and take care.

Paul

PS. Round at 'R's tonight for a bit. So not sure when I'll post back. (Minds out the gutter pleeease).
PPS. Wasn't I an ugly baby?

Have a good time
and thanks for the hugs and support, means alot xxx

rose07

Tiff wrote:

Evening all! :rolleyes:
yep, I think Tiff's in the doghouse - never a good place for a cat!:D I've been hauled over the coals a little on the DFW board for posting a Farepak victims help link.
But Tiff was having none of it! I was really shocked & saddened at the reactions!
I wasn't doing anything wrong I don't think, and so Tiff got upset, fur on end & gave her honest opinion.
The irony is that some of the things that I'd posted had also been posted by our wonderful MSE Martin in his weekly tip! I hadn't read his thread before I posted & I just wanted to get the word out and they even seemed upset that I'd posted it on a few boards!
I am sorry if I upset anyone here with my Farepak info.:o
Got to go and herd up DS ready for college tomorrow guys so I doubt I'll be able to get back here tonight. Hopefully this is how tonight will be for all of us -

I've got so much I wanted to say to you but I guess it's enough to say I'm thinking of you all and that I hope Monday is kind to us all. Feel free to PM me if you want or need to.
It's good to be home guys
Much love
Tiff xxx

Huni
some people eh?
tiering my tiff out where are they?
You aint upset me by what you have said, infact i totally agree with you, i just dont understand it all, i only just been catching up with the news. and some things have been heart breaking, i seen one kid in tears breaks my heart to see kids upset, now i may not have kids but i do have a place in my heart for them.
hun, i hope you sleep well.
Hope you manage to get your DS sorted hun, and up and ready for college

xxx

rose07

Tiff wrote:

I heard that Rosie! Thought I wasn't here huh?;)
I'll be online as usual in the a.m hun. Remember what I said angel? We're not going to do fear anymore - we're going to go for the help option. Infections are so nasty and easy to get angel and you should really get it checked out. Sometimes we let our gremlins appear bigger than they really are hun. Taking care of yourself comes first hun. I'm always with you - don't be afraid. I'm so proud of what you've achieved angel. have a think about it hun.
Much love
Tiff xxx

Oh Darn it tiff, thought you had gone
fear is my worst enemy hun, help erm yeah, im not soo good at that. i havent been honest with myself for years hun. x
Ok seeing as its you i will think about what you have said.
and thanks hun, im always here with you too.
xxx

rose07

blinky wrote:

Please don't be scared.

Okay I look at it rationally see with a few scenarios if it helps.

i) (likely) - A&E just treat your foot and don't pick up on anything else. They are busy.
ii) - A&E notice something else is wrong and send a psychiatrist nurse to have a word. They would just talk and it might help you feel better.

Alternatively, make an appointment with a nurse or doctor at your local surgery and get the foot seen to.

Sorry you're feeling confused - we all do at times. Is there anything I could do to help?

thanks hun, i hope you are feeling a little better at the moment, and hope you have an ok time tonight x
Hugs :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:
The guy i met last night, kept hugging me, we were dancing so close, he wrapped his arms around me and was lovely, he kissed me goodbye.
And the great thing is he is my age, he is good looking, and he is sweet. but he prob wont ring, they never do :rolleyes:

blinky

rose07 -
Don't worry about being confused - most of us here are confused when we are ill. The fact the cannot think correctly /clearly is one of the reasons we are ill. Depression re-enforces this faulty thinking and that makes it harder to beat.

I know it's very confusing not knowing where your pain is coming from.

As I posted earlier today I haven't been particularly good today but I didn't know why. For me it makes it harder to deal with.

You're not going mad, you're a little unwell.

The chances of being locked up when you visit A&E / hospital / GP are very slim. They will only forcibly admit you if they think you are at serious risk at harming yourself or others. I have been seriously unwell at at some risk of harming myself but talk of hospitalisation has never occurred.

Hang in there, even if it's just for me.

PS. Glad you've met someone. I know it's very early days but hope it works out for you.