depression

Sazbo

Mics_chick wrote:

Hello :hello: :wave:

A newbie to this thread - didn't realise it was here otherwise I'd have been over sooner... I've suffered from PND since my youngest was born Jan 2005 although I'm sure that it goes back alot further than this...

I've not read the whole thread so could anyone tell me how to carry on? Is there anything special I need to do as a beginner?

MC

Hi MC and welcome to the thread. As CCStar says, just chat along with us, type whatever you feel like sharing. There's a lovely, supportive group of people here, so just join in as and when. Take care, Saz x

Sazbo

jw1096 wrote:

Hi all

I thought id introduce myself as ive just been signed off work for 3 weeks with depression and just thought id join in if I may.

Ive been feeling pretty crappy recently so I took myself off to the docs again and was prescribed citalopram which I didnt really want to start if im honest (The drug side of this kind of scares me if im honest). They kind of make me feel really out of it aswell, im not sure if thats a good thing or not! Im waiting for a referral to a psychologist, I have pretty bad mood swings and have symptoms that I feel pretty much parallel someone with bipolar/manic depression from the research ive done.

All the things ive felt have been ongoing since I was about 18 (im 26 now), I was diagnosed depressed then and have been back on forth on and off over the years since, diagnosed with depression, given antidepressants for a month and then I dont go back as im then feeling fine. The problem is that I dont see the docs when im not feeling exceptionally depressed, so its never occurred to me or anyone else that there might be more to the on and off depression. Ive never really paid attention to it either until this year after a few, err... incidents at work, OH concerns etc, which led to this mental health quest.

Unfortunately, the referral is taking quite a while, initially visiting the docs for a referral in early July and as yet no appointment. Ive had an initial appointment, kind of the reception service for the mental health services if you will, its seeing a professional that takes time as there simply isnt enough.

Anyway, I havent managed to read all of this thread as it is fairly immense, I dont really know if there is a protocol on here or anything, I just thought id introduce myself and say Hi.

Jo x

Hi Jo, and welcome. No protocol here hun, this thread is a support group for people dealing with depression. We can't give medical advice esp. not advice re drugs or diagnoses. But we do what we can to help each other through the tough times. There are some wonderful posters on here. Joining this thread has been one of the best things I've done. Sx

Sazbo

CCStar wrote:

My day today

Had a good one in general

Went for a test drive and the arrogent dealer (Volkswagen) didn't tell us the car was sold and there was no car to drive. He a was a complete !!!!!! about it and hate it now. We made a special effort and he more or less implied it was our fault and no apology was made. We had this happen when we went to the dentist this week and they changed the appointment without informing us. I DESPISE bad service. We are not wrong and our time is just as valuable! If anyone knows who to write to at Volkswagen, I would be grateful for their address.

We went for a test drive in a Kia and it was a lovely dealership. We also got our voucher stamped. The car was OK. We like the Rio better.

Got some Christmas food shopping at Asda - I love that mysupermarket site for price comparison. Then went to Edinburgh and absorbed the winter evening atmosphere over a cocktail. Had a lovely meal at home, and watched X-Factor - bad result:(. Am enjoying I'm a Celebrity too.

I am in a good mood today in general.

Morning CCStar hun, sounds like all-in-all you had a good day yesterday (VW dealer and X Factor result aside I reckon David Gest might win Celebrity?!) and you got some stuff done. Cocktails in Edinburgh sounded nice. Is a place I really want to visit one day. Have a nice Sunday hun. Sxx

Mics_chick

beer2006 wrote:

Just read through some of the thread for the first time, on the first page I read some stuff that is just me, totally me, thats very scary, I don't want to have depression.
I'm not going to post on here, I think my alcohol problem is enough to be going on with atm.
Best wishes to everyone, I'll be watching and learning.

xx

Hello Beer:hello:
A newbie to this thread so not sure exactly how to put this (especially as I'm probably pointing out the obvious!) but your alcohol problem and depression are more than likely linked so you might not be able to resolve one without facing up to both...? A big step I know but admitting you've got depression might be enough for now
Thinking of you and sending positive vibes, MC :beer:

beer2006

Mics_chick wrote:

Hello Beer:hello:
A newbie to this thread so not sure exactly how to put this (especially as I'm probably pointing out the obvious!) but your alcohol problem and depression are more than likely linked so you might not be able to resolve one without facing up to both...? A big step I know but admitting you've got depression might be enough for now
Thinking of you and sending positive vibes, MC :beer:

Thanks Mics_chick

It had crossed my mind, I've never really thought about having depression before that much, just I've been unhappy, on edge etc etc.
I'm not admitting it, I don't know if I have or not, I don't feel that much different from the way I always have. You can't have depression from birth can you?

edit, thats not actually quite true, I did change in my teens. another edit, actually I change all the time, up and down like a yo yo. And I also seem to have selective memory syndrome

Even if I have, which one is causing the other :rolleyes: I can see I'm going to have to devote brain up time to this.

Sazbo

Tiff wrote:

Hi Guys! Tiff is in the building!:D
Hi's & hugs to sazzy, flis, cc, ethel, rose, miro, elona, blinky, rs, bunnie, fg, lisa, plastic sp, williamo,geminilady, jillie, nemo and anyone else who needs one!;)
I was going to reply to each individual post but I wouldn't have finished until retirement!:rolleyes:
Needless to say, I have missed all of you.
I have been reading the threads and my 3 brain cells (yes I grew an extra one!:D ) have been workin ovetime. It's been very busy in Tiffworld (for the new guys - don't be scared, I know which world I'm in really! ) and in general. I hope all is well with you all and that it's safe to come back?
Before I forget, to all our new friends on the thread! As you'll have discovered, there are some truly kind souls here who help, support, advise and laugh together. As soon as I saw the thread about the S-X Factor, I knew I had to come back now!
I blame it all on myself for leaving you alone for a week! I was being a good Tiff and was watching on The Other Side (BBC) :rolleyes:, the wonderful Strictly Come Dancing.

Seriously though guys, I had to take some time out to restore my batteries - some bad anniversaries coming any minute - and to manage things that needed attention here at home. My health had got to the point where inflammatory arthritis kicked in & a lot of the time, I couldn't type because my hands were completely numb. Had a lot of pain & because my hands were the worst, I couldn't use my crutches. Also my support team as it were, have been absent for 3 weeks so I only had myself to turn to - now that is a scary thought!!!:eek:
I've also seen a surgeon, a consultant, [STRIKE]the cute postman[/STRIKE] ahem - been out on my own doing my own grocery shopping (agoraphobia's trying to fight back:o but I won - well sometimes!:rolleyes: ), and I actually went out to DS's old school Prizegiving and Awards Evening 2006
on Thursday evening. I was so proud! More about that later...proud mom rant approaching.;)
To be honest it's been really hard going but I couldn't resist the urge to and help if I can.
I too am hoping Miro will find some peace of mind & happiness soon. I'm sure he knows we're all thinking of him and he knows where we are if we are needed bless him.
Also just to send out another Hug Alert for Rosie!She's having a really hard time but has done some really positive things!:T It's good to see nearly everyone still here and that Saz is still in the business of press-ganging new recruits for our thread!:rotfl:
I've missed you guys - huge Sunday hugs to you all. Will get on with some replies now;)
Much love,
Tiff xxx

Hiya Tiff hun! Glad you're back, we missed ya! Exactly - see what happens when you leave us to our own devices? :eek: Although I must take full responsibility for starting the X Factor discussion... sorry about that everyone, I'm on medication for my Simon Cowell obsession... :D:D

Tiff I'm so sorry to hear about the arthritis affecting your hands so badly. Can the doctor not help at all with that? Especially if it means you can't get around? Well done though getting to shops and DS's prizegiving.

Have a good sunday hun, hope you're back again soon. Am sending you big hugs re anniversaries. Take care of yourself. Sazxxx

Sazbo

Hi Ethel. You ok today? Just been catching up. You must be exhausted. Hope it all gets sorted, you've got enough on your plate as it is. Take care hun x

Miroslav

:wave: all

Hope we are all getting through.

Just a quick hello really, that will probably run into an essay, although it's been about a week since I posted anyway.

So...........news...........erm..............none really. Not seen 'S' at all, barely heard from her.....

Erm......

Told you about the nice text messages she sent........i've kinda convinced myself it was all words, no meaning.

Kind of trying to work out how much I like her........decided I hated the thought of another guy being with her, and that I wanted to be with her..........is it love? Not that it matters, as she doesn't like me like that anyway. At first she liked the idea of 'sex' but now, she doesn't even keep in touch.

I really care about her, can't get her out of my head, very weepy and moody. Had a huge row with flatmate who said she wishes she never introduced me to 'S' and she was gonna phone her and tell her what was going on in my head............I walked out, came back late that night as it was cold, we haven't spoken about it since, flatmate apologised via text. Not knowing she hadn't called 'S', I text 'S' and told her what happened, she didn't reply.

So basically, I 'think' I may love someone romantically, who doesn't love me, and i'm falling apart because of it.

Part of me wants to see her again, part of me says I don't, because it will be too painful. She's leaving, so i'm clearly not importnat enough to fight for, i'm not loveable, and her words are all empty.

Flatmate hasn't been too supportive, just telling me I had a life before she came along........not a very good one, and I kinda liked being hugged and told I meant something to someone, something I am not used too.

At the moment, i'm just moody. I go to bed at all times of day and have no interest in anything.

If only I hadn't met 'S', i'd be struggling, but not this bad.

Mics_chick

jw1096 wrote:

Ive been feeling pretty crappy recently so I took myself off to the docs again and was prescribed citalopram which I didnt really want to start if im honest (The drug side of this kind of scares me if im honest). They kind of make me feel really out of it aswell, im not sure if thats a good thing or not!

Ive never really paid attention to it either until this year after a few, err... incidents at work, OH concerns etc, which led to this mental health quest.

Hi Jo

Just wanted to say I'm on Citalopram too. I know it's scary but stick with it for a while and things should get better. I've had bouts of depression off and on over the years but it really kicked in after my DS was born. Every time I tried to take medication before they didn't suit me/made me feel worse so I stopped taking them after a few days/couple of weeks. But this last time after encouragement from all sides - OH/dr/HV - I decided I felt so bad that no meds could make me feel any worse! So I stuck with the initial side effects and eventually did feel better - so if you're feeling really bad please give it a go.:D

I don't know what dosage you're on but if there's no improvement after a month go back to your doc's and talk about upping the dosage if possible. I've found that sometimes you have to be a bit pro-active to get results but don't demand just suggest. I've found doctors have egos :rolleyes: and don't like patients who self-diagnose or try to dictate their treatment. But if you layout out all your symptoms then they should pick up on it.

I've found that saying something like "you can't continue with the way you're going" or "you can't cope anymore and don't know which way to turn" seems to get their attention. I'm not saying that you should say this just to get their attention but if you do feel like this and state the obvious then they seem to take more notice - I'm sure they're programmed to assume that you can cope/are coping unless you state otherwise... I hope this helps.;)

Also have you thought of taking your OH with you to the doctor's. I did this the first couple of times I went because I felt he might be able to describe my behaviour better than I could myself, especially as it turned out I had forgotten/didn't even realise some of the stuff I was doing... So please think about it. (I have heard of some docs being awkward about someone else being present but stand your ground and dont let them walk over you - they are there for your benefit not the docs!)

Good luck MC

Miroslav

Oh, I did have a couple of messages from 'S'. The 1st was patronising, so I asked her not to patronise me, the 2nd one was apologising if she offended me, and that she didn't mean it the way I took it.

That was the last message I got, so she's probably in a mood with me and i'll never see her again anyway :rolleyes: