depression

Tiff_2

jw1096 wrote:

Hi all
I thought id introduce myself as ive just been signed off work for 3 weeks with depression and just thought id join in if I may.
Hi jw - come on in angel - you're very welcome here and thanks for posting.:T

Ive been feeling pretty crappy recently so I took myself off to the docs again and was prescribed citalopram which I didnt really want to start if im honest (The drug side of this kind of scares me if im honest). They kind of make me feel really out of it aswell, im not sure if thats a good thing or not! Im waiting for a referral to a psychologist, I have pretty bad mood swings and have symptoms that I feel pretty much parallel someone with bipolar/manic depression from the research ive done.
You really did the right thing in seeing the dr hun! It takes a lot of courage to do I know. Medication can make a world of difference to some people and most of us find that between meds and other help, we are better off. As you may know, we can't advise on specific meds angel but whenever a new drug goes into the system, it can take a while for them to work and it's not uncommon to have a sde effect hun. Don't fret too much. If you're really concerned the GP will give you some advice. The psychologist is also a good idea & I hope it works for you hun. Either way, if you start to feel worse in yourself, don't be afraid to get straight back to dr & tell them.

All the things ive felt have been ongoing since I was about 18 (im 26 now), I was diagnosed depressed then and have been back on forth on and off over the years since, diagnosed with depression, given antidepressants for a month and then I dont go back as im then feeling fine. The problem is that I dont see the docs when im not feeling exceptionally depressed, so its never occurred to me or anyone else that there might be more to the on and off depression. Ive never really paid attention to it either until this year after a few, err... incidents at work, OH concerns etc, which led to this mental health quest.
It's a common error angel. As soon as we start to feel better, it's very tempting to stop taking the meds but you should never stop taking meds without a dr's advice. We think we must be better and not need the meds and then events etc., crop up, we can't cope and we wonder why. If a medicine has been prescribed angel and is working for you, don't stop it. As you've seen yourself, if your ill health hits again, it's sometimes worse than it was to begin with.

Unfortunately, the referral is taking quite a while, initially visiting the docs for a referral in early July and as yet no appointment. Ive had an initial appointment, kind of the reception service for the mental health services if you will, its seeing a professional that takes time as there simply isnt enough.
I understand that angel. Please go back to the dr if you're finding things too hard hun. Please don't be afraid to be totally honest with your medical professionals angel - they can only treat the problem if they know every detail. You may find that you are re-evaluated and moved up the list. I know the mental health services are way too over-stretched but thank God we have them. Plus now you know we are all here to support you when you need it. There are drop-in centres in all towns generally where you can go for a chat & coffee or even just company.;)

Anyway, I havent managed to read all of this thread as it is fairly immense, I dont really know if there is a protocol on here or anything, I just thought id introduce myself and say Hi.
I'm really glad you stopped by here jw - there's no protocol here - you're welcome any time hun. One piece of Tiff advice (that the others are sick of hearing:D ) is to be kind to yourself. Take time out when you need to and ask for help if you need it. pop on here anytime - there's always someone passing through here.;) I hope this has been of some help. Please let us know if you have any thoughts or questions ok? Look after yourself jw.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Mics_chick wrote:

Hello :hello: :wave:

A newbie to this thread - didn't realise it was here otherwise I'd have been over sooner... I've suffered from PND since my youngest was born Jan 2005 although I'm sure that it goes back alot further than this...

I've not read the whole thread so could anyone tell me how to carry on? Is there anything special I need to do as a beginner?

MC

Hi mics chic!:hello:
No rules really here - the only biggie is that we can't advise you on medications or treatments. We're a group of survivors, with different problems who share experiences and support each other angel. You are really welcome and it's really nice of you to come along & join the club as it were. If there's anything on your mind hun, we're all here - just jump in!;)
Much Love
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Sazbo wrote:

Heya feeling, me and Elona gonna fight you for the Finnish chocolate Have a piece for me Thinking of you too. Thanks for checking in, take care, Saz xx

Yeah, you guys go for the Finnish chocolate...I'll go for the Finn!!!:D :rotfl:
Really glad you're having a good time fg.
Much love
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi williamo. Thanks for posting hun - took a lot of courage. You sound really low hun. Here we go.;)

williamo wrote:

I have just a few hours ago retuned from being at the pub . Still feeling down I just feel like sleeping and not waking up at the moment the energy it takes for me to get up out of bed is unbeleiveable. Not that I sleep anyway I have been suffering deep insomnia many weeks upon weeks now, my anti depressants dont seem to be helping me at all. I seem to be building up more and more debt each day owing various people money I had to take out a £3,000 loan today to keep the banks off my back.
Ok angel - you've got a lot coming at you from all directions haven't you? It's o wonder you're feeling so low. The lack of sleep will take a huge toll mentally & physically hun. From what you have said here, a return visit to the dr is called for. I know it's hard to get motivated but it's the only way you can start to move forward. Try not drink if you're on meds hun - that'll make all these problems worse.
The financial situation is very urgent too. May I please point you in the direction of CAB who will organize your finances, contact creditors on your behalf because you're ill, help you with a budget, negotiate payments with everyone & generally make sure your income is at it's maximum? They're friendly people and little miracle workers. A lot do home visits if you find it impossible to get to them.

After crashing my car a few weeks ago and my ex girlfriend contacting me after the crash really knocked me down very hard as she only contacted me to see if I was still alive as a rumor said I had died in the car crash after being in hospital a few days, and i just cant seem to see any hope any more, i remember i used to be so ambicious and have aims in life but they all seem to have dissapeared.
Wow you are having a tough time hun. I know this will seem impossible to believe angel but you can go through this and come out the other side. You should really go back to gp hun. Your life isn't over - you're just taking a bit of a detour angel and you will have your dreams again. If you tell the dr everything (print your post & show them that?) & be brutally honest, you should get more help where needed. You'll see that a lot of us here avoid asking for help until the bitter end and it can be scary taking that 1st step. I hope that everyone will agree that they wish they'd done it sooner instead of drowning in misery. By not going to drs to bring them up to date, you'd just be delaying your recovery hun.
Life can change us and sometimes it happens in the cruellest ways, but we're very good at surviving (even when we think we're not) and we are allowed to change our aims. Break everything down angel - one step at a time - and start trying to make a list when you can of what you want to do. You can even break it down to daily lists too , eg., shower, breakfast, read newspaper etc. You can get a good lift from being able to cross things off your list, it shows you haven't wasted the day, you can do as little or as much a possible and your list isn't set in stone so you can't punish yourself if you're having a bad day.

I am worried that the way I am now will lead me into habbits like drinking too much and taking too much cocaine I am trying to be careful to not let the drugs run my life and stay in as much control as I can but I cant help feeling at the back of my mind soon if i carry on like this im going to be addicted to either drink or drugs or even both if im not carefull. I seem to sleep every night with the television switched on every night and cant sleep without it on , I feel in a way maybe the TV is on to distract my mind to stop me thinking about things in my life and how bad things are for me at the moment its a way of escaping for me. Angel, from what you say here, you know you need help with this. I commend you for trying but sometimes we can't do it on our own. Please mention the drugs & alochol to your dr angel.
I don't know what your personal situation is but a lot of people leave the TV on in the bedroom all night. It's comforting in a way because you don't feel so alone and it's the reassuring sound of chatter & laughter in the background. The sad thing is that drugs /alochol are not a real escape hun - it just takes you further away from one.
its been about 3 months now I have gone from a good job in the accounts department for the government well paid job to nothing sitting at home now over 4 months depressed no job no money running deeper and deeper into debt, I have tried to apply for jobs but either my cv is !!!! or I'm just not good enough and at the same time im lacking any motivation if i had to score my motivation at the moment from 1-10 it would be 2/10 at the most I feel dead almost..I have said I would like to move away from where I am now to avoid the most hurtful things like passing my ex girlfriends house each day in the car and bumping into her when out in bars or clubs

I have been applying for jobs in London but unfortunately the distance from here to there is a long way to liasing with the recruitment companies is not easy and quite expensive when travelling by train. I'm really worried at the moment that if I dont get myself sorted out very soon im going to end up either dead or in some kind of drug/alcohol clinic.
I think you know deep down what you have to o hun. I'm sorry about your ex angel. Work might be understandably unhappy at the thought of hiring someone who is very ill. The difference is that with a broken leg etc., they know that they will usually haved healed around 6 to 8 weeks.

My parents don't seem to realise how bad I am at the moment they know im on anti depressants and my behaviour recently have been out of the ordinary for me which is worrying I have consulted my GP and they told me to keep on the medication and give it a chance to adjust to me. I have not yet have suicidal thoughts but I do have dreams about other people comitting suicide and very in depth dreams I think is due to my medication. im 23 years old and really don't want to end up mentally ill or in a hospital the rest of my life I just don't know what I can do to get out of this deep deep hole I seem to be in...

Stay strong everyone your not alone!

isn't it about time this thread became a sticky thread?

I gotta fly hun - big Tiff To Do List - but I will come back to
you.
M[URL="file://\\much"]uch[/URL] love
Tiff xxx

beer2006

Just read through some of the thread for the first time, on the first page I read some stuff that is just me, totally me, thats very scary, I don't want to have depression.
I'm not going to post on here, I think my alcohol problem is enough to be going on with atm.
Best wishes to everyone, I'll be watching and learning.

xx

EthelBloggs

*huggs* Beer.. whatever you feel comfortable with is fine, but you will be very welcome if you ever feel you'd like to join in

xxx

EthelBloggs

Tiff wrote:

I gotta fly hun - big Tiff To Do List - but I will come back to
you.
M[URL="file://\\much"]uch[/URL] love
Tiff xxx

Hiya tiffy.. seems you've had a tough time recently but well done on fighting your way through it all!!! Try not to be such a stranger, you're missed here ya know

*huggs*

Horasio

beer2006 wrote:

Just read through some of the thread for the first time, on the first page I read some stuff that is just me, totally me, thats very scary, I don't want to have depression.
I'm not going to post on here, I think my alcohol problem is enough to be going on with atm.
Best wishes to everyone, I'll be watching and learning.

xx

There is an alcohol related thread on this site too
http://forums.moneysavingexpert.com/showthread.html?t=183211
but you are very welcome to contribute or lurk:)

but you know about that already, I rarely visit it - I need that Homer Simpson icon - duh!

beer2006

CCStar wrote:

There is an alcohol related thread on this site too
http://forums.moneysavingexpert.com/showthread.html?t=183211
but you are very welcome to contribute or lurk:)

Yeah I know I started it

Sazbo

beer2006 wrote:

Just read through some of the thread for the first time, on the first page I read some stuff that is just me, totally me, thats very scary, I don't want to have depression.
I'm not going to post on here, I think my alcohol problem is enough to be going on with atm.
Best wishes to everyone, I'll be watching and learning.

xx

Hiya beer, your very welcome on here anytime. You can post as little or as much as you want, or else just read along and see what the gang's up to. From time to time I also read a bit of your other thread and that too is illuminating. And touching to see the good side of human nature with people supporting each other. Take good care, Saz xxx