depression

Sazbo

beer2006 wrote:

Thanks Mics_chick

It had crossed my mind, I've never really thought about having depression before that much, just I've been unhappy, on edge etc etc.
I'm not admitting it, I don't know if I have or not, I don't feel that much different from the way I always have. You can't have depression from birth can you?

edit, thats not actually quite true, I did change in my teens. another edit, actually I change all the time, up and down like a yo yo. And I also seem to have selective memory syndrome

Even if I have, which one is causing the other :rolleyes: I can see I'm going to have to devote brain up time to this.

The unhelpful answer is they can impact on each other. It is a lot to get your head around. Just go one step at a time. Maybe your posting on here a first step? Speaking for myself, it took me a very, very long time to face up to my condition and seek help. But I do believe we're only ready for something when we're ready for it, if that makes sense? So start from where you are. Take care, Sx

rose07

Hi Friends x;)

Mics_chick

Sazbo wrote:

The unhelpful answer is they can impact on each other. It is a lot to get your head around. Just go one step at a time. Maybe your posting on here a first step? Speaking for myself, it took me a very, very long time to face up to my condition and seek help. But I do believe we're only ready for something when we're ready for it, if that makes sense? So start from where you are. Take care, Sx

Thanks Sazbo
I wasn't trying to push to Beer just wanted to say to consider both because if he's facing up to one he might need to think of both to make any lasting progress. I agree with your opinion that you're only ready when you're ready but it's usually the squillionth time someone's pointed out the obvious that it rings the bell in your head!

Good luck Beer - one day at a time works with depression as well I think...:D

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

:wave: all

Hope we are all getting through.

Just a quick hello really, that will probably run into an essay, although it's been about a week since I posted anyway.

So...........news...........erm..............none really. Not seen 'S' at all, barely heard from her.....

Erm......

Told you about the nice text messages she sent........i've kinda convinced myself it was all words, no meaning.

Kind of trying to work out how much I like her........decided I hated the thought of another guy being with her, and that I wanted to be with her..........is it love? Not that it matters, as she doesn't like me like that anyway. At first she liked the idea of 'sex' but now, she doesn't even keep in touch.

I really care about her, can't get her out of my head, very weepy and moody. Had a huge row with flatmate who said she wishes she never introduced me to 'S' and she was gonna phone her and tell her what was going on in my head............I walked out, came back late that night as it was cold, we haven't spoken about it since, flatmate apologised via text. Not knowing she hadn't called 'S', I text 'S' and told her what happened, she didn't reply.

So basically, I 'think' I may love someone romantically, who doesn't love me, and i'm falling apart because of it.

Part of me wants to see her again, part of me says I don't, because it will be too painful. She's leaving, so i'm clearly not importnat enough to fight for, i'm not loveable, and her words are all empty.

Flatmate hasn't been too supportive, just telling me I had a life before she came along........not a very good one, and I kinda liked being hugged and told I meant something to someone, something I am not used too.

At the moment, i'm just moody. I go to bed at all times of day and have no interest in anything.

If only I hadn't met 'S', i'd be struggling, but not this bad.

Hi Miro, great to hear from you. We've all been wondering how you were. All I can say is I am truly sorry for what you're going through. Right now I think the thing I most want to say to is that this does not mean you are not loveable. I wish I could take the pain away, but obviously I can't. Totally understand your emotions being all over the place right now and I know it's the last thing you feel like, but try to get a little routine back into your life. Make sure you eat too, hun. And keep checking in here if you can. A lot of people here care about you very much, we'll do all we can to get you through. Much love, Saz xxx

Mics_chick

Miroslav wrote:

If only I hadn't met 'S', i'd be struggling, but not this bad.

Hi Miroslav
Sorry if I'm saying something that someone already has but why do you give 'S' so much power over your life. Please please don't let him/her treat you like a human yoyo. You are worth more than that. Do you have any other friends/family/etc that you admire?
MC

Sazbo

Mics_chick wrote:

Thanks Sazbo
I wasn't trying to push to Beer just wanted to say to consider both because if he's facing up to one he might need to think of both to make any lasting progress. I agree with your opinion that you're only ready when you're ready but it's usually the squillionth time someone's pointed out the obvious that it rings the bell in your head!

Good luck Beer - one day at a time works with depression as well I think...:D

Totally with you Mics. As for me, I think it was the squillionth, squillionth time Sx

Sazbo

rose07 wrote:

Hi Friends x;)

Hiya rose hun, good to hear from you :wave: I've been on here most of the morning and need to get some stuff done... like have a bath!!! Then I'll be popping out this afternoon. So I'll be on when I can. How you doing? Sx

Mics_chick

As I've already mentioned I've got PND but OH is suffering from anxiety/depression too. Is anyone in the same boat? We just seem to be on a constant see-saw where one or the other is upset/unable to cope. We're driving each other up the wall, round the bend and anywhere else you can be driven:D

rose07

Hi Friends x;)

LOL, well that first post went a bit wrong (rosie goes to brush up on her typing) right here we go.....

Hey everyone, hope you dont mind me popping on here for a bit? just thought i would let you know how im doing, and i need a bit of a chat with people that might understand xxx

Well its been a very hard, confusing, mad week.

I am in a very bad place at the moment. (as tiff has prob said)
But this week seen my councellor (thanks tiff ), i broke down in the session, told her everything, and ended up in total mess really. first time i have prob ever been honest with myself and someone profesional :eek:
It was very emotionally and physically draining. and was soo hard to go back to work afterwards
my councellor referred me to see a psychiatrist straight away so i have an appointment on wednesday (thought it was quick, but as i say really not ok). she also gave me her number and said to ring anytime. but im a shy thing.

so i need all good vibes and hugs for wednesday, as i have to be honest i am terrified of whats going to happen. my councellor also mentioned the possibility of being monitored, and taking some medication :eek: , this is something i am also scared about :eek: , as i have no idea about these things if anyone has been on medication or been monitored can you give me some reasurance?

Last night i went out :j , but ended up hurting myself quite severely, yep in alot of pain today, I also got ran over (wasnt looking where i was going :rolleyes: ), and also got glass in me foot , so in quite alot of pain today but guess its my own fault and i deserve it.
On the plus side i met a guy (he has got my number, which only special people are allowed )

I hope you dont mind me popping on, but i have missed you all soo much, and have realised that i am in a very bad place at the moment, and need as much support from people that might understand, instead of trying to put up a wall and block people out, as i am soo confused right now i have no idea whats going on

well i could talk for ages .....

hope you all good, and its nice to see you all, saz (was thinking of you this week x), miro (xxx), ccstar, ethel, tiff (love ya x), blinky (can i have a hug ), elona, natty, geminilady, feelinggood (hope your doing ok) welcome to all the new people, and its nice to see some friends

Tiff soz to hear about your pain hun, you know i am here anytime , just let me know if you want rosie to have a talk with a few people. , and your not on your own, i know how scary it is, but your doing great hun, keep it up, xxx

much love everyone (hehe tiff im taking your saying )

thinking of you all
xxxx

(right i should prob do something, only got up at 12 :eek: , couldnt sleep anyway, i got in at 4am , so have my excuse ), think i have a hangover, its been soo long, and im very wobbily on me feet, and very achey), right gotta stop talking , be back soon xxx

EthelBloggs

hiya everyone

I've got to run, daughters home for a couple of hours so we're having dinner at me mum's (she makes the best sunday dinner ever!!!)

I'm shattered saz....... dint get to bed til past three n then the hospital rang @ 7 to say they've arranged transport for my girl to come home this afternoon for a bit.. why ring that early when she's not coming til the afternoon? :mad: so once Im awake im awake.. so i got up and i've been mooching around doing nothing useful since

I;'ve got those horrible eyewatering yawns n i feel really crappy but ho hum... here we go.. lol

off to get dressed n go to me muvvas, maybe the fresh air will perk me up a bit

cyas all later peeps xx

ps... glad to see you Miro

pps.. I'll make proper posts when i get back xx