depression

feelinggood_2

Sorry for not being around much lately, its kinda hard to post here, after getting a telling off for talking about things we don't talk about lol.
I take things far too personally.
How are you?

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

Hi Miro, great to hear from you. We've all been wondering how you were. All I can say is I am truly sorry for what you're going through. Right now I think the thing I most want to say to is that this does not mean you are not loveable. I wish I could take the pain away, but obviously I can't. Totally understand your emotions being all over the place right now and I know it's the last thing you feel like, but try to get a little routine back into your life. Make sure you eat too, hun. And keep checking in here if you can. A lot of people here care about you very much, we'll do all we can to get you through. Much love, Saz xxx

I feel unloveable. Not even a tortured soul can love me, let alone someone a little less 'damaged'

I'm all over the place right now, scared more than anything, scared i'm losing someone very special.

feelinggood_2

Miro, you are not unlovable. You are a wonderful, wonderful man x

Miroslav

Mics_chick wrote:

Hi Miroslav
Sorry if I'm saying something that someone already has but why do you give 'S' so much power over your life. Please please don't let him/her treat you like a human yoyo. You are worth more than that. Do you have any other friends/family/etc that you admire?
MC

Hi Mics_chick

Myself and 'S' both have very little, and have had very little in our lives. In fact, in 15 years, 'S' is only the 3rd person I have properly started to get to know, for many reasons. For 'S', she's suffered alot too. Currently, each other aside, I only have my flatmate, she has no-one, other than my flatmate who see each other once a fortnight.

She often has been used and abused, so for both of us to get to know each other, is a big thing for us both. Since I have known her, she has bought me one drink, whereas before, guys have milked her for everything, hit her about, sexually abused her, and she's finding it hard as to why I don't. She has so many issues, I don't know whether i'm Arthur or Martha from one second to the next with her.

I'm very drawn to her, she has made me feel like a man again, and there's alot of me to feel (I mean in height )

We've started to get close, but now she is leaving. I'm gutted, she has nothing to go to, so that hurts that i'm not enough for her to stay.

You may get to know the full story as we go along in this thread, but basically, i'm crazy about her, despite her 'odd' ways.

Sazbo

feelinggood wrote:

Sorry for not being around much lately, its kinda hard to post here, after getting a telling off for talking about things we don't talk about lol.
I take things far too personally.
How are you?

Hiya fg hun, good to hear from you. You're one of the gang, that's all that matters I'm, well, surviving. In denial about work tomorrow, just can't handle it, y'know? Just want to sleep for a week. Hang in there you're a good person fg, we need you here, Sxxx

Miroslav

blinky wrote:

It's good to hear from you and I'm truly sorry to hear how your feeling.

It's sad to hear how your flatmate's been to you, especially given how supportive you have been to them.

The situation might not be as bad as it seems with 'S'. She might be trying to come to terms with your feeling for her and to make sense of her own feelings. I thought I'd completely blown it with 'R' the other week but managed to retrieve the situation.

I wish I could say something more supportive but can't think of the words right now. Sorry

Blinky :wave:

Glad to hear you are still going with 'R' and you are spending lots of time with her! It sounds as though her confidence is easily knocked too if she gets upset easy!

Flatmate has been better with me tonight, telling me to hang in there and that 'S' does like me, she just doesn't know how much and that's she's likely to be very scared.

I'm just gonna keep going and hope the day arrives when she says she's staying

feelinggood_2

Sazbo wrote:

Hiya fg hun, good to hear from you. You're one of the gang, that's all that matters I'm, well, surviving. In denial about work tomorrow, just can't handle it, y'know? Just want to sleep for a week. Hang in there you're a good person fg, we need you here, Sxxx

Thanks Saz, I just feel tremedoulsly guilty. Itll go eventually.

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

Soup's good, Miro hunnie. Always makes me feel better, it's comforting, and I'm glad you're eating a bit. Miro, it's been said before and I'll say it again; you're obviously a bit of a hottie! :D You'll have to tell them all to take a ticket and wait in line :D;) Love Saz x

Oxtail

Not got my full appetite back yet though

Hottie? :rotfl: Noooooooo I attract more mature ladies and sweet girls. I've fortunately never attracted a floosie..........other than my ex :rolleyes:

No need for tickets, I'm taken...........hopefully by either 'S' or Britney, whoever doesn't get to me last

Miroslav

feelinggood wrote:

Miro, you are not unlovable. You are a wonderful, wonderful man x

Well

Nice to see your name when posting, hope you are getting through.

Did I read something about Finland? You get about! (so to speak )

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

I feel unloveable. Not even a tortured soul can love me, let alone someone a little less 'damaged'

I'm all over the place right now, scared more than anything, scared i'm losing someone very special.

Sweetheart, if you think about it, really it's more difficult for a tortured soul to love, rather than more easy. After all, they have all their own issues to deal with on top of everything else? I'm sure you are not going to lose S; not saying it will be easy, it clearly won't, but I do think something good will come of it however hard that might be to predict right now xxxxx