depression

rose07

Hi everyone
Feelinggood, Miro, Saz, Tiff, CCStar, Blinky, Geminilady, Elona, Slayerx, Betty, Mrs A, everyone ok, you know who you all are.

I just wanted to come on and explain a few things as its not fair to leave you wondering.

Miro – I just want to say I am soo sorry to hear about ‘S’, has she definitely decided? I am truly sorry I know what it is like to loose someone. But try and look at the positives here hun, just for a minute, she has said she loves you as a friend, and you have hugged, which is something you could have only dreamt about a little while ago,:D (I am going to say a tiff thing here (love ya tiff), take some time at some point to just look at your progress, look through your posts, and see how much you give to the board hun, you are truly an oldie here, and we are truly priviledged to know you, you bring great humour and a good spirit in things, and I am sure ‘S’ see’s this in you hun.
Try not to think that you aren’t enough for her to stay, im sure she isn’t thinking like that, it sounds like there are a lot of memories for her there (and I know this only too well at the moment too), sometimes we need some time from things to think and find ourselves, maybe she just doesn’t know whats going on hun. It is clear she cares about you a great deal, and that you both have something special hun, I do hope you can see this. Is there a possibility you could go too, this may seem extreme hun? But sometimes when we let things go we can regret it forever. I don’t mean to sound down there just talking from experience. :rolleyes: Try not to be beaten hun, think of what you can do to be as close as possible, if you wanna be with her then let it happen hun, I know she is moving away, but an hour doesn’t seem soo bad, just keep fighting hun, and we are here whenever you need, and thinking of you, take care alright? Xxx

Feelinggood, Hey huni, I just want to thank you for your help over the last couple of weeks, I still aint ok, infact im prob worse than I ever have been, but I want you to keep fighting hun, saz keep an eye on FG, don’t let your OH push you about FG, easier said than done , I know, but keep fighting hun, and if it is making you worse maybe you need to have a think.
I know all about relationships where things are intense and hard, and emotional too. With soo many emotions, bullying, blackmail, threatening behaviour, I have been through it all hun, and its not something you have to stand for, you deserve better I know you do. Sometimes it is easy to stay where we are with someone than move away from it all as we get used to them being there and having them around, we get stuck into routines and things, but I want you to look after yourself hun, will be thinking of you soo much, you know where i am,;) take care xxx

Mrs A, betty, get yourselves on here im wondering how you all are??? Xxx

I also want to say a big thank you to Elona, and Geminilady, thank you for your help over the last couple of weeks too, it is very much appreciated, I am afraid I am in not such a good place at the moment tho, and had even some more news last night that was very upsetting, it involves an ex of mine, and this is where I understand your pain miro, so don’t give up hun, we gotta fight for the things we want,. But thank you to both of you, you are both very welcome here, xxx

CCStar I want to say much the same as I have to fg, you keep fighting your neighbours hun, don’t let them wake you up, sleep is very important, I realised that on Thursday night , tiff I hope you listening, after you had done that relaxation with me tiff I slept right through, like a baby, so CCStar make sure you can relax. And also your OH, sounds like things are hard there too, well I just want to say keep fighting hun, keep going. x

Blinky – hi I haven’t been able to see much of you, but know and understand the stress of a few things you have said, it is soo confusing to be soo down and not know why. And I was wondering could you take some time of work, even if its just for a couple of days? You could have a long weekend somewhere for some you time. Just a thought xxx

Ethel – hi how are you doing at the moment? I hope you keep going to huni, you have helped a lot too here, and there is support out there, I am very sorry to here about the thieves, hope they get what they deserves and that you weren’t shaken up too much, you just keep going. How are things with your OH? Take care xxx

Well I have saved the best to last Tiff and Saz
Firstly Saz, well we made it through last week didn’t we hun, woo hoo :j , but now we gotta make it through this week too. And this week is a biggy for me, my mate gets back from London tomorrow, but she is only here for a couple of days, then my councelling session is on Thursday I am dreading this as I have no idea what to say, or even if I will talk at all .
I am soz to hear that you are finding it hard to sleep at the moment, (I do know this feeling only to well tho), sleep is a big thing can help us a lot if we get the right amount, at the moment I aint getting enough.
Is your back ok hun? I did my back in a little while ago now, I have soo many bad joints and things I feel like im older than I am :rotfl: . I hope it calms down for you hun as these thibgs can make it hard for us to relax.
I hope your initial councelling appointment goes ok, will be thinking of you, just try and get it all out hun, think how long you have waited for this. You deserve to get all you can. xxx
Will be thinking of you,
I really don’t wanna go to work this week, I feel worse than I did last week, but ho hum, so we chug on hun, chug a chug
Take care hun, thinking of you always and thankyou xxx;)

And tiff my huni, well I know you got a few things going on at the moment, and just want you to know im here hun ok? xxx
I am afraid things have became worse in rosie’s world hun, a lot worse, the pain is worse (physically and emotionally), the feelings are stronger and there is a big wall, and that rock is only getting bigger.
Everything is getting to me, even the small things, my granny isn’t well, and people are wondering if this will be her last Christmas, its very upsetting, work is sooo stressful, I have an ex of mine who keeps texting and im confused, I have this guy who hurt me a couple of years ago on me case, there are farr too many memories for me here, it hurts all too much, and I cant escape anywhere, feeling very trapped like I was when I was attacked, isolated too. I dunno whether im coming or going hun.
Check your PMs hun.
But you keep fighting too hun, I know you not ok, I could feel it long before you said anything, my tiff radar is always on. x
I haven’t decided whether to go see my GP or not yet. And as I say I dunno what to even say to my councellor. I am just soo confuzzled e wuzzled.
Tiff I am always thinking of you, and I hope whatever your going though, you know we are all here, you are very special hun.
Im here when ever you need hun. Anytime.
Take care my tiff
Much love
thinking of you always
Xxx

Ok so I better explain a few things, I am very bad at the moment, as I say things have got worse, I am trying to cope and keep me head above that water tho. But I am going to have to go away for a bit, I don’t know how long for I don’t even know where im going to start with things, but I am feeling a bit like miro, I have got a lot going on with someone. And my head is soo confused about it all. I also have a mate who isn’t ok at the moment he is very down too, he is younger than me, and he is going through a form of depression, he has changed a lot and its hard to see, especially some of the things he Is doing to himself, he reminds me of me when I was younger or even me now. I want to be able to help him, but cant help him till I help meself.
As we all know this isn’t something we can snap out of, it’s a long road, but I cant even see the road at the moment, I am in the desert, no water no nothing, and certainly no road or path to follow. I hope I am making sense here.?

I better go….. I cant handle this anymore (and no tiff i aint gonna be stupid )
I want you all to know I will be thinking of you all, and you are all special. Keep fighting everyone. Keep going.
And thank you all very much xxx

Right rosie is off now to try and recuperate in a rest home

Remember take care everyone, and keep each other going, your all a great bunch, and its been nice to get to know you all, I hope to see you all soon.
xxxxx
Take care everyone
Much love and thinking of you all
xxx
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Sazbo

Rosie hun, thank you for such a lovely post, we love our rose essays I know you having a really tough time at the moment and I can only say how sorry I am about that. You've been a source of strength and support for people on this thread longer than most of us - so i truly hope you find the same strength and support for yourself some time very soon, you deserve it hun.

I will definitely keep an eye on FG, have been thinking about her in fact, as I know she's got a big day ahead of her tomorrow. We will all do our best to look after each other, it's much such a difficult time for many of us.

But we will all be thinking about you rose and wishing you well. You're welcome here anytime please don't forget that - we won't forget you hun. :A

Take very good care of yourself, and thanks for everything. Catch you very soon. :kisses3:

Much love,
Saz xxxxxx

elona

(((((((Rosie)))))))

:T :A

Not often I am lost for words - big hug.

feelinggood_2

No one needs to look out for me - I'm fine.
I'm taking a break from this thread, complicated reasons. I have a problem with rejection, and I can't stand it. Sorry if that is dramatic, its just how it is - If i feel not wanted, it hurts. Its silly, I know that. I'll come back when I can. Everyone, just keep going, thinking of you all.
Thanks for reminder about big day tomorrow, I've double booked myself and need to reschedule one thing - not the appointment.
Thanks for all your love and support, you will all always been in my head and in my heart x

blinky

Rosie - thanks for the mega post. Sorry to hear you're feeling worse. Hope you are better soon

Feelinggood - understand you need to take a break. Good luck.

Am I scaring everyone away? Hope not...

Take care all and I'm thinking of you all

EthelBloggs

blinky wrote:

Am I scaring everyone away? Hope not...

Take care all and I'm thinking of you all

Nah I don't think you're scaring anyone away blinky.. I know for me I had a blissful day yesterday.. only ventured out of bed for food and bathroom, lol

Spent the rest of it snoozing and reading for pleasure rather than study and watching saturday night cr appy tv :D:D Not been out of me jammies all weekend

Today I've been doing some referencing/bibliography stuff which I absolutely hate :mad: and making a list of books etc I'm gonna need for this week's work... soo even tho I had a lovely day off yesterday.. I've got to catch up today grrrrrr

All I realy want to do is have a longgggggg soak in a bath full of bubbles - promised it to myself as a treat when the referencing is done later lol

blinky

EthelBloggs wrote:

I know for me I had a blissful day yesterday.. only ventured out of bed for food and bathroom, lol

Spent the rest of it snoozing and reading for pleasure rather than study and watching saturday night cr appy tv :D:D Not been out of me jammies all weekend

Lucky so and so

EthelBloggs wrote:

All I realy want to do is have a longgggggg soak in a bath full of bubbles - promised it to myself as a treat when the referencing is done later lol

Enjoy your soak in the tub - you deserve it.

Horasio

To whom it may concern - I do hope you aren't leaving for long. You have been really helpful to me.

Felt really odd this weekend, so didn't post till now.

Was OK when we went out yesterday.

Tried to pack today. Packed two boxes and did some sorting but it wasn't gelling, so left it. We are aiming to put the place up for sale in 8 weeks, so need to declutter by then. It is being peaceful just now, so want to make the most of it but mustn't get too used to it, no doubt a neighbour will play up. It is cold this week, so it should keep em in.:D

I do find it odd that if you eat the right or wrong food or drink, it can change my mood dramatically. Perhaps, you should look at what you are eating and monitor how it makes you feel.

Horasio

feelinggood wrote:

No one needs to look out for me - I'm fine.
I'm taking a break from this thread, complicated reasons. I have a problem with rejection, and I can't stand it. Sorry if that is dramatic, its just how it is - If i feel not wanted, it hurts. Its silly, I know that. I'll come back when I can. Everyone, just keep going, thinking of you all.
Thanks for reminder about big day tomorrow, I've double booked myself and need to reschedule one thing - not the appointment.
Thanks for all your love and support, you will all always been in my head and in my heart x

Take care

I do undertstand the feeling of rejection too and I tend to back off.

You have been a great help to me recently.

You will be welcome with open arms when you do return.

Horasio

elona wrote:

Miro

When DH and I met in Nottingam - I lived in Glasgow and he lived in Manchester - I would visit every month or so and we would spend the weekend together.
We got engagaed a year later and were married less than six monthe after that.

We now have four daughters and have nearly reached our Silver Wedding (25 years)!

Distance does not have to be a barrier.

It is not you that she is running from and if you can carry on being a support to her things could work out as you hope.

Please do not shut yourself away - for your sake as much as for the people on here who would miss you.

I agree, distance needn't be a barrier - we are also about to reach our 25th Anniversary too:)