depression

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

I'm sorry to hear this Miro. My opinion, for what it's worth: it doesn't automatically indicate that you don't mean anything to her, but maybe from where she's standing, and how she feels about the past, that this is what she needs to do, for her own sanity. Now, obviously I cannot judge the relative merits of that decision, as I don't know her. What I would say is that it's likely not an 'either/or' decision for her, but more a case of what is causing her the most pain or hurt in her life and how that needs to be addressed.

I know this reply isn't going to alter how you feel, but believe me I couldn't be more sorry about that. Love, Saz xx

She knows I struggle expressing myself, so she told me to write it all down, so I have and put it under her door, with a thank you card and some flowers. (Flowers outside the door)

I just was honest, said I think she's great.........in fact I said a billion nice things about her, that I cared for her, that as a friend I love her to bits and loads of other things.

I even told her I wrote a song for her............if she's going, then it doesn't matter what I say now does it? She said she'll come visit, I could go see her and stay for a bit etc, but it's not the same, meet up every week, but they all say that don't they . I know she's going because of the pain here, I just wanted to be enough so she'd stay, but i'm not

She was amazing today, I turned up, she hugged me, then told me she was leaving. It rocked me so bad, I went quiet. She talked about herself, asked me to talk about me, I refused.....she then asked me to tell her why I was upset.......I told her it's been a bad week, and that it's getting worse, she asked why..........I refused..........eventually after nagging, I told her someone had said something to upset me, but they didn't do it to upset me......then later, after more nagging, I told her it was because she said she was leaving...........she was even greater from then on, hugging me, saying loads of nice things, telling me she loved me as a friend and that she thinks of me lots.....

I just don't want her to go

She's not text me yet re: the card/letter/flowers.........I text her to tell her they were there....

Anyway, end of all that.......I'm leaving this messageboard for a while, I can't handle all this, I need to be on my own, i'm not sure i'll come back.

Take Care everyone, thanks for everything. I hope you all find happiness.

Miro

blinky

Miroslav wrote:

She knows I struggle expressing myself, so she told me to write it all down, so I have and put it under her door, with a thank you card and some flowers. (Flowers outside the door)

I just was honest, said I think she's great.........in fact I said a billion nice things about her, that I cared for her, that as a friend I love her to bits and loads of other things.

I even told her I wrote a song for her............if she's going, then it doesn't matter what I say now does it? She said she'll come visit, I could go see her and stay for a bit etc, but it's not the same, meet up every week, but they all say that don't they . I know she's going because of the pain here, I just wanted to be enough so she'd stay, but i'm not

She was amazing today, I turned up, she hugged me, then told me she was leaving. It rocked me so bad, I went quiet. She talked about herself, asked me to talk about me, I refused.....she then asked me to tell her why I was upset.......I told her it's been a bad week, and that it's getting worse, she asked why..........I refused..........eventually after nagging, I told her someone had said something to upset me, but they didn't do it to upset me......then later, after more nagging, I told her it was because she said she was leaving...........she was even greater from then on, hugging me, saying loads of nice things, telling me she loved me as a friend and that she thinks of me lots.....

I just don't want her to go

She's not text me yet re: the card/letter/flowers.........I text her to tell her they were there....

Anyway, end of all that.......I'm leaving this messageboard for a while, I can't handle all this, I need to be on my own, i'm not sure i'll come back.

Take Care everyone, thanks for everything. I hope you all find happiness.

Miro

Miroslav

I'm very sorry for what's transpired with 'S' I truly am.

I know you're hurting and words of comfort won't help much. From what you've written although 'S' is moving to another town it doesn't sound like goodbye and although an hour away may seem like the other side of the world now it isn't.

thinking of you

Paul

blinky

Sazbo wrote:

Hi Paul,

Well, since I'm sat here typing this reply, I assume that means you haven't bored me to death Hope you got a good sleep and can look back on your evening with R with renewed perspective. Sounded like a nice evening to me, and not at all like she was spending it with you because there wasn't anyone better available at the time - I'd give yourself far more credit than that hun As you say, one day at a time is the best strategy, particularly since you are still in the process of getting well.

Hope you have a good Saturday and then a nice evening with R tomorrow.

Sx

Thanks for the kind words Sazbo

Find it difficult to give myself any credit.

Hard to describe today - was feeling really anxious but I couldn't pinpoint why.

Anyway, I had a text from 'R' asking to cancel tomorrow night as someone close had been taken ill, so I've been worrying about them. I totally understand the cancellation and I've told her this and I'm available if she needs me for anything. She's text back thanking me for being so understanding. I just feel so bloody useless and I wish I could do more for her. :sad:

Tired now.

Might be back on later tonight - if not all sleep well and I'm thinking of you all.

Paul
xxx

pinkpong

Miroslav wrote:

I still miss home too, but England is okay. Too many people are stressed here though. The UK tries to move too fast.

Hey where do you come from?
Please let me know I be it`s the Czech republic. Full of pesimistic people.

Sazbo

blinky wrote:

Thanks for the kind words Sazbo

Find it difficult to give myself any credit.

Hard to describe today - was feeling really anxious but I couldn't pinpoint why.

Anyway, I had a text from 'R' asking to cancel tomorrow night as someone close had been taken ill, so I've been worrying about them. I totally understand the cancellation and I've told her this and I'm available if she needs me for anything. She's text back thanking me for being so understanding. I just feel so bloody useless and I wish I could do more for her. :sad:

Tired now.

Might be back on later tonight - if not all sleep well and I'm thinking of you all.

Paul
xxx

No worries Paul X Really you've already done loads - you've been understanding and she appreciates that. Sure it'll all be good for you hun x Hope you get some sleep, take care Sx

blinky

Sazbo wrote:

No worries Paul X Really you've already done loads - you've been understanding and she appreciates that. Sure it'll all be good for you hun x Hope you get some sleep, take care Sx

Thank you for the kind words Sazbo :A I still wish I could do more.

geminilady

Miroslav wrote:

She knows I struggle expressing myself, so she told me to write it all down, so I have and put it under her door, with a thank you card and some flowers. (Flowers outside the door)

I just was honest, said I think she's great.........in fact I said a billion nice things about her, that I cared for her, that as a friend I love her to bits and loads of other things.

I even told her I wrote a song for her............if she's going, then it doesn't matter what I say now does it? She said she'll come visit, I could go see her and stay for a bit etc, but it's not the same, meet up every week, but they all say that don't they . I know she's going because of the pain here, I just wanted to be enough so she'd stay, but i'm not

She was amazing today, I turned up, she hugged me, then told me she was leaving. It rocked me so bad, I went quiet. She talked about herself, asked me to talk about me, I refused.....she then asked me to tell her why I was upset.......I told her it's been a bad week, and that it's getting worse, she asked why..........I refused..........eventually after nagging, I told her someone had said something to upset me, but they didn't do it to upset me......then later, after more nagging, I told her it was because she said she was leaving...........she was even greater from then on, hugging me, saying loads of nice things, telling me she loved me as a friend and that she thinks of me lots.....

I just don't want her to go

She's not text me yet re: the card/letter/flowers.........I text her to tell her they were there....

Anyway, end of all that.......I'm leaving this messageboard for a while, I can't handle all this, I need to be on my own, i'm not sure i'll come back.

Take Care everyone, thanks for everything. I hope you all find happiness.

Miro

Hi Miro,can understand you wanting to be on your own for now but please don't leave the board i am sure everyone will agree that your posts and humour would be missed lots.I agree with Paul just because she moves an hour away it does not mean your friendship is over.Anyway she has not gone yet,has she actualy got another place?if not she may just be thinking about it and may change her mind.Also think about all the postives that happened today! in another post you said you just wanted "s" to give you a hug well you got one today,also she told you she loved you as a friend and said lots of nice things,you should be over the moon when you know how hard she finds it to show her fealings and express herself.I know all you can think about is her moving away but it may not happen and even if it does from what happened today i don't think you are going to loose her,she does like you lots,she said so! so you just keep that in your head,ok.

blinky

Hope everyone it safely through the night

Thinking of you all,

Paul
xx

Sazbo

blinky wrote:

Hope everyone it safely through the night

Thinking of you all,

Paul
xx

Morning everyone, hope today finds you all ok. Morning blinks, yes I made it today, thanks hun. Didn't sleep too good though. Woke up at 3am, was still awake at 4 and thought I wasn't going to get off again, but must have at some point. Not sure what to do with myself today, feeling a bit 'at sea', if you know what I mean, also my intermittent back problem has flared-up again for some unknown reason and that always p's me off. Also, a feeling a bit sad about Miro... :sad:

Anyway at least sun is shining at the moment, might try and force myself to go out later for a bit, and try to ignore the fact that I have to go to work tomorrow, and also the fact that I have my counselling initial assessment on Friday... Ho hum.

Have a good day blinky, and all you lovely people here.

Take care,
Sazxxx

elona

Miro

When DH and I met in Nottingam - I lived in Glasgow and he lived in Manchester - I would visit every month or so and we would spend the weekend together.
We got engagaed a year later and were married less than six monthe after that.

We now have four daughters and have nearly reached our Silver Wedding (25 years)!

Distance does not have to be a barrier.

It is not you that she is running from and if you can carry on being a support to her things could work out as you hope.

Please do not shut yourself away - for your sake as much as for the people on here who would miss you.