depression

Horasio

Tiff wrote:

Hi Miro
Respect and honesty are vital in a relationship hun you're right. Maybe we should be looking at this another way - maybe she's giving you all she CAN give you right now. She's had an op so will be feeling under the weather as well as all her other issues.
The card & photos were a nice idea. Keep it all light right now & leave the invite open - you don't want to be the one sending mixed signals hun. You are not being punished Miro. it's upsetting for anyone to have someone cancel something you were looking forward to. Tiff x

I hate people cancelling on me just before an appointment - it is one of my pet hates. I feel they don't care enough about me to make the effort, a lack of respect and consideration for me.

OK as a one off, it is OK if something REALLY major happens but people tend to make a habit of it and it is my number 1 reason I break up with them.

Horasio

Sazbo wrote:

Miro - it's so early days yet, don't you think hun? Probably too soon to be able to tell if she's keen and, anyway, perhaps she herself needs more time? After what she's been through it might take her a while to build up trust and feel comfortable with someone? Just my thoughts as always. Can totally understand how you're feeling though - you want to be there for her, be friends, be relaxed and enjoy each others company. But Miro hun, don't forget - as you admit yourself - you were expecting the worst, but she must want to spend time with you, otherwise she would have cancelled? Go easy on yourself babe. Have a good day x

Yes, I agree. She is problemed and it's no reflection on you.

I would also try visualising what you want. Imagine it all going well and often it comes true. I sense you visualise the worst most of the time, yes it often happens that way but I visualised meeting a man just before I met my husband and it worked. I was obviously looking but not when I actually met him, 8am at a bus stop is not my pulling time:D

feelinggood_2

CCStar wrote:

I should be around later, don't need to do much cooking as we abandoned our meal yesterday due to the screaming brats. Our son eats with us Mondays and Tuesdays and we have a feast:D

Are you on msn? I can PM my address if you want to chat live

I am wanting to go down south to live. When we sell this place we will downsize and want to get a second home where I want to live! We had two homes before and it was good having the variety.

My fear is chavs and being bullied when alone. The second week I was here, some youngsters hung around outside our house shouting, effing and blinding. I felt really scared. It only happened once but we reckon it was for the last people's benefit. Some very odd things happened in our first year, non neighbour related. But once we introduced ourselves at a local garage with car trouble, it stopped.

Our other house is in Manchester - Chav City.
Went back this weekend, but I couldn't bear the thought of being in that house, so I slept at my parents. I don't know what it is - not really had any bad experiences in manchester, but I just really panicked thinking about being in that house.
Dread to think what would happen if we had to move back there - I don't think I could to be honest.
I'm on MSN, pm me your name, and hopefully I'll catch you later
Take care x x x

Miroslav

:wave:

Thanks to all for there replies, but there isn't really anything I can say that is different to what I already have, and I guess it's the same for everyone else in there replies.

I'm going to take a break from here for a while, at least until something positive happens, either with 'S' or with something/someone else, as i'm just continuesly repeating the same fears I have.

I just need a break from life to be honest, as it's getting me down real low. Sadly, a break from life is not possible.

Talk to you all, as soon as something positive happens, hopefully very soon.

:wave:

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

:wave:

Thanks to all for there replies, but there isn't really anything I can say that is different to what I already have, and I guess it's the same for everyone else in there replies.

I'm going to take a break from here for a while, at least until something positive happens, either with 'S' or with something/someone else, as i'm just continuesly repeating the same fears I have.

I just need a break from life to be honest, as it's getting me down real low. Sadly, a break from life is not possible.

Talk to you all, as soon as something positive happens, hopefully very soon.

:wave:

Take a break if you need to Miro, but please remember you can post here anytime, we don't expect you to only post about positive things hun - this is a support thread for people with depression, after all. We're here to help each other through the tough times. We'll be thinking of you, but do come back soon... Saz xx

Tiff_2

Where's our Tiffy today? Have you woken up yet hun? I can lend you my zimmer frame if that makes it easier for you to get about :D , but please can you let me have it back as soon as possible, because I need to pop out soon for some more WD40 :rotfl: Hope you're feeling ok today Tiff hun, and big hugs to all you lovely people. Sazzie xxx

:j :j :j Here-I-am!-Here-I-am!-Here-I-am!-Here-I-am!-Here-I-am!-:j :j :j
GOT to leave those red smarties alone!
How's you Saz? Hope you're well angel.

Yes I'm up, you cheeky mare! :rotfl:
Zimmer frame indeed! There's still life in the old dog yet - look - :heartpuls - that's proof!:rotfl:
You only said all this because you thought I had a life and wouldn't be online!:rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:....... Hang on, that isn't funny

See what I have to put up with guys? This is TIFF ABUSE I tell you, TIFF ABUSE!!! :rolleyes2
Have a great day hun.
Much love
Tiff xxx

Sazbo

Tiff wrote:

:j :j :j Here-I-am!-Here-I-am!-Here-I-am!-Here-I-am!-Here-I-am!-:j :j :j
GOT to leave those red smarties alone!
How's you Saz? Hope you're well angel.

Yes I'm up, you cheeky mare! :rotfl:
Zimmer frame indeed! There's still life in the old dog yet - look - :heartpuls - that's proof!:rotfl:
You only said all this because you thought I had a life and wouldn't be online!:rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:....... Hang on, that isn't funny

See what I have to put up with guys? This is TIFF ABUSE I tell you, TIFF ABUSE!!! :rolleyes2
Have a great day hun.
Much love
Tiff xxx

Hiya Tiffy! Good to here from you hun - I'm saving up the red smarties for ya :easter_ba Hey guess what guys - this is Sazzie's 1,000th post! :j :beer: :j :money: And I can think of nothing better than to post it on here because I think you peeps are all so lovely :grouphug: :T Hugs to you all.

I'm out this evening so may not catch up with you tonight. Take care everyone, catch you tomorrow Sxxx

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

Take a break if you need to Miro, but please remember you can post here anytime, we don't expect you to only post about positive things hun - this is a support thread for people with depression, after all. We're here to help each other through the tough times. We'll be thinking of you, but do come back soon... Saz xx

A positive...........maybe..............

'S' was due to go to a recording studio tonight & flatmate can bring 3 friends who have had depression/anxiety etc..........another chap, 'S' and me were invited...........I said no, as 'S' was going and didn't want to be in her face too much. She now doesn't want to go, a shame, as she loves music, and has a really good operatic voice, but for some reason she can't face it, so I am going now (We leave in 15 minutes or so!!)

Very nervous, but looking forward to it, with my big booming voice.........well, we don't have to sing, we can dance, write lyrics, play instruments or learn how to fiddle with the buttons in the recording studio........oh and design graphics for our CD's.

It's 5 sessions, this week is today and Tuesday, like next week, and then the final recording's etc 2 weeks later. It gets me out anyway, and flatmate is there. Some other people will be there too, so giving it a go!

Earlier, found 'S' belly piercing that she lost here yesterday, so sneeked up her place, shoved it under the door (in an envelope!) and ran, hoping she wouldn't see me

All 3 of us are planning to go to The Fair/Fireworks Display next Saturday, if she doesn't spend all her money in the meantime...........but she is REALLY hard work, although I do like her and want to get close to her. It's just impossible to get close to her, yet people who hurt her seem to be able to get in........i'm not gonna hurt her, but maybe because i'm not, she's got the option to push me away.

She also 'lies' alot, to make it sound like she's happy, has alot in her life and lots of friends.

We've discovered that some of her 'friends' include:

Someone she was on a course with 2 years ago, that she sees only when she pops into her place of work

Her neighbours who say hello

People who have used her

Her step mother, who she doesn't like

Taxi Drivers who take her from A to B

We walked her home last night, and she let us in for a tea. She had one get well card and some fake roses. The get well card was from us, the roses she bought herself :rolleyes:

She's pretending everything is fine..........when it's not, and she won't let us in, and is ignoring anything to do with me. She talks about herself non stop, doesn't even hear most things..........

Arrrrrrgggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! But I like her :rolleyes:

Anyway, gotta go rapping/dancing.beat boxing :rotfl:

If it goes well, i'll be back

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

Anyway, gotta go rapping/dancing.beat boxing :rotfl:

If it goes well, i'll be back

:rotfl: Miro in da house! Let us know how it goes x

feelinggood_2

Hey guys, just a quick Hello.
I'm feeling a bit funny today, so many thoughts. I'm dreading OH coming home, at least when I'm alone I can be me.
Going to try to get a docs appointment tomorrow.
x