depression

Tiff_2

Bunnie1982 wrote:

It's very tempting to open it especially as it is here in front of me.

Forgot to say I also treated myself to some new clothes yesterday, 2 new jumpers from Dorothy Perkins (not very money saving of me)

However I did manage to save £30 on hubbys Christmas present so I am please

:j You go Bunnie!:j
It's good to hear that although sometimes tablets may not suit us at 1st, that side effects can disappear. You're a star Happy Birthday hun :A - sorry if I've missed it. Keep up the good work. Tiff xxx

Sazbo

Tiff wrote:

Hi Sazzy.
Yes hun, all has not been great in TiffWorld if I'm honest - but it's our secret right?:rotfl: Thank you for thinking of me angel.
I'm ashamed re. gym too - I've not been once this lifetime!:rolleyes:
Hope the dentist went well hun and don't worry about the sun angel - I know for a fact it's due the last 2 weeks of March 2007! Tiff x

Aww Tiffy, I'm sorry to hear things aren't too good for you, especially when you devote so much time and effort to making sure we're all ok. Wish I could make it all go away for you but in the meantime (((BIG HUGS)) to you lovely Tiff :A :grouphug: Sxxxx

Tiff_2

Miroslav wrote:

Maybe. I'm annoyed though, cancelling me about 40 minutes before I left.........I was ready and everything, extra special effort and when she did call "Food shopping" not bad toe was the reason. Okay, I thought she may cancel, but she didn't know that I fully expected her too. I wish she'd stop fobbing me off with excuses, there are 2 of us in this friendship and I deserve respect and honesty.
I've posted my note and get well card under her door anyway, i'm sure that is totally wrong as well, I can't do no right with her it seems.
I even posted pictures of my cats that she wanted to see.
It was a nice note, a bit of joking, with a couple of serious points about the issues she has with me, just stating I was sorry and the reasons I did it, and the note included an invite for her to come here with me and flatmate on Sunday, as she keeps saying she wants too.Maybe, I should close that invite now, or maybe I should calm down first.
I know she is struggling, but it makes no difference when she upsets me. I could accept her cancelling, but ringing me so close to the time, with a crap excuse and rushing off the phone quickly is not what I deserve.
You'll all think i'm being unreasonable, I know, but i'm really annoyed. We had a great last Thursday, now it seems i'm being punished for it :mad:

Hi Miro
Respect and honesty are vital in a relationship hun you're right. Maybe we should be looking at this another way - maybe she's giving you all she CAN give you right now. She's had an op so will be feeling under the weather as well as all her other issues.
The card & photos were a nice idea. Keep it all light right now & leave the invite open - you don't want to be the one sending mixed signals hun. You are not being punished Miro. it's upsetting for anyone to have someone cancel something you were looking forward to. Tiff x

Tiff_2

simone2697 wrote:

Hope you have all had a good day today! Shattered again- more to do with discovering a mouse in the bedroom in the early hours and not being able to sleep in there than depression.
Am going to start taking my meds tonight. Scared about it as i keep thinking of the side effects of the fluoxetine but am going to take em as i will only know if they work if i start taking them!
Take care of yourselves and thanks for the advice you all gave me yesterday.
Simone
xxx

hey Simone :O)
Well done on taking the meds hun - proud of you.;)
Ahhh.... you gotta pet mouse! (Sazzy - quick - hide the "Mousetrap" movie!:D )
What you gonna name him/her?
I bet it was quite a shock hun.
I had a huge rat in my bedroom but, Thank God,
the divorce in 2001 took care of that!:D :rotfl:
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Time for a Tiff break & I'm only on page 104!:eek:
back later - don't say you weren't warned!
Much love to all
Tiff xxx

Sazbo

Tiff wrote:

I had a huge rat in my bedroom but, Thank God,
the divorce in 2001 took care of that!:D :rotfl:
Tiff xxx

:rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:

kiwichick

Hi All,

I hope you dont mind my posting on here, I've just found this thread.

I am 26, have 3 kids aged 2, 3 & 4, and Hubbie (or should that be 4th child?). I suffered depression in my teens and was on anti d's for a year or so then. Overdosed seriously enough to need my stomach pumping. Used to self harm quite a bit and have suffered from bulimia since 13.

I had a bout of PND after DS was born but had to stop medication as I fell pregnant with DD when DS was just 3 months. After the birth of DD i had PND badly and was on prozac for nearly 2 years. My husband had a change of job and we relocated from Essex to Bucks to he was nearer work. I felt fine about it all and took myself off the prozac, saw GP after this and she said I seemed fine. This was 4 months ago.

Things are awful now, I really am scared I'm having a nervous breakdown. I am massivly depressed, am not looking after my children properly, not talking to my husband, I have only slept with him 4 times since DD was born and shes 2! I atlernate between eating all day long to not eating for days, cant sleep, cant manage the house, god the list goes on.

Despite having 3 wonderful kids I still feel thoughts of suicide creeping in daily. I know I wouldnt ever resort to that but the fact that I think about it scares me and I know of it werent for the kids I would have done it long before now. I have felt like cutting myself for a few days now, not suicide cut more like self harm cut. Just to feel the release.

I don;t want to spend any time with DH so despite feeling the way I do.
I've joined numerous local groups in an effort to be out of the house in the evenings. I'm co-chair of DD's PTA, on the committee of DS's nursery school, the village hall committee, help to run the local toddler group and am also treasurer for it. All of this is stressful and keeps me very busy but I cant bear to fail and let all those people down.

I am going to see my GP tomorrow. I am going to ask for a double appointment cause I know once I start talking I wont stop. I know I'll just cry and cry and cry. I dont know what to do. I just want to curl up in a ball and cry it all away.

Has anyone else felt this bad, and can I get over it?????

Sazbo

kiwichick wrote:

Hi All,

I hope you dont mind my posting on here, I've just found this thread.

I am 26, have 3 kids aged 2, 3 & 4, and Hubbie (or should that be 4th child?). I suffered depression in my teens and was on anti d's for a year or so then. Overdosed seriously enough to need my stomach pumping. Used to self harm quite a bit and have suffered from bulimia since 13.

I had a bout of PND after DS was born but had to stop medication as I fell pregnant with DD when DS was just 3 months. After the birth of DD i had PND badly and was on prozac for nearly 2 years. My husband had a change of job and we relocated from Essex to Bucks to he was nearer work. I felt fine about it all and took myself off the prozac, saw GP after this and she said I seemed fine. This was 4 months ago.

Things are awful now, I really am scared I'm having a nervous breakdown. I am massivly depressed, am not looking after my children properly, not talking to my husband, I have only slept with him 4 times since DD was born and shes 2! I atlernate between eating all day long to not eating for days, cant sleep, cant manage the house, god the list goes on.

Despite having 3 wonderful kids I still feel thoughts of suicide creeping in daily. I know I wouldnt ever resort to that but the fact that I think about it scares me and I know of it werent for the kids I would have done it long before now. I have felt like cutting myself for a few days now, not suicide cut more like self harm cut. Just to feel the release.

I don;t want to spend any time with DH so despite feeling the way I do.
I've joined numerous local groups in an effort to be out of the house in the evenings. I'm co-chair of DD's PTA, on the committee of DS's nursery school, the village hall committee, help to run the local toddler group and am also treasurer for it. All of this is stressful and keeps me very busy but I cant bear to fail and let all those people down.

I am going to see my GP tomorrow. I am going to ask for a double appointment cause I know once I start talking I wont stop. I know I'll just cry and cry and cry. I dont know what to do. I just want to curl up in a ball and cry it all away.

Has anyone else felt this bad, and can I get over it?????

Hiya kiwichic, and welcome. It really is a question of one day at a time. You've made the biggest step - going to see your GP tomorrow. Sounds to me like you do an awful lot for an awful lot of other people - but maybe not yourself. Cry all you need tomorrow, there's nothing wrong with that. Take care, you can post here anytime at all. Saz xxx

Miroslav

Well, today wasn't as bad as last week, but it wasn't great. I can't even get my words out, or let my hair down and have fun.

I so tried.........I'm always going to be like this.

As it happens, I don't think she's over keen on me anymore anyway.

Tiff_2

kiwichick wrote:

Hi All,
I hope you dont mind my posting on here, I've just found this thread.
I am 26, have 3 kids aged 2, 3 & 4, and Hubbie (or should that be 4th child?). I suffered depression in my teens and was on anti d's for a year or so then. Overdosed seriously enough to need my stomach pumping. Used to self harm quite a bit and have suffered from bulimia since 13.

I had a bout of PND after DS was born but had to stop medication as I fell pregnant with DD when DS was just 3 months. After the birth of DD i had PND badly and was on prozac for nearly 2 years. My husband had a change of job and we relocated from Essex to Bucks to he was nearer work. I felt fine about it all and took myself off the prozac, saw GP after this and she said I seemed fine. This was 4 months ago.

Things are awful now, I really am scared I'm having a nervous breakdown. I am massivly depressed, am not looking after my children properly, not talking to my husband, I have only slept with him 4 times since DD was born and shes 2! I atlernate between eating all day long to not eating for days, cant sleep, cant manage the house, god the list goes on.

Despite having 3 wonderful kids I still feel thoughts of suicide creeping in daily. I know I wouldnt ever resort to that but the fact that I think about it scares me and I know of it werent for the kids I would have done it long before now. I have felt like cutting myself for a few days now, not suicide cut more like self harm cut. Just to feel the release.

I don;t want to spend any time with DH so despite feeling the way I do.
I've joined numerous local groups in an effort to be out of the house in the evenings. I'm co-chair of DD's PTA, on the committee of DS's nursery school, the village hall committee, help to run the local toddler group and am also treasurer for it. All of this is stressful and keeps me very busy but I cant bear to fail and let all those people down.
I am going to see my GP tomorrow. I am going to ask for a double appointment cause I know once I start talking I wont stop. I know I'll just cry and cry and cry. I dont know what to do. I just want to curl up in a ball and cry it all away.
Has anyone else felt this bad, and can I get over it?????

Hi kiwi ! :hello: - welcome to a wonderfully caring board angel... you are so very welcome. We will all, I'm sure, welcome and support you , even if you just need an ear. It takes a lot to make that 1st post and to be so bravely honest - well done you!:) You have stated your problems eloquently & intelligently hun and believe it or not, you are a Survivor. Amid all the darkness now, hold on tight to that thought angel. There's a lot of hope for you hun, there really is - you're very strong. Hush those tears now angel.;)
I'm sorry for all your problems kiwi. We can't offer you medical advice but it is never a good idea to take yourself off the medication. I'm glad you went to see doctor for a checkup afterwards and you may well have been fine at the time, but now you need to go back as you yourself have recognized you're not well - and no wonder. When do you have time to be kind to yourself?
You've got 3 children aged 2,3,4, you have moved house to a different area and you have taken on positions of great responsibility - all to your credit. But it's hurting you angel. I'm so glad you haven't tried suicide hun and please don't self-harm... when you're better, you want as few scars as possible to remind you of the bad times.
Sadly, you seem to be committing yourself to these evening activites to avoid OH and/or your problems - is he finding it hard to cope with? Or are you too scared to let OH know how bad things are again, that you feel you're letting everyone down? Or are you scared for yourself angel? All of these would be completely understandable hun. I'm sorry if these questions were too personal for you kiwi - I don't mean to offend just trying to understand.
I also got into the trap of getting extra busy and not wanting to let anyone down or fail - that mattered so much more than my health. But it is a trap hun. They wouldn't want you to feel like this hun honestly. They would want to help any way they could. Of course, you don't have to tell them anything kiwi - you could just say that you need to cut back on your hours due to a health problem - or you've grown a hairy chest if that's what it takes! Just kidding hun. :rolleyes:
You must be exhausted kiwi! Apart from 3 /4 dependants of your own, you're running a toddler group?! That's self-inflicted agony hun!
You've been where you're at before and you are so right in getting the help you need. I think you are feeling at your lowest right now because you have nowhere left to run to and hide. If you read back kiwi you'll find there are some other poor souls with awful stories to tell so yes, angel, there is a lot of hope for you.;)
Bless you, I'm very proud of the fact that you are going to contact your GP tomorrow - make sure you tell them it's urgent kiwi and don't get fobbed off. It's admirable to make such a huge contribution to the local area but you now seem to be realising that you have to put yourself 1st. You seem to know what to do next so all I can do is send you these: :lovethoug & :grouphug:
I'll be sending best wishes your way for tomorrrow and I hope you'll come back on and let us know how it all went. That's the great thing about this board, you can be completely yourself, not hiding anything, you can vent you're emotions, you're not judged and we help each other with info on benefits & services and with loving words of support sincerely meant whenever needed. After all, one way or another, we've all been there! It's time to look after you now hun.
Best Wishes,
Tiff x