depression

Natty68

*Hugs* Rose, and hi Sazbo

rose07

Sazbo wrote:

rose, I'm so sorry to hear this. You've mentioned your parents fighting in the past I think. Has that been happening for a long while, or only recently? It can't be good for you, anymore than it is for them. Big hugs, hun. xxx

Its happened soo long as i remember, things were quite rough for me as a kid
It is a horrible environment, i have a banging headache from it all.

Just feeling awful atm, as above, dunno where im at,

It is 3 years ago today since the attack, i had tears running down my face at work, dunno why as didnt ask them to be there, just happened.

I hope you are ok hun
xxx

Sazbo

rose07 wrote:

Its happened soo long as i remember, things were quite rough for me as a kid
It is a horrible environment, i have a banging headache from it all.

Just feeling awful atm, as above, dunno where im at,

It is 3 years ago today since the attack, i had tears running down my face at work, dunno why as didnt ask them to be there, just happened.

I hope you are ok hun
xxx

Hun, it's entirely understandable the tears. Wish I could make it all go away. All I can say is I'm thinking of you and sending warm vibes. Hope you feel better soon xxx

rose07

Sazbo wrote:

Hun, it's entirely understandable the tears. Wish I could make it all go away. All I can say is I'm thinking of you and sending warm vibes. Hope you feel better soon xxx[/QUOTE

thank you that means alot
im gonna go now
as my head all over the place,
sweet dreams huni
thinking of you and everyone
xxx

Sazbo

rose07 wrote:

Sazbo wrote:

Hun, it's entirely understandable the tears. Wish I could make it all go away. All I can say is I'm thinking of you and sending warm vibes. Hope you feel better soon xxx[/QUOTE

thank you that means alot
im gonna go now
as my head all over the place,
sweet dreams huni
thinking of you and everyone
xxx

Take care rosie, try and get some sleep. Chat soon, Sxx

rose07

ts_aly2000 wrote:

Aside from everything that's going on here, at this very moment in time I wish I was dead. Companies rip you off, people are weird, just what is the point in climbing up a mountain all you're life. While rich !!!!!!!s have it all and are thoroughly obnoixious.

I wish I was dead. I'm only here for my parents. And when they've snuffed I think I will to. The world doesn't appreciate me. I get criticised. I'm often wrong. And every night I have to listen to drunken prostitutes shouting their heads off at Police cars down the road. Last night 2-shops were broken into and the alarms were going for what must have been hours. And then at 6am the binmen came, talk about making so much bloody noise.

This is not the world I want to be in. And when I hear of people arguing over a flippin veil and whether some daft cow wants to wear it in a classroom or not. Please! Talk about creating problems for the sake of it. Over there, they cover up. Over here, we don't.

I truly give up. I've had enough of just being me alone by myself. I've just had my boobs done too, which I saved up for for years, and now some !!!!!! is criticising that in another thread. Oh God, just leave me alone you bitter calous people.

Im am gonna be quick as need sleep, but saw your post and couldnt leave

so here it is

please dont say 'i wish i was dead'. you dont really hun, this is just a way of getting the pain out you feel.

How old are you? and do you feel depressed?

Its the way of the world some people have to fight for what they have and some people can get it with ease, i dont know why this is but it is what it is, i will say this tho, those that have to fight for what we have, are stronger are survivors and can make it through things, so dont let it beat you.

I am sure people do appreciate you, you just dont realise it, please keep posting on here how you feel and what you are going through, as you can see we have a good community here.

I agree there is alot of conflict when there doesnt need to be, but we can walk away from these things. and you dont have to face them alone.

Well done on having your boobs done, that must have given you confidence?
And dont take what people say to heart they are yours and it what you feel about them that matters not anyone else, people are ok to have an opinion but its what matters deep down that counts

take care
and please dont do anything mad
xxx

rose07

sweet dreams to everyone
xxx

Tiff_2

Natty68 wrote:

Hi all, sorry I havent popped in for a wee while.. What with the nights drawing in I've been feeling more and more withdrawn. I hate this time of the year, I normally suffer with SAD as well as my normal depression..ugh!! Can't wait till Spring..lol

Just looked outside and there is a gorgeous pink sky, what a lovely sunset

Have my version of coq-au-vin cooking on hob and veggies all prepared for tonights dinner, so I'm just sitting here going through the net and t.v.

Hi Natty - I was going through various archives yesterday getting info for a poster and I swear I came acroos your posts and thought of you! Tiff's gone psychic - or psychotic, one of the two!:rotfl: How dare you go AWOL! :rolleyes: Welcome back Natty - sounds like you're doing well inspite of the SAD.
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

CCStar wrote:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Depression_%28mood%29

I was looking up Citalopram on the net and came across depression - what it really is.

How much is chemical and how much is reactive to bad events that have happened?

Hi CC
Both forms are relevant. I don't think the label is as important in the end - it's the symptoms. There are actually different kinds of depression. I believe that even reactive depression (due to stressful events) can be included because of the chemical imbalance as you're affected by the negative chemicals your body puts out too. I guess that's why depression is unique in a way - it affects all differently and no-one is identical to everyone sadly or we'd all be cured in a week.
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

feelinggood wrote:

He probably has a point about it making me more unhappy. I'm just gonna keep plodding along for a while. I'm working on self improvement, but tackle who I am inside is too big a step. Changing the outside for now, just ordered my GHD hair straighteners, they better be worth it! I've realised that I don't like me at all, and I need to change. It feels like its easier to change the outside, and then work on who I am inside. Maybe then I'll be happier. Its hard to change when I'm with people who know the old me. I'm wanting to run away again :rotfl: :rotfl:

Its worth just making an appointment, round here the wait is about 2 months, so the sooner you get in the better. Easier said than done I know!

Morning fg!
Sorry I haven't been able to get back to you before now hun. One reason you may have laughed in counselling might be that it's a form of defence. How many of us put up that happy face when someone's looking? Avoidance is also anpther possible reason - too painful.

OH is so wrong. From reading your last few posts hun, it sounds like you're desperate to talk to your counsellor. You said yourself if you get it out you feel it will help towards laying things to rest. When it comes to things like this, the worst thing you can do is put the lid back on. It just increases the pressure and brings you down because effectively what OH is saying to you is that you're not allowed to feel this way and that's soooo wrong. It's like a child frightened at bedtime - they only get rid of the fear by making it a regular thing and talking about it makes it less scary. i'd talk to the counsellor if I were you angel - you deserve it.
As for changing inside and out, trust me on this one , you have to take one step at a time hun as I'm sure you know. It is hard to change when there's people around that know the 'old' you but it will be so worth it. When we have so many problems, everyone will go for the easiest option first. I think we'll only feel really good with ourselves when we've built the basics and gotten to the root of the problem. It's painful, can be long time-wise and you'll feel exhausted, but it is so worth it. Can you imagine how much stronger you'll feel when you're set free from this ball and chain angel? Good luck fg.
Tiff xxx