depression

rose07

Sazbo wrote:

Good night Miro and Rosie, thanks for the chat. Feeling better for it. Going now to do battle with the small hours :rolleyes: Sazziexxx

thanks hun
im off too now
sweet dreams
and pleasant thoughts

seeya soon
and hope tomorrow is better than today

xxx

Horasio

feelinggood wrote:

The rejection is to do with something else (did write someone else, talk about a freudian slip!). Yeah, something that could have been good ain't gonna happen, no poin t dwelling on it tho.

I slept rather a lot, feeling alright now. Panic attacks, 2 were caused by the fact that OH is incapable of thinking for himself. Its getting much worse. If I'm there he will rely on me total - I have to stay awake in the car to give him directions, tell him where to go at the airport, carry passport and deal with all that. He does care, he just has a tough love, don't talk about feelings, bottle everything up and hide it in the hope it goes away policiy to things. Postive note, its my 2 year anniversary today. No present this year Just editing as that made it look like I want a present - I don't , I just want a token something to show that hes bothered

It sounds like he needs to be mothered, very hard work, yet can't give you the tlc you need or even remember your anniversary, I realise you aren't looking for gifts, you want the thought. We always celebrate our anniversary somehow.

You mention he gives you tought love. Does 'tough love' work for you?

Horasio

Looks like I'm alone tonight. Was having a chat with my husband about money earlier. Shall reply to the posts individually.

I feel so tired but worried about how we are going to survive on less money. The car breaking down doesn't help. We are repairing it as we are not ready to buy another one just yet. I want to decide when we buy a car.

I want a break from cr*p:(

Horasio

Bunnie1982 wrote:

Welcome home feelinggood *hugs*


Feeling quite positive today, the house is tidy and I feel determined to network myself for jobs, not had much luck so far but something has got to come my way soon.

Took the last of my course of sleeping tablets last night so lets hope I still manage to sleep well, also started my 40mg Citalopram today (up from 20mg) not feeling any side effects yet but probably too early.

Fingers x'd it helps:)

Horasio

Bunnie1982 wrote:

Got a job interview on Wednesday afternoon and should it go well I will (hopefully) start as a contractor next Monday on quite decent wages.

Can't say anything more about it because of the nature of the business.

Heard some positive things back from a few other jobs today too so one way or another I hope to have a new job by the end of October

That is great

Sounds like a job with the Secret Service - the code - 'it is raining down in Colchester':D

flis21

Just wanted to let you all know, even when I don't have time to post / respond to all your posts I still read this site every day and keep up with what is going on. Have to get ready for work, but my thoughts are with Miro for Thursday and with Rosie, hope your Gran is ok. Hugs to the rest of you. FeelingG - glad you liked Germany, I lived there for years, it is a lovely country, I love the food!!

Love to all,

Flis

feelinggood_2

CCStar wrote:

It sounds like he needs to be mothered, very hard work, yet can't give you the tlc you need or even remember your anniversary, I realise you aren't looking for gifts, you want the thought. We always celebrate our anniversary somehow.

You mention he gives you tought love. Does 'tough love' work for you?

I don't know. Its not tough love totally, he is affectionate and romantic, he just doesn't think I should think about the past or talk about my problems. He thinks the more I dwell on it the worse I am. I don't think he is as hard as me as I am on myself. He did remember anniversary, which was nice. Well celebrated it, not in the way I'd have liked tho. He went to the gym :rotfl:
Yeah, its all a bit of a mess.

Bunnie1982

I feel really agitated today and I don't know why, keep checking my email and phone to see if anyone has phoned me about jobs.

I have a couple of forms to fill in but no motivation to do them.

Just want to go back to bed

Bunnie1982

Now I feel terrible

I applied for a TV quiz show ages ago and I have had a voicemail message from them today wanting to go over my application form and maybe take it further.

The number to ring back is a mobile number and I can't really afford to call it and also I am very shy and feeling very low.

OH is making me feel terrible and trying to guilt trip me into calling by saying if we won the money I would never have to work again and he would be able to support me

Horasio

Bunnie1982 wrote:

Now I feel terrible

I applied for a TV quiz show ages ago and I have had a voicemail message from them today wanting to go over my application form and maybe take it further.

The number to ring back is a mobile number and I can't really afford to call it and also I am very shy and feeling very low.

OH is making me feel terrible and trying to guilt trip me into calling by saying if we won the money I would never have to work again and he would be able to support me

I understand your reluctance to take this further but this is a great opportunity. They will do the talking and ask you questions about what you wrote on the form. They tend to be bubbly and nice, so it could lift you.

It has cheered me up seeing someone have some exciting news:)

I hope I am not making you feel guilty too but it would be great to see one of us on the TV:)