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rose07 wrote:

my posts are getting shorter. . . .

Well I dont wanna go to work tomorrow, infact dont wanna do anything.
AARRGGHHHH

Just been speaking to my gran, she has cancer and was talking to me about it, i didnnt know what to say.

In the last hour have started coughing alot, (you would think i am a smoker with the sound of the cough, lol), but i dont smoke, thought i had got rid of the tonsilitis, but maybe not!!!!!

anyway off now
as got quite a few things to do before tomorrow
will be thinking of you all
take care and sweet dreams
xxx

Don't worry, you are feeling nervous and it is the tail end of your tonsilitis. My cough keeps coming and going.

Sunday night is always worse than Monday too for some reason.

Hope you feel better tomorrow

Tiff_2

CCStar wrote:

Hi

I know what you mean about Halloween. We thought we would be inundated with them but got none the last two years. PMSL at the fruit, I'm surprised they didn't throw it at you or your property (I don't like kids much - heartless, scary little things:eek:)

I am surprised I haven't heard any fireworks - yet, give it time.

I'm going away that weekend, so it should be good.

Hi CC - No they didn't throw any of the fruit - only because it had the same effect on them as Holy Water would have on a vampire!!!;) Don't think you'll escape it all by going away for the weekend hun - they'll wait for you and also the Nutty Season as I call it, won't be over until mid-February!:rolleyes:
Maybe this year I'll just get apples and stand on the doorstep reciting a brief version of Snow White?!:D Bad Tiff!:rotfl:
Much love Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

rose07 wrote:

my posts are getting shorter. . . .

Well I dont wanna go to work tomorrow, infact dont wanna do anything.
AARRGGHHHH

Just been speaking to my gran, she has cancer and was talking to me about it, i didnnt know what to say.

In the last hour have started coughing alot, (you would think i am a smoker with the sound of the cough, lol), but i dont smoke, thought i had got rid of the tonsilitis, but maybe not!!!!!

anyway off now
as got quite a few things to do before tomorrow
will be thinking of you all
take care and sweet dreams
xxx

WELCOME TO ROSE'S DAY! :dance:
I appreciate Rose because... she is a great example of courage and she is a survivor!


Hi Rosie! Not making light of this next few days, but I thought it was a good idea to give you a reason for still being here and fighting on.;)
I'm so sorry about your Gran hun. It's awful when that sort of thing hits a family. Cancer or not, she's still Gran angel - with the same amount of love for you. Treat Gran as you would have normally. Often, people in terrible circumstances (and don't we all know it?) don't want you to say anything hun - they just want you to listen. They just want to talk. And I think that in between all the physical/emotionl things that she's bound to say, she will tell you just how much you mean to her. She will say things you will appreciate and learn from and you can draw on her strength and courage as she goes through this awful time.
It's so hard to be the audience but by being there and loving her, you're giving her the best medicine. You know you can always come on here for lots of shoulders to cry on. Good luck for today angel - enjoy your time at work - use it to pass time by. We'll all give you all the support we can I'm sure. :A
I didn't get back on here yesterday - sorry - but La Tiff was poorly :rolleyes: - better this a.m. though. I will be back on here later. I wouldn't worry about your throat/cough too much right now angel - anti-biotics can take up to a couple of weeks to get rid of infection. It can also be a sign of anxiety too. Just make sure you finish the course of medicine!
Tiff's off now - I just want you to know that I'm proud of you and that there's always chances for a happy ever after...:j
See you tonight Rosie!:grouphug:
Much Love Tiff xxx

feelinggood_2

Well, I'm back Wasn't as bad as I thought - 4 major panic attacks but other than that was fine. Well, couple of big rows with OH, but while I was on my own to potter about I loved it - could see myself settling over there - if I could learn German first!

Things are alright at the moment, I'm feeling quite good. Back on the diet today, stopping my ocd thing, not drinking at all and am trying to stay on top of things. I know that that sounds like too much, but I've gotta do all or nothing. My only vice will be smoking now

Hope everyone is good, you deserve to be Had a quick read thru the posts, hope I've not missed anything important.

Side note, I'm a little upset, but trying not to think about it or worry about it - just feel a bit rejected/let down/not wanted. Understandable, but still hurts.

Tiff_2

Hi cc, rose, flis, miro, saz, regularsaver, mrs.a., feelinggood, bunnie, slayerx (have you gone into hiding angel ? Hope you're well.), razorb., gillette, elona, - and why don't I just say, Hi Everyone?!!!:rolleyes:

Been a very busy 2 weeks with me - had to get DS used to being vertical at 5.30am, various medical appointments, shopping (yep - really ticked off with my CPN who is curing me of my agoraphobia (God bless him) but is killing the 3 sixpences I get paid on DLA - if I was left alone to be agoraphobic then I wouldn't be spending!!!:rolleyes::rotfl: ) and family stuff. I've also been to physiotherapy too. All in all it leaves me physically and mentally (no jokes please!;) ) exhausted.
But I have been reading the posts and I do care about all of you - please believe that - and I hope to be able to post 'Tiff-The Triology' later!:D :rotfl: - I've got 25 pages for Miroslav alone!;) Don't be scared Miro!:o
I dare say you're all safely out at work so I'll catch up with you later guys - wishing you all a happy Monday. Look after each other.
Much love Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

feelinggood wrote:

Well, I'm back Wasn't as bad as I thought - 4 major panic attacks but other than that was fine. Well, couple of big rows with OH, but while I was on my own to potter about I loved it - could see myself settling over there - if I could learn German first!

Things are alright at the moment, I'm feeling quite good. Back on the diet today, stopping my ocd thing, not drinking at all and am trying to stay on top of things. I know that that sounds like too much, but I've gotta do all or nothing. My only vice will be smoking now

Hope everyone is good, you deserve to be Had a quick read thru the posts, hope I've not missed anything important.

Side note, I'm a little upset, but trying not to think about it or worry about it - just feel a bit rejected/let down/not wanted. Understandable, but still hurts.

WELCOME HOME FEELINGGOOD!
I lived in Germany for a few years - beautiful country. Don't worry about learning German - I learned more living there than I actually did in school!:rolleyes: Also, German children have a great school system and start learning English at around 5 years old - and they generally are perfect at it. I'm sure you could get by without too much German angel. Really glad you had a good time. Don't fret over OH - let him get on with it and just quietly make your plans - that way hopefully, you'll be able to get through the next few months (which will fly by - so start dreaming!) - after all, he can't argue with himself can he?!:D
I do feel for you angel but you are doing all the right things right now and should be proud of that. About the 4 rows, it doesn't matter where you go when you're in difficult times, your baggage goes with you, so the rows were as they would have been at home. I can empathise with you angel - there's nothing in the world like feeling no-one gives a damn or no-one loves you. But don't underestimate yourself hun - inspite of all the rows etc, you found the strength and ways to have a good time in Germany all by yourself!:T
Good for you fg!;)
Talk soon. Much Love. Tiff xxx

Bunnie1982

Welcome home feelinggood *hugs*


Feeling quite positive today, the house is tidy and I feel determined to network myself for jobs, not had much luck so far but something has got to come my way soon.

Took the last of my course of sleeping tablets last night so lets hope I still manage to sleep well, also started my 40mg Citalopram today (up from 20mg) not feeling any side effects yet but probably too early.

Miroslav

Trouble in Miroslav land, well not really.

Flatmate stayed over at 'S' place last night and they were both texting me.

'S' was wondering what she had done to make me run away, and was wondering if I still wanted to meet Thurs. I had to explain I cacked myself and that it wasn't that I didn't want to bump into her, it was because I was scared Said I was really excited about Thurs...........she had been worried all day.........about 9/10 hours She couldn't stop talking about me apparently

Anyway, she replied "You're a really nice guy, I want to get to know you, I like you"

Flatmate came back a couple of hours ago, told me 'S' was talking about me loads, that she can tell i'm not like most guys, although she is still nervous, and she's really excited about Thursday. She's having a rough time right now........... I don't expect her to talk to me straight away, I just hope she knows I've big shoulders if she needs to shed a tear or talk, when she trusts me more. She's told my flatmate that she's not used to a guy who doesn't want her for sex or money, she's really excited that I may want to know her for her......which I do, but she is a bit scared still.........Thursday could be fun if neither of us speak :rotfl:

More from Miroslav's world of mis-communication, whenever it next happens :rotfl:

Miroslav

rose07 wrote:

glad to hear from you Miroslav, yeah im good at them esssays, lol

nice that you sorting out some clothes sounds like you are helping this girl get back on her feet which is good

:eek: :eek: :eek: , just seen a trailer for the grudge 2 and saw 3, now im very scared

If I start a college course, fancy doing my essays?

She liked about 3/4 of the clothes, which was like about 60 items............flatmate literally has a different outfit for every day of the year I'd say, quite easily. She just decided to get rid of some, and 'S' is about the same size. She was delighted apparently, and loves the freeview box, and she's borrowing some CD's from me on Thursday

One thing that annoys me is she gives my flatmate a present everytime she goes around, just for going. She has very little as it is, and so far, it's a bracelet and necklace.

I don't watch horror movies, just don't see the point

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

I'm a bit stiff after yoga yesterday!!

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