depression

Horasio

rose07 wrote:

thanks saz x

i have been thinking of you all alot, it is nice to know that people care and that you all know this is my bad time.

it starts from monday so fingers crossed eh? work should keep me busy tho, i hope, tho sometimes i look past the screen and think sometimes so hope all goes ok.

yeah i am glad they are all nice at work, they are all guys 40+, so sometimes its hard to around such a male environment but they are all nice.

human pretzel impression? do tell? :rotfl:

nice to see you saz
xxx

I am glad the guys at work are nice. Will be thinking of your on Monday:)

Bunnie1982

Feeling a bit lonely today, my OH is out for the day and I am stuck in the house on my own with my lonely thoughts.

Horasio

Miroslav wrote:

Just quick hello, I will do more lengthy replies tomorrow, as flatmate is around 'S' place, so i'll be worrying then

Right now, gotta help flatmate sort some clothes she's taking to 'S' to see if she wants some.

I dunno why, but we did it for 5 hours last night, and I oddly enjoyed myself, probably because i'm such a joker and joke every 2 minutes, which usually gets me a joke slap

Last 2 days, decent mood. Worried about 'S' and worried she may go off me.

Anyway, as I say, will reply more to you all tomorrow........Thanks for the mention Rose, will reply to your essay's tomorrow :rotfl:

I do understand the feeling a person may go off you.

I bet S will be happy with some 'new' clothes. I love looking thro clothing
Whatever the outcome, it won't be your fault - people are so complex.:o

Horasio

Bunnie1982 wrote:

Feeling a bit lonely today, my OH is out for the day and I am stuck in the house on my own with my lonely thoughts.

What is on your mind? Are you wanting to go out with him?

I would take advatage of the peace and think what you can do that is for you - pamper youself

Sazbo

CCStar wrote:

What is on your mind? Are you wanting to go out with him?

I would take advatage of the peace and think what you can do that is for you - pamper youself

I think that's a good idea; take the chance to make a day for yourself. Something you enjoy doing that you normally don't have the chance to. Take a long bubble bath, catch up on some reading perhaps. Or maybe if you feel like it go out somewhere nice for a stroll? Sx

Miroslav

Okay............I will reply to you all..........later..........right now, follow my instructions........

Repeat after Miroslav......."Miroslav is a fool, Miroslav is a prat, Miroslav is not very good at this friendship lark"

As planned, at 12:45, flatmate and I walked with clothes, CD's and freeview box. The plan was I dropped flatmate off just around the corner from where they were meeting........as I say, it was the plan.

Instead, flatmate decided to take another route.......okay I thought, so she might see me from a distance.......didn't want that to happen as don't want to be around every corner she turns, as things are going well.......don't wanna push it.

So we are walking along, just gotta cross the road..........arrrrggggggggghhhhhhh, she's walking down on the other side........so I put the bags on the floor, said cya later to flatmate, and pegged it :rotfl: Didn't even wait for 'S' to notice I was there, although when I looked round to check no traffic was coming so I could cross another road, she clearly had noticed me.........so now she may think I was ignoring her but I basically cacked myself and left the scene! I didn't want to bump into her as I don't want her thinking i'm moving too fast.

Anyway, had a text from flatmate saying she liked alot of the clothes and the freeview box is setup, and she says thanks, so text flatmate back, with a simple 'Good' .

Flatmate was having another of her mis-understanding evenings late last night and was the same this morning, picking at me for shaving, saying she would take me as I was, despite my protests that I shave if anyone I like I might see. She also got in a huff with me as i'm doing stuff for 'S' but not her, which is no way true, it's just that for once, she has to share my helpfulness with someone else.

She's been telling me i'm being silly for being so nervous and not wanting to bump into her...........it's not that I don't, it's that I don't want it going too fast either, cos i'm pretty scared myself, I haven't got to know someone new outside of therapy/work etc for many years. She keeps putting my fears down, so much so, i'm now panicking again about meeting her.

I heard her on the phone this morning (I know it sounds like I listen in........I don't, my flatmate is very loud!) and she told 'S' I was helping her 1/2 way, when I wasn't, I was going virtually the whole distance, and flatmate said she'd say something other than explaining that I didn't want to seem like I was in her face by walking the whole way and bumping into her.

She's being a pain at the moment, she likes taking all the credit and making herself good, but in doing that, she'd make me look ungentlemanly by saying I only carried her bags 1/2 way, and I pride myself on being a gentleman.

I dunno, maybe that rant is silly, but it's how I feel.

rose07

Tiff wrote:

:hello: Hi everyone - hope this Sunday morning finds you well. At least we all seem to have survived Friday the 13th!:eek:
I'm dreading Halloween - firstly, around 14,000 children banging on my door, dressed in the nastiest things they can find, demanding sweets or money,(so I'll have to mortgage my other kidney to afford them ), dressed as every horror character ever created.
My DS will be out with his own friends and as they're all new college performing arts students, they are bound to look like extras from the Hammer House of Horror films! Not only that,but at the start of the day I'll get up and be forced to look in the mirror!!!:eek: :rotfl: Oh and we must not forget all the fireworks that will be let off between now and the middle of January - it's like the Blitz all over again -and no,:rolleyes: I wasn't around at that time!:p
Last year, I handed out to a few trick or treaters but when it hit 6.30pm, I stopped answering the door. Knocking kept on though. See, the little devils (no pun intended) communicate with each other, scouting out and informing the rest of them about where the sweets and money came from!
I answered the door saying 'I'm sorry, I've got nothing left - there were gangs of you earlier on - would you like a piece of fruit?'
You should have seen the looks on their faces - FRUIT?!!! It was like I'd tried to poison them!:rotfl:
Anyway - more later - tired Tiffster Posting re. guided meditation as requested and Bunnie - I haven't forgotten about the benefits advice either.
Thanks to Rose for your kind words angel - we are privileged to be among such kind souls aren't we?;) Thanks guys,
Much love,
Tiff xxx

:rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:

are there really that many kids in your area, im very lucky living on a hill so no need for kiddies, lol.

nice to see you
yeah we are all priviledged here, such a lovely community and friends. your my angel too. kind words are a must, lol.
xxx

look at this

When a new day begins, dare to smile gratefully.
When there is darkness, dare to be the first to shine a light.
When there is injustice, dare to be the first to condemn it.
When something seems difficult, dare to do it anyway.
When life seems to beat you down, dare to fight back.
When there seems to be no hope, dare to find some.
When you're feeling tired, dare to keep going.
When times are tough, dare to be tougher.
When love hurts you, dare to love again.
When someone is hurting, dare to help them heal.
When another is lost, dare to help them find the way.
When a friend falls, dare to be the first to extend a hand.
When you cross paths with another, dare to make them smile.
When you feel great, dare to help someone else feel great too.
When the day has ended, dare to feel as you've done your best.
Dare to be the best you can At all times, Dare to be!

and this one too.

When one door closes another one opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.
Alexander Graham Bell

and another

Enjoy your own life without comparing it with that of another.
Marquis de Condorcet[/

and another ..... (ooo its like count down)

I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination.
Jimmy Dean

For there is no friend like a sister
In calm or stormy weather;
To cheer one on the tedious way,
To fetch one if one goes astray,
To lift one if one totters down
To strengthen whilst one stands.
Christina Rosetti

ok think that will do now,

some more things to read, lol.

oh carp its monday tomorrow

xxx

rose07

CCStar wrote:

Hi everyone:)

My day yesterday

Went for a drive yesterday. It was really sunny and pretty warm for mid October.

The traffic was busy and it makes me jumpy. There are some idiots out there. We had an minor accident on holiday in 1983 and ever since I have been a jumpy passenger.

We test drove a car yesterday which was nice. Need to think it over. My mum is contributing a certain amount. She bought my son a new car, so only fair I get something too:)

Went to a distillery and had lots of whisky - we bought a bottle for Christmas. They were taking about whisky to invest. I might post on another board asking about that.

When we got home the people behind were having a dinner party. Normally, I don't worry but they are the ones with the chavvy 20something aged psycho 'children'. They made some noise when they went out into the courtyard but it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be but given their past behaviour, I don't trust them, so couldn't relax till 4am.

I put a whole chicken in the slow cooker and the meat just fell off. Had fun sieving out all the grotty bits but it made a yummy satay thai curry. Had some free sample pilau rice with it. It was great. Shall have a chicken and mushroom casserole tomorrow. Son eats with us Monday and Tuesday, so like to do nice food for him.

We saved heaps yesterday. We made cheese olive rolls, had some Lidl shortbread (the best!), and low fat crisps for our packed lunch that we ate in the distillery car park. We still had the taste of whisky in our mouth, so the shortbread was extra yummy in the highland air.

We tried to eat in our fav Italian restaurant but it was full, so we got some chicken kebabs from a takeaway and cobbled something together at home with it.

Not eating out paid for the petrol.

CCStar, very busy day, which is great, good o be busy and doing things.

I have, tidied, hoovered, more tidying, clened surcaces, taken the baby for a walk, done the shopping, changed my bed (as i was starting to stink :rotfl: ),and tidied away clothes (as they were everywhere ).

Can you tell im tring to keep myself busy and mind busy too. (dont want this week to come, maybe if i dont wake up tomorrow i can just sleep till friday. :rotfl:

rose07

Sazbo wrote:

Morning Tiffster! :wave: Awww thanks for your kind words, but it's just good chatting with you guys - you're such a nice bunch of people :A

Well there's a bit of creaking in Saz World this morning... I'm a bit stiff after yoga yesterday!! But apart from that not too bad. Think I need another cup of tea. I was so chuffed yesterday because after a year of trying I finally managed to make my first ever loaf of sourdough bread! :j All with the help of folk on the OS board - so I had to post on there to let them know. LOL you must think I'm weird getting so excited over bread, but... well, y'know, little things.....!


Have a good day Tiff, and all you good folk. Sazxx

Hi Saz x

Thanks for keeping me calm last night, lol
all those noises and things, (thuder bolt and lighting, very very frightening, galilayo, Im listening to queen, by da way, Meeeeeeeeee, :rotfl: ooo great guitar solo, du bu du ba :rotfl: )

where was i oh yeah bread, well done you on making bread, :T :T :T , i have to admit i have wanted to make that but never quie got of my a**, so well done, was it tasty?

got much planned this week, and how are things going for you?

take care
xxx

rose07

Bunnie1982 wrote:

Feeling a bit lonely today, my OH is out for the day and I am stuck in the house on my own with my lonely thoughts.

make the most of it....

as CCStar says pamper yourself

have a nice bath, get some choccie in, put up your feet, and watch a dvd, with some hot choc, a blanket and a bar of choc,

orrr

you could always walk around naked? :rotfl:

soz im in a funny mood today, bit ARRRGHHHH, OOOOOO, and RRRAAAAAA

hope you are ok hun, and if you get too lonely just post like mad

xxxxxxx