depression

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

Okay, will try not to plan and let it go naturally........gonna chew flatmate's ear and see if get some hints about her

That's a good plan, I reckon. Er... I mean not having a plan!

feelinggood_2

Its really slow for me tonight.
I'm awful for feeling emotions for people.
Oh, I've got this random thing. I keep bursting into tears when I'm eating my lunch. Its only lunch, no other meal. And its only when watching the news. Not even sad stories, today it was about music of black origin. Whats up with that?

rose07

Sazbo wrote:

Jeez this site is slow tonight - it's like wading through treacle. Or maybe it's just me LOL :rotfl:

thanks saz

that made me chuckle :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:

ok im going to do a bit of a big post. . . . . (stand well back, :rotfl: )
im doing 4 things at once at the mo, so im getting a bit slow,

and miroslav, you will be fine. take it one step at a time and in your stride.
wish you much love and hope it goes well.

xxx

rose07

feelinggood wrote:

Its really slow for me tonight.
I'm awful for feeling emotions for people.
Oh, I've got this random thing. I keep bursting into tears when I'm eating my lunch. Its only lunch, no other meal. And its only when watching the news. Not even sad stories, today it was about music of black origin. Whats up with that?

that happens to me sometimes too, but i dunno why either. hhmm
maybe its thinking. x

Miroslav

Oh.........was going to chat to flatmate, but she's on phone to another 'friend'.......one i'm not keen on, cos she's mean (Says to my flatmate things like "I don't want to be seen with you, you're like a prostitute" and "I'm lowering myself spending time with you")

Will prob be on phone for a couple of hours, so gotta think of all Q's I am to ask.

Hope everyone's day goes well tomorrow

feelinggood_2

Where's everyone gone?

flis21

Hi All, Thanks for your kind messages and pms. Nothing stops the pain but it is comforting knowing people are thinking of you. Hubby has suggested getting another hamster, but don't think I want to replace her. She had such a character, getting another hasmter would not be the same.

This sort of thing starts me questioning everything, life and the point of it mostly! I did do lots for her, but could I have done more? Could I have given her more treats? Bought her more toys? I just hope that she had the happiest life I could give her.

Her name was Fifi, aka Little Miss Fifi, aka Fifi Trixibell (or Fifi trixitrouble when she was up to mischief!)

Have resisted the drink, just had 2 which is not too bad. Have stopped crying now, but just feel this overwhelming sense of sadness.

Horasio

rose07 wrote:

Hey CCStar

how you doing?
i dont like to see anyone feel like they are being picked on and upset.

this thread is not for that.

i am glad we have sorted things out as everyone here is part of a team, and if one person gets upset or one part of us falls away well,. . . . its like a necklace full of beads and one of the beads dissappearing, withhout all the beads it would not be complete, (am i making any sense here, i admit i have funny logic. lol)

and i wouldnt have thought that, ... actually no i know tiff wouldnt have wanted to upset you in any way, as i know she values you all like i do. x

there are some people that think its great to wind people up, we are not here for that.

and i understand you may feel threatened if you feel like you are being ganged up on, but we are not against you we are with you.
does this all come from a childhood experience?,

i have quite bad paranoia around this time of year and it makes me feel all kinds and see all kinds a things

no offence meant and we are all here together
take care
x

Yes I am sensitive to feeling ganged up on and isolated due to how I was treated as a child by my peers. I was upset when I felt you were judging my parenting skills. I didn't feel I was the best mother due to my illness when my son was younger. I did my best and my mother was a great help.

Our son and I got closer, so felt I was doing something right at long last. When he got older then became distant. We sometimes get on but feel pushed away by him, which really upsets me. I don't mind him growing up, it is our job to help him but we had such a laugh, I feel I have lost a friend. I am glad he has friends too but don't like the way he treats us, like garbage.

My husband is very strange. He says he cares but goes distant on me too. I don't like people going cool on me for no real reason and it hurts. I feel I am wrong, in the wrong mood. I avoid my husband, to avoid the rejecting 'face'

feelinggood_2

flis21 wrote:

Hi All, Thanks for your kind messages and pms. Nothing stops the pain but it is comforting knowing people are thinking of you. Hubby has suggested getting another hamster, but don't think I want to replace her. She had such a character, getting another hasmter would not be the same.

This sort of thing starts me questioning everything, life and the point of it mostly! I did do lots for her, but could I have done more? Could I have given her more treats? Bought her more toys? I just hope that she had the happiest life I could give her.

Her name was Fifi, aka Little Miss Fifi, aka Fifi Trixibell (or Fifi trixitrouble when she was up to mischief!)

Have resisted the drink, just had 2 which is not too bad. Have stopped crying now, but just feel this overwhelming sense of sadness.

I felt the same when each one of my hamsters died - I blamed myself. Took a while to realise that I gave them the best life - I really loved them, and thats what they want. Sounds like you gave your hamster such a wonderful time - they do love thier balls don't they! And I'm sure they love being talked to, you can sorta see it in thier eyes I think.
You could always consider getting a different type of pet? That way, you won't feel like you are replacing her - a different pet might be easier to adjust to than a new hamster. I had my first 5 hamsters in a row, got each one a week or so after the other one died. They were very different, but I loved them all the same. It isn't replacing her - the great thing about love is that you never have to take it away from someone to give it to someone else - we've got a never ending supply.
Well done on stopping drinking, that must have taken an awful lot of strength, I'm very proud of you.
xxx

feelinggood_2

CCStar wrote:

My husband is very strange. He says he cares but goes distant on me too. I don't like people going cool on me for no real reason and it hurts. I feel I am wrong, in the wrong mood. I avoid my husband, to avoid the rejecting 'face'

It is very sad the power alot of men seem to have over us - they can make us feel awful with a single glance.
I'm sorry you felt ganged up on, that must have really hurt. Hope things are okay now.
Hows things in general?