depression

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I had a quick look through the boards last night and as well as her comment on 'what is acceptable' board, there was a posting from Martin outlining what could be done on this thread. I'll have a look later - see if I can find it again.
Tiff x

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gillette147 wrote:

Hello everybody xx (for the girls),

I've had a hectic morning getting ready to go to germany. I've got 10mins before taxi comes. I feel alot better today. You lot and a friend have realy brought me back to normal-ish.
I wish i could read the tons of stuff you've all posted in the last 12 hrs - you all must be the gobbiest members - lol.

I will look when i get back (could take a few hours by then).

Bye xx
(for the girls - look just take it as a handshake/slap on the back for the lads)

Hi Gil - right back at ya!
have a safe trip and we'll all catch up soon. I lived in West Germany as it was known then for a while and loved it. Learned more German there than i did at school in 2 years! :rolleyes: So...
Aufwiedersehen Pet! - corny I know, but I couldn't resist it!:rotfl:
Have a good time.
Tiff.

Sugar_Coated_Owl

Hello all :hello: how are you all doing?

:grouphug:

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flis21 wrote:

Hi All,

Well you were right. Posted on here that everything was good and I was feeling fine, then something !!!!!! happens! My hamster has died today. She was 2 years and 8 months old, which I know is really old for a hamster, but it still hurts like hell. We got her to keep me company when oh was at work, as he works shifts and was often away in the evenings or at the weekends. I spent hours talking to her and playing with her, used to build her little assult courses and let her run round in her ball for ages, which she loved.

I know some of you will think I am silly being that upset about a hamster, but I was so close to her and I loved her a lot. Sorry to go on, but I have tears streaming down my face. I feel like getting really drunk, but don't want to go into work with a hangover tomorrow, would not look good when I have only been there 1 week!! Think I will have to take a sleeping tablet tonight tho, otherwise no way I am getting to sleep.

Sorry to dump on you all.

Ooh Flis - I'm sorry hun. I don't think you're being silly - pets give unconditional love and sometimes there's nothing more wonderful than having a hug with something that doesn't need explanations. They even take animals into long stay hospitals now as part of therapy - there are even charities for it. Thinking of you angel.
Tiff x

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CCStar wrote:

Who is having a hysterectomy? I had one years ago, so if you are worried or want to ask questions, feel free.

I had my ovaries out last year, as having my hysterectomy cured most of my problems, I should have had it all out the first time.

I don't regret it, if it needs removing, you will feel much better afterwards.

Hi CC - they're trying to get the Tiffster "fixed"! :eek: :rotfl:
Have heard good and bad but don't really know what to expect and that's probably a good thing for now. I guess i won't know much until late Wednesday afternoon. Thanks for the kind offer CC - will get back to you and Rosie & The Gang afterwards.
I just can't believe I have to go to the maternity hospital!?!:rotfl: That's like taking a nun poledancing!!! :rolleyes: Oh no... bad comparison there - hope you weren't listening God - no offence:o
Hope you're well.
Tiff xxx

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rose07 wrote:

ah ha, there you are, had to go back a few pages to find this, (been meaning to reply to this all night but been busy) x
so your turn, how you doing?
Hi Rose - good to hear from you angel:T

thanks needed that telling off, phew. lol. you know how to do it dont ya.
should i be telling you off for anything?
I wouldn't tell you off hun - you know I'm softer than a duck's bum!:D I just wanted to stop you hurting inside and out.

i want to thank you for your post as it was prob the best thing i have seen all day to give me some inspiration, ok will explain.
my day today has been manic, up at 5am, have had barely any sleep in 3 days, but i managed to get up. was on the location by 7am, set up by 8am, then waited for 6 hours, was very hard work as i had me thoughts and the colour purple book (great book that, sad tho, but inspirational kinda read).
i am aching like anything now, as i was on me feet for the time, and my knees feel llike jelly and back stiff, etc..., plus did i mention i have tonsilitis and banging headache. lol
anyway the 6 hours finished and i went into town as i felt awful , and like i had done a awful job, and i needed some therapy, so got some new clothes for work. while i was out got a phone call from a councellor saying that there is now a slot free on thursdays at 3pm, would i want it, i didnt know because of work. i was thinking about it all the way home, i said i would ring back as i dont like talking in public, i got home and didnt feel great quite low, and just didnt want to do anything, didnt want to ring my boss and tell him as i was soo scared/terrified at what to say(went round in circles for a while), and he doesnt even know me yet. . then i read your post and it was like a pin in me bum, i jump up, went downstairs rang me boss (before i have even started work) asked him if i could have thursdays off, told him why, he said of course, then told me how he was looking forward to me starting tomorrow and what to expect.:D
Ooooh Rosie - that's amazing angel - you sooo did the right thing. You could have said you have a medical appointment for treatment every Thursday afternoon and that would have been good enough - they can't force you to divulge your medical history. BUT I think it's better because you faced it head on, cleared the air and had a really positive response - 'she who dares...' etc.


but just wanna say thanks, think if it wasnt for that pin up the bum i wouldnt have got up and thought right i need to sort this out. i know this is going to sound cheesy but it really helps to have this thread, it is nice to know people are thinking of you and sending vibes to help you when they know you are going through something. xxx

so that my day today, phew its been a busy one. lol

ok back to the post at hand. . .
all the dates are getting closer tiff think i am just having a severe AARRRGGHHHHH moment. lol . am i ok??? thats a toughy, yes, no , maybe, i dont really know, , you do ask some tough questions, think i am soo running on adrenaline at the mo, i wouldnt know if i was ok or not be honest when i manage to STOP, will let you know. lol.
arh thanks for the hug, (see you know what makes me bit better )
triggers are a nuinsance, darn things. . . it was a major trigger on saturday night with that guy, my mates had to pull me away then shield me. i was sooo upset, i keep thinking about the night it happened 3 years ago, and keep thinking i shouldnt dwell on things, just get over it, but i cant, it hurts too much, and i cant face it alone. To think 4 guys would do that to someone, it doesnt make sense in me head, its truly f**ked up.
oh im getting angry and upset now lol
You know me and that I can relate angel. I think that's half the problem is trying to make sense of it all - a reason for it. It's good that you're busy angel and that you treated yourself after a hard day's slog. Triggers can become memories that can be controlled with professional help.

why do people do these things? i had to go through in and out of hospital for weeks, i have nightmares, i am hurting, i am scared, i cant eat, cant sleep, and im just . . . . . na gonna stop typing or i will make you all depressed. lol (we all have it already, :rotfl: ). think you all get the jist anyway, your bright people.
I'm sure we all understand angel - we've all had our wellies on!;) I've been there too but what's more important, is that I'm here now.

just scrolled up to read those positives again, and breathe, phew,
yes i stood up to him and fought back and yeah i have great friends, as i say they are very protective of me. one of them goes away weds tho, and im gonna miss her like i miss my baby when not with her.

and yeah negatives too. i dont know why self harm, and your totally right tiff , why do what others have, i dunno, i dont have the answer to this one as i have never found the answer. one of my mates hung himself and i never could understand it. so i dunno.
I just don't want to think of you hurting angel.

i would never think you would preach at me, as i know you understand and have prob been through or are still going through what i am. but i am stubborn in the being kind to myself part tiff (tho i do have some choccie somewhere ).
Thank you for knowing me hun - I think we've got each other well figured out. It's good to know you're not the only one who's been through different things. I appreciate the time you give to me and others on here hun. You know me - I wouldn't hurt ANYONE in ANY way. I'm really not that kind of person. I was posting for a few hours last night and I was exhausted. That poster slamming the depression thread really fired me up, just a few hours after being put down on another board and I was really hurt and angry. By the time I got home to this thread, and I saw what a busy weekend everyone had, I wanted to post in reply - probably doing it in Russian in the end!:rotfl:

anyway back to the being fine and positive, i have a new job tomorrow, woo hoo. if ever a time i need positive vibes and lotsa hugs its now.
:grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

dreading it, i am bound to stuff it up. i stuff everythign else up, darn it, positive, positive, positive.

what is guided meditation tiff?
Will tell all tomorrow - I know I said today but I had the day from hell and I'm so tired.

anyway as i say thanks for the post as it gave me a bit of a kick before.
right where is this tonyrobin thread thingy?
It was on the freebie board. I got a nice apology from the person.

we a good team here, im your getting any slack give me a shout and i can back you up, i know you are a good tiff,
i hope you are ok?
You really are a sweetheart Tbh - I'm very low tonight. The shorter my sentences, the lower I feel as a rule of thumb.

will be thinking of you and everyone tomorrow,
oh jees, i have typed too much, oh no i might get told off.....
right better be offski,
take care tiff
hope you ok,
Thanks hun.

i expect a nice post within the next to days of how you are doing?
i hope the hysterectomy thingy goes ok? but why it at a maternity hospital? hhmm tiff is there something your not telling me,
No Rosie, I am not the victim of another Immaculate Conception! No more breeding for the Tiffster. NOT PREGNANT!!! Apparently, it's at the Maternity Hospital because that's where they've put all the gynae surgeons. It is on the same site as the main hospital. Maybe it's a good thing - is it because if you go there and hear the little lambs crying (how do they get sooo loud? ), pooping green stuff and being sick, as well as the shouts of women in labour, then you'll be easily convinced to have the op?!

any more appointments coming your way?
well just let us know
take care huni
much love
xxx

ps: can you teach me some geneology (is that how you spell it?) sometime?, im realli interested in this and well done on getting books published, what were they called? thats a great achievement tiff, :T :T :T
xxx
My pleasure angel. i've had poetry published in books not whole books of my own.

soz its very long x

Rosie - good luck for tomorrow hun! You go and have the time of your life. I hope you'll be very happy there. You'll be fine!
Much Love to you and the rest of the gang,:)
Tiff
xxx

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CCStar wrote:

I dont understand what this is meant to mean.

I do hope I am not being ganged up on. Rose and I sorted it ages ago and don't want to get involved with a third party about it. I stated my opinion about what was said to me, it was not an attack and she seemed to be OK with it. I don't like people, saying they will set others on others. It is a form of ganging up and I don't agree with it.

I am glad to give a sympathetic ear to people and stand up for people whom I feel have been attacked, there was someone earlier who attacked another member and basically dissed this thread. Perhaps you could use your energies for dealing with her. She posted as a wind up we think. It was certainly a trigger for a lot of people.

I have issues with feeling ganged up on and won't post here again and take appropriate action, if I feel I am.

:hello: Hi CC I share your principles angel - I would never gang up on anyone - I was bullied too and know what it feels like. I think it was a misunderstanding- probably due to me using 2 short words - "Too right x".

ROSE QUOTE: no fighting/upsetting people . . . . or i will have to get tiff here with me.
TIFF QUOTE: You called? Who needs a Tiff letter? Was forced to get my pen out today and it's still sharp!)
Rose meant it humourously to show you she cared about you and everyone hun and I was being - or trying - to be funny back to her.

ROSE QUOTE :you ok now CCStar?
CCStar i am soz i brought up your DS now. lol. i have great respect for parents/adults as us kids/adults can be a right handful, and i want you to know, that whatever your DS is like and why he is like that, he is an adult and is responsible for himself.

TIFF QUOTE:CC, I'm sure you've been the best mother you could be. It not always a reflection on a parent as to how their 'child' behaves. Some people are just unlucky with how things turn out. You give good advice and we care about you.

ROSE QUOTE:anyway dont woz
we all here to talk and get things out and hopefully make things better.
x

TIFF QUOTE: Too right! x

I wrote the parts of you being a good mother, giving good advice and that I cared about you as reassurance to you that you are valued.
The 'too right! x' part was in reference to Rose's quote of we are all here to talk etc and make things better. I meant that this is what this board has been all about - helping, advising, supporting and caring.

I'm sorry you took it out of context CC. I hope you know me better than that hun - i've only ever said good things about you and I have never talked to Rose or anyone in a PM about another poster. Don't believe in b!tch!ne$$. I really hope this clears this misunderstanding up. Can you imagine how upset I was reading what you thought of me and your warning?
Never mind angel - hopefully I've explained more clearly what I intended - I was a very tired Tiff and posting for a couple of hours, hence just the 2 words. Sorry if that misled you.
On the bright side, I hope you know now what I think of you and that Tiff really isn't a bad old thing. Take care angel. Tiff xxx

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razorbladekisses wrote:

Hello all :hello: how are you all doing?

:grouphug:

Hey you! How are you hun? Hoping all is well.
Tiff
x

Horasio

Tiff wrote:

:hello: Hi CC I share your principles angel - I would never gang up on anyone - I was bullied too and know what it feels like. I think it was a misunderstanding- probably due to me using 2 short words - "Too right x".

ROSE QUOTE: no fighting/upsetting people . . . . or i will have to get tiff here with me.
TIFF QUOTE: You called? Who needs a Tiff letter? Was forced to get my pen out today and it's still sharp!)
Rose meant it humourously to show you she cared about you and everyone hun and I was being - or trying - to be funny back to her.

ROSE QUOTE :you ok now CCStar?
CCStar i am soz i brought up your DS now. lol. i have great respect for parents/adults as us kids/adults can be a right handful, and i want you to know, that whatever your DS is like and why he is like that, he is an adult and is responsible for himself.

TIFF QUOTE:CC, I'm sure you've been the best mother you could be. It not always a reflection on a parent as to how their 'child' behaves. Some people are just unlucky with how things turn out. You give good advice and we care about you.

ROSE QUOTE:anyway dont woz
we all here to talk and get things out and hopefully make things better.
x

TIFF QUOTE: Too right! x

I wrote the parts of you being a good mother, giving good advice and that I cared about you as reassurance to you that you are valued.
The 'too right! x' part was in reference to Rose's quote of we are all here to talk etc and make things better. I meant that this is what this board has been all about - helping, advising, supporting and caring.

I'm sorry you took it out of context CC. I hope you know me better than that hun - i've only ever said good things about you and I have never talked to Rose or anyone in a PM about another poster. Don't believe in b!tch!ne$$. I really hope this clears this misunderstanding up. Can you imagine how upset I was reading what you thought of me and your warning?
Never mind angel - hopefully I've explained more clearly what I intended - I was a very tired Tiff and posting for a couple of hours, hence just the 2 words. Sorry if that misled you.
On the bright side, I hope you know now what I think of you and that Tiff really isn't a bad old thing. Take care angel. Tiff xxx

Thank you for your reassurance. I haven't been on this thread for long and get wary if I feel attacked, due to my screwed up past. It is no reflection on you or Rose.

Horasio

Tiff wrote:

Hi CC - they're trying to get the Tiffster "fixed"! :eek: :rotfl:
Have heard good and bad but don't really know what to expect and that's probably a good thing for now. I guess i won't know much until late Wednesday afternoon. Thanks for the kind offer CC - will get back to you and Rosie & The Gang afterwards.
I just can't believe I have to go to the maternity hospital!?!:rotfl: That's like taking a nun poledancing!!! :rolleyes: Oh no... bad comparison there - hope you weren't listening God - no offence:o
Hope you're well.
Tiff xxx

As I have been cut open twice, they were both different in how long and how much discomfort I had. I should have had my ovaries with the womb as I had severe endometriosis which made my innards a real mess 12 years later! (sorry to be so gory).

It was the excess oestrogen that gave me my hormone imbalance and endometriosis which wasted my youth.

It does seem odd you going to a maternity hospital. Maybe because it is female related, they put the gynae department there too.