depression

feelinggood_2

Miroslav - well done on going to the dentist! I really should go, one of my fillings has fallen out and tooth really hurts, but I don't like my dentist down here. My other one, he was my dentist for 18 years, my only dentist. He was brilliant Shame he is 200 miles away. Altho he has patients as far away as me - people don't tend to leave him, hes so fab! Really great that your thinking about what you want to do, and looking positively to the future. Try and keep your chin up, you never know, things might be alright. And if things don't work out the way you want, remember that it is NO reflection on you - you are a wonderful guy!

Bunnie - sorry you had a hard time on Saturday, I'm the same with crowds - I get really paranoid. Well done for going tho, thats a big achievement! Its great that your parents are starting to understand, do you find it easy to talk to them?

CCStar - glad your cold is getting better, its amazing how miserable they can make you feel isn't it? Make sure you put your feet up lots I dreamt about you in a round-about way last night - your SN was plastered all over loads of shops. How odd!

muffin502

LizEstelle wrote:

Well, I've said all I have to say on the subject. As predicted, it has stirred up those who are keen to be stirred.

I think my point was very accurate but, quite frankly, am not bothered too much about matters one way or the other.

Why did you bother posting your original post all all then? All you have done is upset people on this forum who are merely supporting each other through a horrible, debilitating illness. Your pettiness is astounding.

Horasio

feelinggood wrote:

I've not tried prozac before, but I am considering it now. I've been on seroxat a couple of times - every time I was SH'ing alot whilst on it, and getting a lot of suicidal thoughts (and a few minor attempts). Citalopram really messed with me, didn't know if I was coming or going, don't remember that much. Remember walking to the doctors one day (the only time I ever left the house) and I was standing on the kerb of busy road thinking I could throw myself under a lorry or something. I'm still thinking about SH'ing occasionally, and thinking about suicide, but its managable. I don't want to go back on meds if its going to make me worse.

I married OH for all the wrong reasons. He does love me, he just can't really cope with me like this. He says I shouldn't feel guilty, but how can I not when I know my depression makes him miserable?

Still feeling miserable, I'm missing my friend

Arggh, a husband who can't cope with you when you feel low. Mine is the same. What do they want from us? I feel my husband wants a trophy wife. He says I am good looking and proud of me. I am a person tho, not a doll!

How much can they love us if they can't handle our lows. I know it must be frustrating for them but does he know how he makes you feel when you need him and he lets you down in this way? It cause most of our rows tbh!

It must be awful leaving a close friend and moving 200 miles. Do you miss much or anyone else? What is your current area like? If you like your dentist so much, why don't you still see them and use it as an excuse to go home twice a year:)

I am used to moving around, so moving up to Scotland from southern England was no hardship for me, as I have had difficulties keeping friends (can make them easiliy enough when I feel good) with my hormonal mood swings and my experiences at school. I feel people only like me when I feel good and go off me when I feel low, or I feel if I do well, they get moody on me. So I withdraw when I feel low or if I tell them, they aren't sympathetic or even tease/become nasty.

Horasio

feelinggood wrote:

Miroslav - well done on going to the dentist! I really should go, one of my fillings has fallen out and tooth really hurts, but I don't like my dentist down here. My other one, he was my dentist for 18 years, my only dentist. He was brilliant Shame he is 200 miles away. Altho he has patients as far away as me - people don't tend to leave him, hes so fab! Really great that your thinking about what you want to do, and looking positively to the future. Try and keep your chin up, you never know, things might be alright. And if things don't work out the way you want, remember that it is NO reflection on you - you are a wonderful guy!

Bunnie - sorry you had a hard time on Saturday, I'm the same with crowds - I get really paranoid. Well done for going tho, thats a big achievement! Its great that your parents are starting to understand, do you find it easy to talk to them?

CCStar - glad your cold is getting better, its amazing how miserable they can make you feel isn't it? Make sure you put your feet up lots I dreamt about you in a round-about way last night - your SN was plastered all over loads of shops. How odd!

I had a dream about ice cream. I wanted to read the list of ingredients on the side of an ice cream carton in a restaurant and a foreign waitress was nasty and wouldn't let me.

I am fussy about my food and now have a thing about hydrogenated fats/E471 which is in ice cream, bread, coffee mate etc. I get very fussy about food when I feel low or upset and can't eat. I hardly ate last week.

Horasio

muffin502 wrote:

Why did you bother posting your original post all all then? All you have done is upset people on this forum who are merely supporting each other through a horrible, debilitating illness. Your pettiness is astounding.

I fully agree!

Welcome to the site:)

gillette147

Hello everybody xx (for the girls),

I've had a hectic morning getting ready to go to germany. I've got 10mins before taxi comes. I feel alot better today. You lot and a friend have realy brought me back to normal-ish.
I wish i could read the tons of stuff you've all posted in the last 12 hrs - you all must be the gobbiest members - lol.

I will look when i get back (could take a few hours by then).

Bye xx
(for the girls - look just take it as a handshake/slap on the back for the lads)

feelinggood_2

CCStar wrote:

Arggh, a husband who can't cope with you when you feel low. Mine is the same. What do they want from us? I feel my husband wants a trophy wife. He says I am good looking and proud of me. I am a person tho, not a doll!

How much can they love us if they can't handle our lows. I know it must be frustrating for them but does he know how he makes you feel when you need him and he lets you down in this way? It cause most of our rows tbh!

It must be awful leaving a close friend and moving 200 miles. Do you miss much or anyone else? What is your current area like? If you like your dentist so much, why don't you still see them and use it as an excuse to go home twice a year:)

I am used to moving around, so moving up to Scotland from southern England was no hardship for me, as I have had difficulties keeping friends (can make them easiliy enough when I feel good) with my hormonal mood swings and my experiences at school. I feel people only like me when I feel good and go off me when I feel low, or I feel if I do well, they get moody on me. So I withdraw when I feel low or if I tell them, they aren't sympathetic or even tease/become nasty.

I don't have an real life friends, I can make them too, but can't make them last. I don't know if I sabotage them on purpose or what.

I've coped fine with the move really - was glad to get as far away as possible from where I grew up - all the memories, the rape and all that. I miss my parents, but I talk to my mum on the phone when I'm well.

I prefer it down here to be honest, I wasn't that happy back up north. Down here till atleast May, no idea where after that. I'd rather not go back home, I'd be tempted to try abroad for a few years

My friend isn't a 'real life' freind, just an online one. Totally innappropriate and all that, but I like thim :-/

feelinggood_2

gillette147 wrote:

Hello everybody xx (for the girls),

I've had a hectic morning getting ready to go to germany. I've got 10mins before taxi comes. I feel alot better today. You lot and a friend have realy brought me back to normal-ish.
I wish i could read the tons of stuff you've all posted in the last 12 hrs - you all must be the gobbiest members - lol.

I will look when i get back (could take a few hours by then).

Bye xx
(for the girls - look just take it as a handshake/slap on the back for the lads)

Hope you have a good time handsome badger
Don't work too hard!

Miroslav

CCStar wrote:

Well done for registering with a dentist and for what you have acheived.:T

If she cancels, it is not the end. I am sure you can rearrange. If it is meant to be it will happen!

I know what you say is true, but it means waiting again, and..........:o I don't think my heart can take it

24 hours to go..............unless she chickens out.............she will, watch

Miroslav

feelinggood wrote:

Miroslav - well done on going to the dentist! I really should go, one of my fillings has fallen out and tooth really hurts, but I don't like my dentist down here. My other one, he was my dentist for 18 years, my only dentist. He was brilliant Shame he is 200 miles away. Altho he has patients as far away as me - people don't tend to leave him, hes so fab! Really great that your thinking about what you want to do, and looking positively to the future. Try and keep your chin up, you never know, things might be alright. And if things don't work out the way you want, remember that it is NO reflection on you - you are a wonderful guy!

Never had a really nice dentist, but this one seems the best i've had, on 1st impressions. He's either German, Austrian or somewhere around there

Try and see if you can get another dentist?

I'm only looking positively as i've been given a bit of hope. As soon as it goes wrong, i'll fall again

Sad thing is, I'll see it as a reflection on me, as I never get on with people, so it must be something to do with me