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LittleBoots

Hiya

Was wondering where you were!! Glad you had such a lovely time
R u still seeing as much of the ex? I guess its good that you know its not good for you...
I also plan to create a capsule wardrobe! Gok makes it look easy but I'm pretty useless at it.
I think maybe when the Harp stuff takes off things will come together a bit more, maybe you wont feel so anxious?
Heres to a happy March xxx

Wordsmith

little_h wrote: »

I have been seeing him more through Feb and been busy, and feel out of control again. Not his fault, but something about being around him makes me lose track of what I want and am working towards

So, what does this tell you?

I'm glad you had a good weekend. Above quote excepted, you still seem very focused and know what to aim for. I hope you manage to relax for the rest of the week and enjoy your time with your dog.

little_h_2

Thanks I know what the above says. I have talked about it lots with my counsellor (and my mum!) and just can't find the strength to resolve it one way or another just yet, which makes me feel very weak among many other things.

Part of me really wants him to get through it all and sort himself out, but I know that means he really has to change in a very fundamental way, and I am honestly not sure whether this will happen.

I am trying not to put pressure on myself about it, so that I don't rush, but am getting fed up of it as I just want to move on with my life now. My counsellor mentioned that sometimes people get to the point where they have had enough and they are able to make a decision. Hopefully this will happen soon :rotfl:

little_h_2

well, a lovely quiet day. I have done not much bar an hour's harp and half an hour's tidying up. however I have paid all my c.c bills. I had lunch and tea from the freezer so won't need to do any food shopping for a while now.

I am off to sunny Manchester on Friday morning to see my granny and catch up with some friends. So the stress levels are rising again as I only have a couple of days left out of my whole week and a day off. Again I seem to have planned a bit too much so won't get everything done that I had hoped. Never mind, I will have seen lots of my family and will carry the strength that this brings for a while.

My March weekends are all filled with harp stuff (apart from this weekend) so I really need to have at least one busy day out of today and tomorrow so I am on top of everything at home. holidays are meant to reduce stress not add to it :rotfl:

little_h_2

evening all. a good day with some bad bits today.

I had a lazy morning which included a nice man arriving from the harp place to sort out a problem which popped up since the service on Monday - we aren't sure how it happened but he wasn't far away today so came round. It would have caused a bit of bother otherwise so I am glad it's done.

I did an hour's harp this morning, had a long chat with one of my friends, haven't spoken to her in ages so it was nice to catch up

This afternoon I went into town, basically to get my jeans from Gap and hunt around for a couple of other bits so I feel a bit less scruffy for the weekend.

Gap was a bit of a disaster, the denim promotion had ended and they still didn't have the size I wanted in the colour I wanted. I bought some others but they weren't quite right really. Once I went back to Oasis I found something much better, so will need to take the others back to Gap.

Buying the jeans was fine, plus a top I had seen on Monday. But I bought lots of other stuff too, which I can't afford and am not sure I really need. I still haven't done my wardrobe sort out so it was pretty stupid spending out in this way.

To add insult to injury, I decided to look for some decent boots. Surprise surprise, the cheapy ones I bought in Sainsburys in January are looking shabby already. I only have those or a pair of plain black sensible flats for work. I found some lovely boots, in fact I found 2 pairs. They were massively reduced and will work hard with my wardrobe, but I can't afford them without adding to my debt.

I haven't had a guilty shopping spree in a long, long time. I feel awful about it and need to really think about why it has happened, and what i am going to do with everything I have bought.

I had better go and do battle with Davina the jeans are a teeny bit snug but only a teeny bit, and will only look better as the weight comes off

choogirl

Hi little-h

I'm just popping by to say hello!

Your weekend sounded wonderful, nice and relaxing and time spent with Mum, I never get to spend any time with my Mum like that so I'm very envious.

I'm also guilty of trying to cram too much into limited time and nearly always end up failing to do everything on my list.
I don't know what to suggest re the shopping as it sounds as though you need the boots, could you maybe take a few of the other items back and just keep the things that you really need?
I've started allocating £40 each month for myself and DH in the clothes budget and I'm planning on saving it until theres something that I need or just save the money up each month for a guilt free splurge.

Enjoy Manchester and have a great weekend xx

little_h_2

morning all

well, I have dragged myself out of bed and am feeling a bit more raring to go this morning. I just need to tear myself away from Supernanny and the Good Wife otherwise the morning will be gone.

The dog has a huff on as his bed is in the wash *rolls eyes* but he will get over it

This morning I have decided to prioritise sorting out my music (got lots on loan from my teacher) and getting the housework done so that I am ready for going back to work next week.

I am off to Manchester first thing in the morning as I am going to the Imperial War Museum in the afternoon. I watched it being built years ago as I worked on the quays. It's one of my favourite places in the world, had lots of thinking time outside the office at lunch time. So I am really looking forward to going back. It will be strange, the last time I was there I was full of the joys as I was planning my first wedding.

I will pop in on my granny on the way back from the city to my friend's house. I am looking forward to seeing her so much! Haven't seen her since everything went pop last June. Was meant to go for her birthday just before Christmas but was too ill and didn't want to infect her!

I have a harp lesson this afternoon and Brownies this evening. I managed to bash the back of my hand, just over my knuckles, yesterday and now I have a cracking bruise which makes moving my fingers a little sore. So I will need to be careful with practising today.

I also need to do a Davina DVD - did Power of 3 on Tuesday and did Cardio Box from Three Thirty Minute workouts last night and both have been excellent.

Hopefully while I do some housework I can have a think about the shopping session from yesterday. If I have time I will look through my wardrobe. If not, it can wait until next weekend. I have 30 days on everything apart from the boots, which I will keep anyway.

So....best get to it :eek:

Wordsmith

Have a great weekend, Little_h. I hope you find your granny well. And enjoy your new clothes!

LittleBoots

Well done with the Davina DVD
I'm going to join the gym next week, dreading it!!
Have a lovely weekend x

Shoe_Gal

Sounds like you are doing really well, don't try to do too much though - resting is good too