Buffy Cracks the Egg Diary 2010

beanielou

N ot sure what to say but big huggles hun xxx

Buffythedebtslayer

Thanks guys,

went for my walk which was good, am trying to do more steps each day and that just means walking a little further each day (tried a tiny bit of running and didn't die so that is good.)

My sister is really !!!!ing me off. Mum has wanted a huge tv for the living room for ages and finally (fatefully) ours went in wrong and has been declared unfixable, so lets get one!

BUT my sister keeps coming up with all these reasons and suggestions and what if you don't like its. its a !!!!ing tv Mum has wanted one for AGES. she has done the research. she knows what she wants so bog off killjoy.

It makes me so mad that my sister doesn't even seem to react/realise that Mum is having all these tests. just families I know but given our recent past.

I could rant for ages but do feel better after my walk. I just want to do so much for my Mum and there seems to be so little time in my life. must get back to fly lady and get my life at work sorted.

am off to bed

see you tomorrow xxxxx

Shoe_Gal

:mad::mad::mad: to your sister!

Hope you've had a better day

Buffythedebtslayer

evening.

cheers shoegal, I was like that yesterday! makes me mad thinking about it.

so bloody knackered. CANNOT believe this week is so bad. so rubbish at work and definitely my own fault.

bought Mum dolly mixtures. trying to do something nice for her everyday. not always suceeding. I think I only managed a cup of tea yesterday and tomorrow I am out and about.

have a 12 hour day tomorrow, including open evening. which I haven't prepped for yet. plus two sets of books. but I am only doing one.

see you all tomorrow

xxx

Shoe_Gal

Buffythedebtslayer wrote: »

bought Mum dolly mixtures. trying to do something nice for her everyday. not always suceeding. I think I only managed a cup of tea yesterday and tomorrow I am out and about.

No 'only' about it :mad: Have said it before but don't been so hard on yourself! :A

Buffythedebtslayer

I am due on so that is why I am in such a !!!!!! mood. so many things I can't get done for stupid reasons. but I am really feeling down today and shouldn't be. Mum is driving me nuts and getting me all stressed. She seems to revert back to treating me like a child the more stressed I get - ie the more I have to do which just makes me more mad. I love her and don't want to mad with her - I know its not actually her I am mad with it is because of the hormones but that rational thinking doesn't penetrate the guilt I have for being so bloody angry.

I am just so busy at the moment

working three nights a week (ok so that is fairly normal now)
marking constantly (except I am not)
room is a mess.
off on a hen do
got a job interview for a job which I don't think I actually want.
guinea pigs smell
have no clothes.
need a new bra.

I really seriously just want to run away. that list doesn't even represent half the things in my head at the moment. And I am so angry it is worrying me.

I have to dye my hair and get on a move on.

have a good weekend all

xxxxx

urg123

Hi Buffy

Get that list out of your head and onto paper. At least then you are not having to think about it.

I'm sorry stuff is so crap at the mo. It's great that you have an interview. Is the job another teaching job or is it something different? It might be worth going to the interview just to get the experience and to check them out.

Waving.

urg x x

beanielou

Good news on interview hun.
I get really angry sometimes too.
Frustration in part I think.
Enjoy your hen do

Shoe_Gal

Enjoy the hen night and :j to job interview. What's it for?

Shoe_Gal

Buffy!!

You've been missing all week - hope you're OK hun? :A