Sallyx's Sink or Swim, Swimerdy Swim Diary ;)

System

Hey Sall, I know what you mean about the guilt when it comes to spending money; kind of like the buried head in sand scenario. But I think if you were gonna spend the money on something you think didn't really needed then the i-phone is it. The Apps are fantastic and it is so much more than a phone (but you knew this anyway) Anyway darker days are fading (i mean, brighter days are on the horizon)

sallyx

Hey Lenster...thanks
Its like the reversal of the head in sand...I need to find the happy medium of living and saving once the last debt it paid off

redsquirrel80

Hugs for you and your sister.. erm.. tinned sprouts, can you really buy tinned sprouts?!

Hope it's the start of a good week Sal x

sallyx

Morning Squizz and all
After the night from hell and my ramblings on here (which I deleted this morning as I was seriously loosing the plot at 2am this morning) I hope that this week goes by quickly I can get the weekend out the way and start moving on.
Am so tired its untrue! At work until 1pm today then I need to go to the post office on the way home and then tea and mount ironing pile!

sallyx

Am really really having a bad day....just can't shake off this horrible black cloud lurking today. I think the reality of being on my own is starting to kick in...yes there are elements that are great but its the adult conversation and having someone there if needed that I am missing....Just feel lonely

beanielou

Sal~Im sorry that you feel lonely
It does get easier.
But just to think about?
Was DH really there when you 'needed' him?

Pooky

Sorry you're having a bad day Sal, are you stressing about the weekend visit?

The lonely feeling does pass, don't be hard on yourself though, if you're not sure you've done the right thing then talk to him about it....everything will work itself out eventually, I promise you x

sallyx

beanielou wrote: »

Sal~Im sorry that you feel lonely
It does get easier.
But just to think about?
Was DH really there when you 'needed' him?

No he wasn't...we barely spent anytime together...had meals then either one of us did bath/bed then he spent the evening on the computer upstairs and I was downstairs. In fact when I needed him the most, the times I really needed to rely on him, he always couldn't cope with it. Doesn't stop me thinking about needing him now...but then the reason I need someone is because of his actions so counter productive needing the person who has caused the pain

sallyx

Pooky wrote: »

Sorry you're having a bad day Sal, are you stressing about the weekend visit?

The lonely feeling does pass, don't be hard on yourself though, if you're not sure you've done the right thing then talk to him about it....everything will work itself out eventually, I promise you x

Yes I am stressing about weekend..the unknown and then having to pick up the peices when he leaves.

I know things will get easier, just need to be happy within myself

beanielou

I think after this weekend you are going to have to lay down some ground rules.
I dont actually think it will help in the long term him coming & staying.
Fair enough he has to see B but he needs to make other arrangements for somewhere to stay as IMO that wont help.Sorry dont mean to be harsh.