22 Months to DF-Day - The Race is On!

tirlittan

I'm feeling angry towards ex today. I'm angry that he didn't love me, but was still with me. He knew how I felt, surely some responsibility lies with him also? Angry and hurt and I want to hurt him too. Trying hard not to send an angry email/text to him.
I texted him yesterday cos I'd gone on his facebook and all he's done is been changing his fb status, just irrelevant things to me, but just got my goat up for some reason...You dare to have a life after me :mad::o:D:(. But the texts were in a joking manner...

I'm also not happy that I just cannot affor to keep my car. Insurance is coming up to renewal from first of May and I can't get a good quote, tax is running out end of May and I have no money to pay for either. Plus the steering rack could do with changing and clutch might be on its way out...
I will try to sell it, but don't have much time and I hate selling cars...

clearmydebts

tirlittan wrote: »

I'm feeling angry towards ex today. I'm angry that he didn't love me, but was still with me. He knew how I felt, surely some responsibility lies with him also? Angry and hurt and I want to hurt him too. Trying hard not to send an angry email/text to him.
I texted him yesterday cos I'd gone on his facebook and all he's done is been changing his fb status, just irrelevant things to me, but just got my goat up for some reason...You dare to have a life after me :mad::o:D:(. But the texts were in a joking manner...

I'm also not happy that I just cannot affor to keep my car. Insurance is coming up to renewal from first of May and I can't get a good quote, tax is running out end of May and I have no money to pay for either. Plus the steering rack could do with changing and clutch might be on its way out...
I will try to sell it, but don't have much time and I hate selling cars...

So sorry you are feeling so out of sorts. How about writing a letter to him but burn it instead of sending it to him? Or alternatively you could send it to him. I sent a letter to the ex that I was mad about. I never got a reply but he told me about 2 years later that he kept it but just wasn't man enough to face me.

tirlittan

It's ok, my emotions are just bit up in the air. Most of the time I'm fine. thanks though CMD. Just had to say that somewhere so I wouldn't do the angry text/email thing.

clearmydebts

tirlittan wrote: »

It's ok, my emotions are just bit up in the air. Most of the time I'm fine. thanks though CMD. Just had to say that somewhere so I wouldn't do the angry text/email thing.

You are doing really well. It just takes time

tirlittan

Just called him to see how I'd react. Not well.

clearmydebts

tirlittan wrote: »

Just called him to see how I'd react. Not well.

Did you chat to him?

tirlittan

Yes. I was ok on the phone, but silently crying most of the time. I'm just annoyed with myself that I didn't make him say some stuff when we split up and discussed about it. I know it shouldn't be important anymore.

thought I'd be ok but obviously not.

clearmydebts

tirlittan wrote: »

Yes. I was ok on the phone, but silently crying most of the time. I'm just annoyed with myself that I didn't make him say some stuff when we split up and discussed about it. I know it shouldn't be important anymore.

thought I'd be ok but obviously not.

Aw you poor thing. Maybe you should try to cut contact with him for a while. Easier said than done I know. He sounds a bit emotionally stunted. Remember - you will find someone who absolutely worships you and tells you they love you all the time. You deserve that.

tirlittan

Yeah, well that was the whole idea, not to speak to him till end of month at least. Why I felt I needed to call him today I don't know. I'm quite upset about it now and don't know what to do. Just spoke to my friend about it as well. I'm going for a walk now to clear my head. Thanks for your support CMD. I might write a letter after I come back and have calmed down.

hypno06

**passes obligatory jaffa cakes over**