finding friends

cantcope

Have fun at Harrods KP. Make sure you have a real good drool at the swarovski crystal handbags for me!

Teaching is out of the window now. I am too lazy to study now. I did try going back to college evening classes but just found it so boring. How on earth would i teach people when i hate learning myself! I spent most of my college days in the common room at palmers playing cards..... oops...

Really hot tonight. But the band aren't playing and i have enjoyed a whole film with no drums

Sleep well all x

Careful_girl

Love Harrods!! Can I come? Used to cycle there as a student- happy days!! Haven't been for ages. Love the oyster bar and the ice cream bar. Used to nanny opposite!! Time for me to go up to town but not sure about the money. Will be checking tonight.
Have fun,
CG.:j

mclaren_2

I feel like im hijacking this thread with my post becasue the last few posts have been nice and friendly but with the topic.....

Ive been watching this thread for ages, just thinking about what everybody has put - and i have been reading things that i can connect with.

I was going to put this under a new assumed name because i am so ashemd to admit this, but to be honest, i thought i was the only one. I have one "friend" in real life, but this person doesnt even visit that much. He came up to my house Once in the last year and that was for a 30 min visit. didnt come up at xmas or new year and when my cat passed on, didnt come up - even though he knew i was upset about it all...

Ive thought about why i have basicly no real life friends but i get so many answers.... is it cos im fat? ugly? pathetic? looser? a*sehole? - i dont know... i used to have the pholosiphy to say, if you dont like me as a person, f*ck off and look at yourself and you will see you dont have the same qualitys as me.... but its not true now.

the problem with it is people will often say "go to college" etc... but its not as easy as this. I feel ill, sick, scared, to go to big buildings with alot of people in them. I feel cumfy in my own "zone" - which is not helping me. its ok saying "just go out" and "get out of your zone" but how? i dont have friends to help, nor do i have anybody i can talk to much. i have a few online friends but i dont even think they know the full story - which im putting here.

The internet has helped me make online friends - but the reason for this is because i belive they do not know me as a real person and that they do not see me. I have been told i have a heart of gold - i try to be nice to everybody but i fail - so i cant have a "heart of gold" as if i did, i wouldnt fail.

I fail at everything i do. i cant do a single thing without failing at somthing.

i cant spell cos o dyslexia - fail
i cant make friends - fail
i cant lose weight - fail

i cant do anything without failing - and for a while, i just stopped trying.

im the type of person who will try something once.

my problem is that if i talk to some person, i can easily offend them without realising it. I lost a few online friends because of the way i talk - but i just cant help it. Ive tried to word things properly but i cant manage it. even after explaining this to people, still wont work.

i litruly feel pathetic cos i cant do anything right.

Also, its not like im 50, 60, 70.... im 20! most 20yr olds are out at night, in the clubs n pubs n that.....

even when i talk to my online frinends, i get told that they are too busy or that they cant talk or if i text, im lucky if 1 will text back and thats usually a cant talk now message.

most of the time, i feel like im on my own, with nothing left. Without going in to detail, ive contemplated some things - but doctor helped me with tablets. but no matter how much medication they put you on, it still wont solve the problems.

actually, reading all what ive put, i feel selfish now. cos im taking up YOUR time. have actually been called a selfish bas*ard once recently - only tried to tell sum1 something that i needed help with.

sorry for taking up your time, but i thought i woudl post and make full confession in this thread. to be honest, i hate myself.

just wish i was a normal person who was liked and not hated by all.

sorry

Careful_girl

Welcome!
You can post on here as much as you like. We do!!
Your post sounds awful. The word fail is such a dangerous one. I am someone who never gives up, however bad it gets. Have retaken everything in life.
We don't have many answers just lots of support for eachother. Just the ability to rant at someone is helpful.
Dyslexics are very important to the world their contribution is well known.
If you have read the stuff there is lots on handbags!!!
Join in. Have you had a bad day?
CG:j

mclaren_2

Careful_girl wrote:

Welcome!
You can post on here as much as you like. We do!!
Your post sounds awful. The word fail is such a dangerous one. I am someone who never gives up, however bad it gets. Have retaken everything in life.
We don't have many answers just lots of support for eachother. Just the ability to rant at someone is helpful.
Dyslexics are very important to the world their contribution is well known.
If you have read the stuff there is lots on handbags!!!
Join in. Have you had a bad day?
CG:j

ive given up on answers - well, i went to give up and i failed lol.

re the post - i did go on abit but i had to get it all out, it was like a huge weight on ma shoulder.... sorry if i bored ya.

support is somthing that friends should give and take.... nice to know that every1 in this thread r nice n friendly. re handbags - im eh a bloke - so eh, i dont own any - though i do own a bag for my camera lol

the one thing i would love to do, is to sit down, talk to peple and have a laugh

re important dyslexics - ive found this

http://www.dyslexiamentor.com/famousdyslexics.php

cant belive how many celebs r

whatamess_2

Welcome mclaren your not a pushchair are you?:rotfl: :rotfl:
That joke is probably totally wasted.:o
harrods, only been in there once and was getting frowned at by shop assistants.

Cruise four poster bed?;) enjoy every minute of it.:D

Silly `o`clock again for me cannot sleep:mad: got lost cottage to clean today the cottage is acting like its having a sulk, `nobody loves me` very smelly, (damp) an empty house goes down hill very quickly. Never mind sale has exchanged (finally) completes on the 2nd August.

Work today:eek: most of the young people will be higher than a blimp today cause of going home tomorrow. Drive to London tomorrow then
:j HOLIDAYS:j

Mr 4x4 got sunburned at the weekend :eek: I did tell him not to forget the suncream:rotfl: one of the other drivers offered to put some on he told him to f*** **F so is now suffering.

Happy Holidays, have fun all,
Love Messy

cantcope

Welcome McLaren. Feel free t post as much as you need to on here. It's like a sort of therapy! You'll see i waffle a LOT!

I felt i had no friends a few months ago, but have realised now that it was because i was hiding myself away. I made a conscious (is that right?) effort to call people and ask if they wanted to go out. A few months on and the friends i t hought weren't really friends ARE actually fantastic friends. Once they realised i was lonely they made a real effort to come around, invite me out and i now have a pretty "normal" social life.

Bite the bullet and call someone x

Just a quick note. I post on the DFW board often and have noticed this morning someone has posted on there "life laundry - inspired by cantcope"

I feel like i'm famous lol. And really touched.

Have a great day everyone x

Philippa36

Hi Mclaren ~ come in and join the fun! No more talk of handbags now we know you are male and not female! You're not selfish and you've not taken up any of our time at all, that is what our thread is for. Post whenever you feel like a rant, a chat or tell your story.

Messy ~ fabulous, you've made it to the end of term, not long now Hope the sale goes through with no problems.

I am free every Friday, although I could take a day or two off work if necessary, I would need a little notice though.

We do need to sort something out if we are going to meet up this summer. Not sure how to organise it, but maybe if we can agree a date that suits us all and find a place thats not too far away from everyone?

:grouphug:
Philippa xx

Careful_girl

Na Messy the joke wasn't lost on me!:rotfl: Nice pushchairs too. Rather expensive I imagine.
As for the sunburn ....Well cocoa butter is good from the Body Shop. I won't go there but sufficeth to say that you might be able to put it on for him :rotfl:
Nick gets sunburned feet and nose (the white bits). Had to buy factor 50+ but don't think it is any better. I am even putting aftersun on her!!:rotfl: Does anyone use P20? I swear by it for holidays. Put it on once a day and don't burn. Isn't greasy.I might buy Nick soime but I will have to wash and dry her feet in the am and as you know from yesterday sometimes she doesn't want me messing about too much.

Mclaren thanks for the link. It is amazing how much good dyslexics do so be proud! You have extra special skills (OOOH!:rotfl:) I always try to work out how best to support them in class, it is such an enormous umbrella of attributes so I try to work out the child's particular difficulties and stretch their abilities. But that is the case for all kids but just in other ways. Your thank rate is fab.:T What is your secret?
Time for her ladyship.
Take care all.
CG.:j

twink

hello mclaren, i am scottish, a granny, not often on here, usually on the os boards, you talk as much as you like everyone is very supportive, oh and i have five cats