Lilmissmups what will 2010 bring diary!

suburbanwifey

lilmissmup wrote: »

Thanks surburbenwifey for reading. I am moving home for now and the cats are coming with me.

FF, and all.

I must confess I sent him one last email saying I can't do this anymore, literally begging him to leave me alone and I told him I don't need a reply.

Your right that its all him, he wanted to leave me, he wanted to be free but now he still wants to have me around.

All I want is to be left well alone as he has ruined any chance of us being friends now in the future, and by friends I really mean just beinhg civil if I need too.

Any more replies and hes blocked on email, just saddens me so much we have gotten to this stage.

I have actually made a doctors appointment for tomorrow to try and get some extra support, my depression is creeping back up on me because of all this stress and I told him that too.

I am pleased to hear you are moving back home for a while (with the fur babies yay!) as I think this will be very good for you. He sounds a very mixed up guy who in the process of messing his life up had messed up yours. It's hard to break away emotionally to someone you have loved who has hurt you (been there, done that, was not easy and took many years) but one day in the future you will be able to remember the good times that were and have passed and not feel sad. Your dreams are out there waiting to be discovered, they will find you and you will smile again. In the meantime, look after YOU, you are the only one that matters, he doesn't deserve your help, sympathy or support. He made his choice, let him live with it. You're too good for him, remember that any time you feel sad and stay strong.

I'm thinking about you and sending positive energy your way x

doodledo_2

Evening hun how you feeling?

Souk08

How's things lilmissmup?

X

lilmissmup

No more emails but my mother went up to his stepdad today in town at his workstall and told him ex was harrassing me and called me a slag and that she would take it further with the police. :mad::mad::mad::mad::mad::mad:

For people that don't know I detest her, only reason I still talk to her is because my brother disowned her first so I had to ring ex's mum and stepdad and apologise to them whilst crying my eyes out down the phone.

I told them the truth in politer terms, that he had been angry at me talking to men but he never actually said that word and that it wouldn't be going any further.

Think they are ok now, I know they are pleased I rang to smooth it over, stepdad told me he was impressed by my reaction but I don't know if I can see my mum again now and shes here for another week or so, I just want to disown her too more than ever.

They know shes a nutcase (sorry she is!!!) thankfully and they know me and like me but OMG.

I can't deal with much more. I got put back on anti depressants today as it is.

doodledo_2

God hun sending you some hugs, something you definately didn't need right now.

Like you say they are understand your mum has issues and I am sure they wouldn't judge you any differently from what she has said.

You have smoothed the ground so now just leave them all to it. Concentrate on you now and getting you through to happier times.

Shoe_Gal

Poor you, sounds like your week has been awful :mad: Good news about moving in with your Dad though

Take care of you :A

mariagti

Sorry to hear your taking anti-depressants now and your having such a rough time.

Roll on 2010!!

Take care x

doodledo_2

Just to let you know Dawn is ok, she has just sent me a Facebook message. She has moved back to her dads and doesn't have any internet at the moment.

She won't be about for a while so if you have any messages for her I can pass them on.

Shoe_Gal

Thanks for letting us know :A

Give her my love

doodledo_2

SG - have passed your message on