A Fool and Her Money- CAFCGIRL's Debt Diary

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CAFCGirl

I hope you're not suggesting I have an attitude ZTD!

Plus notes today, good day at work, got a few things I need to sort out to make everything tip top, and then should be well on my way to really "owning" my shop......

Also got a call today to ask me to go to Cambridge for the weekend. Admittedly I'll be working but still get two free nights in a hotel, all travel and expenses paid for etc, couldnt be better really. Even the Bf was invited to go, company even offered to get him a hire car so I didnt have to travel for 4 hours on the train, and guess what, the USELESS bug has caught up with him again. So for another week I'm going to leave him to his own devices.

I'm going for a free weekend anyway so I really don't care

Also means I'm not here when the flatmate moves out.
Countdown to getting rid stands at 4 days!
Hopefully she won't rob me or anything stupid!

Got a few properties to call up about tomorrow regarding moving so that should be fun

Happy day today

CAFCGirl

Good morning all,

I've woken up (rough) and ready to face the day

I've got my super positive hat on today and got a few things I want to get through.

The Useless One (AKA BF) has lent my his digital camera so I can basically take photos of everything I want to sell on Ebay, this could be a money making gold mine for me.

I've got lots of bits, and I dont really care if they only go for say 99p, £2 etc, because theyre actually just taking up space! And if I plan to move as well I want as little to pack up as possible.

So I'm hoping I can make about £100 from all this lot.So I better get snapping!

:j :j :j :j :j :j :j :j :j :j :j :j :j :j

I've also made a start on my meal planning for next week, after I've been paid. It should work out at about £20 inc bits for lunch and some juice etc. I'll keep you all posted as to how I get on.

I wont be around at the weekend because I get to go and work in Cambridge but I shan't be spending much dosh. I've got a couple of books etc to read and as boring as it sounds I may just spend my time in my hotel room, relaxing and taking in the fact that someone else has paid for it. Would have been nice if the Useless One had wanted to come with but oh well :)all the more space in the bed for me!:rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:

Lara44

Weey- you go CAFCgirl.... I fell well off the wagon this week and overspent by a mashussive £60, (eek) so I am on the ebay/amazon trail to make it up before the end of the month. Your plan looks great and the hotel should be fun (don't forget to steal the shampoo), lol

Lara x

CAFCGirl

Trust anything thats not nailed down that I can make a quick getaway with I will

Sorry t hear about you falling off, important thing is to jump right back on, and ebay will be a great way to make it back. Good luck

CAFCGirl

GGGGGGRRRRRRRRR AAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!

I'm annoyed with myself. I've been spending money, money that technically I dont even have!
Why did I not just pay the money straight into the bank. Flatmate gave me her bill money and I kept "meaning" to pay it in but just didnt! And I've nearly spent most of it, on lunch, stuff for dinner etc.

Plus note, I've got some left, room to breathe in the overdraft (just!) and its payday tomorrow. Paying off everything tomorrow, inc council tax, phone bill, gas bill and water bill!

Aiming to spend less than £20 over this weekend, travelling away for work so anything I can claim back I obviously wont be including!

Sometimes I just want to shake myself! But I'm ok, I'm not beating myself up over it, you learn and you move on........... deep breaths.........

The BF has reverted back to his usual self. Hadn't heard a whisper from him for 3 days, so I called him (i know,i know) and he's out drinking with his uni friends, so I mentionned I thought I would call because I wont see him all weekend because Im away for work, and next week I'm away in Newcastle. He said he would phone me tomorrow but part of me just doesnt even want to talk to him?

Is that horrible of me? Part of me thinks I should just be super unavailable, and make him wonder what I'm doing for once, and then part of me is feeling a bit sad because I'm not sure I want to be with him anymore....

How do you know? If it's not hard work, it's not worth it someone told me today, but then my friend at work told me, "loving someone isn't a chore, or something you make yourself do, it just happens"......

Sometimes I seem a glimpse of how things could be, and I think about the limits to us right now would be lifted in a year or so, but then it's still all what if's, and what if we're still the same people in a year or two, but just without the excuses....

The more I think about it, the more I realise, he doesn't love me

ZTD

CAFCGirl wrote:

GGGGGGRRRRRRRRR AAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!

I'm annoyed with myself. I've been spending money, money that technically I dont even have!
Why did I not just pay the money straight into the bank. Flatmate gave me her bill money and I kept "meaning" to pay it in but just didnt! And I've nearly spent most of it, on lunch, stuff for dinner etc.

So would you say that if you have money - cash - in your hand, you feel the urge to spend it, to get rid of it?

CAFCGirl wrote:

Sometimes I just want to shake myself! But I'm ok, I'm not beating myself up over it, you learn and you move on........... deep breaths.........

Best to use the experience to learn about yourself - and to "work around" yourself. Next time perhaps, ask for a cheque?

CAFCGirl wrote:

Is that horrible of me? Part of me thinks I should just be super unavailable, and make him wonder what I'm doing for once, and then part of me is feeling a bit sad because I'm not sure I want to be with him anymore....

I would guess this could be the beginning of the end. You are going to have to decided whether you do want to be with him or not. If you don't, then don't be tempted to stick it out. That way leads to the dark side.

The game playing. The anger. The resentment. The hate.

CAFCGirl wrote:

How do you know? If it's not hard work, it's not worth it someone told me today, but then my friend at work told me, "loving someone isn't a chore, or something you make yourself do, it just happens"......

You don't "do" love. You are in love. It's a "being" thing, not a "doing" thing.

CAFCGirl wrote:

The more I think about it, the more I realise, he doesn't love me

Do you think you're a "trophy" girlfriend?

CAFCGirl

LOL I almost wish I was a trophy! At least that way I would know why he does what he does.....

I think he got involved, it all seemed fun and exciting at the beginning, but he would happily go through life without a girlfriend, and more importantly I guess, without me.....

Oh well gonna have a think about it over the weekend since I'll be on my tod and see what I come up with

On a much more positive note, I got PAID today, and i got paid MUCH more than I thought I was going to get. So I can literally pay up everything and still have money left over.

Must go and get dressed now because Im going to view a house in 45 mins! Its all very exciting!

ZTD

CAFCGirl wrote:

Oh well gonna have a think about it over the weekend since I'll be on my tod and see what I come up with

Well don't think too much. It's an opportunity to enjoy yourself - not to make yourself miserable.

He's not worth that much...

Seaxwyn

CAFCGirl, I enjoy reading your diary, you are an inspiration.

Re the boyfriend, I just wanted to pass on some words of wisdom from my great-aunt - quoted to my mother when in a similar dilemma half a century ago: "If there's any doubt, there's no doubt at all."