Day by day...

faithcecilia

I have been overwhelmed by the kindness and support of people on here. Quite honestly, it has kept me going and given me a reason to get up in the morning (most days:o).

So, today I got up, washed and dressed and went to Tesco. I treated myself to the new Cecelia Ahern paperback (I love her novels!) which was £3ish and did a medium-sized shop. To my suprise and joy, about half of what i wanted was on special/whoopsied so what should have been a fairly expensive outing wasn't so bad, leaving enough for a bottle of pink:beer:

ceridwen

Well - we've decided we like you Faith and that you are worth supporting.

....and anyway...I, for one, am a sucker for a "happy ending" and thats what I foresee happening in your case:D

faithcecilia

ceridwen wrote: »

Well - we've decided we like you Faith and that you are worth supporting.

....and anyway...I, for one, am a sucker for a "happy ending" and thats what I foresee happening in your case:D

:oAw, you're making me blush!!:o:o

I hope you are right about a happy ending. Usually i read the ending first, but this time I'm only able to see a page, or even a paragraph at a time.

ceridwen

Yep - but remember what I said to you faith previously "The longest journey starts with the smallest step" and remember what Daska said about "eating an elephant one bite at a time".

faithcecilia

Oh God, I want to go home I'm okay for a few hours, or a few days, then suddenly it gets me again and I realise that I am just not meant to be out here.

far2812

What is stopping you from going back Cecelia??

I know you mentioned that the "Senior" said that you need some time in the outside world but you surely dont need to punish yourself into doing it!

If you truly feel that it is the convent that you miss and all that goes with it - then you MUST speak to her and tell her how you feel!

Alternatively, if how you are feeling is because everything is "new and scary", then please just try and keep going. It would be awful if you went back and regreted it!

However I believe in my heart that "Footprints" will lead you to the place you are destined to be - and you also know that the "Footprints" aren't yours!

With very best wishes

Fiona

zippychick

faithcecilia wrote: »

Oh God, I want to go home I'm okay for a few hours, or a few days, then suddenly it gets me again and I realise that I am just not meant to be out here.

Ack darlin, it's bound to be rough for you. Of course it is. The only advice I can give is to take each day at a time -as you say. Tomorrow you may not feel like this.Is anything particular getting you down or just it all?

Maybe you could tonight, plan some really nice things to do tomorrow? Have you joined the library? Can you do some volunteering? I genuinely think if you had a project like that, it would help break up your day and give you great buzz and something to focus on

You have lots going for you

Yummy red coat
Lots of lovely MSE friends who care a lot
A roof over your head
Benefits finally sorted
Extra money per week
Learning to scrimp and save with food - get yourself over onto OS chatting, we miss you . Let us know what crazy recipes you are coming up with.

Can you and frandlord do something nice over the weekend? Little things to look forward to are good. I spent three months off work sick a couple of years ago, and found when I had nothing else to focus my day on, i dwelled far too much on things and dug myself deeper into depression

Hope nothing I say upsets or offends you , all meant with the best and kindest intentions.xxx

daska

((((((((hugs))))))))

faithcecilia

far - sadly its not that simple - I have been sent away to work some things through

Zippy - yes you are right. God is good and has sent me some amazing friends on here who have helped me sort so many things out - sepecially my lovely red coat!!!!

This will pass. But like wind, its gonna be blimmin painful!!!!!!:o:o:eek::eek:

Savvy_Sue

faithcecilia wrote: »

Oh God, I want to go home I'm okay for a few hours, or a few days, then suddenly it gets me again and I realise that I am just not meant to be out here.

But right now you ARE meant to be out here!