One day at a time - A DFW diary

my_mess

Yay for fay !!

Yes - have some tools (hand fork, big fork, big spade, trowel, diggie things) and now all of your fantastic advice re: pots and veggies -- cool !
Any random seeds you have would spare be brilliant - I have no idea what I'm buying, to be honest.




Bit of weird day today :

Work - strangely calm despite a ton of new work to get through (well, I was strangely calm, at least !)
DS - still having trouble with his toe (long story, but he broke/chipped the bone in his big toe about 3 months ago - well after the accident in Feb - and it's never really got much better, despite visits to docs). He gives me almost daily updates on 'the toe' ..........
Money - Pah ! Cant even bring myself to talk about it - and only got paid on 28th !
Head - more balanced than I ought to be perhaps, given the money thing - but hey!
Heart - fell out with OH in a massive way over the weekend (and there's me congratulating both of us for having a decent weekend previously - bummer). I don't know what will happen as a result, but may have to admit for once that I am wrong ..... blimey ! Did I just think/type that !?
Dog - I have done a bit of a tragic job of cutting all his hair off. Well, almost all his hair as he still has fluffy feet ! Have promised him that I will finish off the feet tomorrow, as poor lil thing may get a Yorkie complex of some sort.
Brother - he's 41 on Friday ! Haven't sorted a card for him yet ---- I'm a proper wrong 'un !


Heavily laden with guilt - but am off to read in bed.

x

beanielou

Hope you sort things out with your OH.
Nothing wrong in admitting you are wrong!!!

my_mess

Arrgghh !

UPDATE

Money - grim - say no more about that ! BUT my DMP is still being paid, so that's good
DS - good - behaving himself reasonably for a 15-year-old
Mum - suffering with sciatica, so haven't seen her this week Will ring her tomorrow and see if she's any better
OH (or perhaps back to 'ex-OH') - we've fallen out in a big way. The man drives me mad with his mixed messages !
Work - mental, but with some little victories
Home - messy. This weekend (with estranged OH not here) will see a flurry of activity on that front


So, all in all, a bit of a mixed bag.

I have a big list of stuff to do/think about/re-think/make over the next couple of days ......... so here goes ...... !

x

my_mess

I thought I had better write this here, instead of screaming it out of the back door and across the whole estate (just in case the neighbours think it's time to lock me up).

Bear with me.

Have been having a think -- maybe it's time to do something drastic (I have a tendency to do drastic things ever few years, hence the mess I find myself in right now).

Ex-OH clearly has no intentions of becoming OH again - so I have to find a way forward, and forget his empty promises of help and support.

What's the worse that can happen ---- I could end up living in a place I don't like, with no money, no life etc......

Well, excuse me if that's not exactly the situation I find myself in now. I dislike living in this house, I have no life and no money to make a life.

So, !!!!!! am I doing ?

All I have to do is bite the bullet -- find somewhere else, near enough to DS school and make the break - get away from this place and all the !!!!!! memories.

Stop and think - think it through properly, and don't have knee-jerk reaction.


Feeling better for that !

my_mess

So ..................... you'll be pleased to learn that I haven't done anything crazy -- PHEW ! (though it was touch and go for a bit there)



A quickie update-type thing:

Work - busy, never enough time, lots of change to come, must learn to keep my mouth shut, more focus required

DS - in good health and reasonable spirits (we also received a provisional date for the court case to deal with the a*sehole who nearly killed my DS)

Head and heart - a little less messy, but things with sometimes-ex-OH seem to have improved a bit. We have, at least, exchanged emails and he is planning to visit at the weekend

Home - still messy (need to get an industrious head on at the weekend - plant some more seeds, clean windows etc....)

Money - oh jeez ..... I have no idea how I'm going to last until payday

Mum - still suffering with sciatica - and tells me that the doctor is trying to arrange some home physio for her (she is quite badly disabled, and cannot travel around much)


Right - I'm off to iron a couple of school shirts for DS, and watch crud on TV

Hugs to anyone reading my nonsense

x

Pippilongstocking

aM READING - you're on a bit of a roller coaster eh?

Glad you've not done anything crazy - good for you thinking things through

I've a package of seeds for you ready - not much on the scale of things but its a start.

Glad you've got a court case through - you'll get closure eventually

I hope you and ex-OH get something sorted that works for you xx

I;m out workign alot - busy time of year - but nice to hear how you are doing. xx

I hope your mum gets some help soon.

my_mess

BUM !

Am on my third day of a cold - sniff, sniff ............

Lil bit of an update :

Work: same old/busy/fighting all the way
Home: not a lot of housework done at weekend (sniff)
DS: good, as hungry as ever
OH: seemingly a reasonable weekend - only a small falling-out
Mum: poorly with the sciatica still, so haven't seen her - but OH is taking us all (and the dog) over to hers on Thursday
Money: am £40 overdrawn due to my BT DD failing (£25 charge) - so that's not good at all. Have just about enough cash to last me through to payday on 28th
Head : pounding (sniff)


A quick something or other to eat for me and DS later, and I am off to read in bed


Hugs to anyone in www. land who wants/needs them

x

my_mess

So ........

Here I am again.

Not doing too badly (slight wobbles now and then, but functioning)



Quickie update:

Home: lots of jobs to do (procrastinating) - so I should really make a big list and get them sorted over the next week or so

Work: busy, and plenty of changes on the horizon (hopefully, they will be positive ones, and not the sort that cause me even more anxiety!)

Mum: seemed a little better last Thursday (we all went over and took lunch) - she is still waiting for the home physio folks to get in touch and make some arrangements to visit her. She also asked me to order her 3 (yes, three!) new comfy chairs online - she doesn't want to get a sofa (or two).

OH - Still a mystery, to be honest. I never really know what the score is ...... on, off, on, off - blowing hot and cold. Errrrm.... yes, that's both of us.

DS - is fine and dandy. Off to the theatre tomorrow, as part of his Drama or English GCSE (I am such a bad mother, I can't remember which one!). He's doing a lot of 'am going round to XXX's house for a bit' and coming back hours later. I am told it's an affliction specific to 15 year-olds - but it is a bit worrying. I was a real worry (and I mean a REAL worry) to my Mum at that age, getting up to allsorts. I can only hope that I have equipped him well enough not to get into anything that he shouldn't.

Money: well, I have £3 in my bank account, and about £15 cash to see me through to payday - so it looks like I might end the month on a plus .... Woo !!

Head stuff: I really should get back to doing more crafting and stuff - it's good for the soul, after all. Will try and set myself up with some small projects at the weekend - make a point of it.


Anyoldhow - I'm off to do some reading and put some socks on - my feet are bloody freezing !


Hugs and that

k x

Pippilongstocking

Shout at me to post you some seeds - they are sittign in the kitchen - lol!

my_mess

Hey stripey one

Seeds would be fabby if you've got some hanging around ...

k