One day at a time - A DFW diary

my_mess

Am writing this to get it out of my head.

Debts - still paying DMP
Money (general) - I have £40 to last me until payday on 28th (don't know how that's going to work), and the Council have said they are taking me to court for late payment of installments (nice !)
DS - full of teenage and angst and attitude (mostly about the lack of money around and the mess I have put us in)
OH - now very much ex-OH, after 7 years
Mum - better than she was, now that she has got some decent painkillers and the doctors are seeing her regularly
Dad - not heard a word (since December 2009)
Work - very, very busy
House - some veg. growing has been successful - house seriously needs decorating - immmersion has packed in, and there's no money to get it fixed
Head - fooked up, and weirded out
Health - have sciatica, I believe (great!)


Off for a scream

x

Pippilongstocking

MM - I've been wondering how you are - sorry to hear things are incredibily hard at the mo - bleurgh. Glad your mum is getting some help, sorry that DS is being a bit angsty



((()) I'll scream with you if its any help?

Anything you can dump on here?

my_mess

Hey Fay ! - and thanks for the good vibes.

Yeh - it's all a bit sh*t right now,

but am getting through somehow (you know how that feels).

3 good things for today, though - am determined to see the good stuff !

- we still have a roof over our heads
- a 'phone call to Council Tax folk today seems to have done the trick
- have moved £10 from Paypal to bank (thnak you P/Cone Research)

There we are - my chin is seriously sticking up

x

Pippilongstocking

I'm glad you're battling on, as hard as it is, we'll get there eh?

Hugs and lovely vibes to you. xx

my_mess

Hey All

Things here are bit pooey ...... but then no-one said it would be easy, and all that.

Quick update
Money - ok/on track (just about)
DS - also ok (due to start some counselling, which I hope will help with his symptoms of PTSD)
Mum - much better (am really pleased about this - she is the BEST Mum)
Work - a little quieter (about time!)
House - planning a bit of a kitchen 'makeover on a shoestring' -- hmmm.... not sure how, but it will look better/fresher/cleaner, at least
Head - not too bad (a little bit up and down, and seriously avoiding the lure of anti-depressants)
Heart - squashed (will try to re-model it into the shape of a star)


I think that's my lot for now .... off to make some lists and that .....

K x

my_mess

What a !!!!! head I have on today !

Nothing seems worth doing.
DS is never in the house.
No money.
Single again.
No future.


Am fed up - seriously fed up.

Pippilongstocking

(()) I hope things look up - remodelling your heart in the shape of a heart is a good plan!!

Hugs me dear - thanks for the invite on FB nice to 'see' you! x

my_mess

Hey !

Another instalment

Erm....... nothing different really - still skint and counting the pennies.
Have been thinking - what on earth am going to do re: Christmas ?

Aaaaarrgghh !

Time to scout around for a few things to put on Ebay, methinks.

Off for a wonder and a ponder.........


x

my_mess

Sooooooo.... it's nearly the end of August.

Everything is the same.

I have lost the love of my life.
I have no money.
I can't see a way through.

Yeh, yeh - I know there are people worse off, and that I am lucky to have my son and my health and a job.

What the f**k am I going to do about Xmas presents and DS 16th birthday ??? There's no room in the budget.

I've done optimism and putting on a brave face.
Enough now.

Pippilongstocking

MM this anygood to you - sorry been a bit wrapped up with family things - hugs to you - you try so hard xxxxx

someone put this on my diary - you can spend 25 a month on fruit/veg and input some survey stuff - then they pay you via paypal - might help a bit - even in the short term and free up some xmas money??

http://tasteradar.co.uk/become-panel-member

Onepoll is also OK at the mo - 10-15p a survey - ? long pay out though.............