lilmissmups moving on and hopefully upwards diary!

wendz86

Hiya,

I am sure it will take time for it all to sink in. After that long no one is expecting you to get over it immediately.

Sorry to hear you haven't heard from him but maybe it will help you in a strange way.

I am glad you have got a friend who is being really good, really helps in a time like this.

Anyway hope you are OK and you are doing really well even though it may not feel like it.

lilmissmup

I don't want to hear from him, it just makes it worse, doesn't stop me staring at my phone though.

Moving out just makes it all so final though, if he didn't love me anymore it would be easier but he says he does which is why its so much worse I guess if he loved me enough we could have worked this out.

I think I know what his true love its and its herbal and smokeable. :rolleyes:

I do want him to come back before the door closes I can't deny it But that would have to go for us to have any choice and i don't think he could do it. Maybe he will find someone one day he can do it for, i don't touch the stuff though so thought it would have been me to help.

lilmissmup

He text me this morning and i ended up seeing him tonight.

Lots of tears but hes still adamant about us and said he felt we had drifted apart and had spent the last few months on his laptop as he was bored.

Probably true but hurts.

Talked through a few more money things, hes agreed to pay for some damaged doors he did, only £35 anyway to replace both.

Now I need to start seriously looking for my own place, not heard back from the other agent yet.

wendz86

It might hurt but is for the best rather than him just trying to make you feel better. Hope you are Ok though.

Hope you manage to find somewhere to live soon.

stacy

taking a trip to new york weirdly enough doesnt seem like it would be boring to me lol..........:rolleyes:

lilmissmup

Things probably only started to go pear shaped last couple months.

Well I have taken the house I saw on Saturday as they are going to let me have my cats there for only £150 extra deposit so thats a relief plus I can paint the bedroom another colour and will probably paint the kitchen too.

Any other agents just say no or rent is too much.

Spoke to him today, asked if he can start thinking about his stuff out and also talk to his brother about what he wants doing with all the stuff we got lumbered with when he split from his ex as gonna stick it all on freecycle if he doesn't want it!

Both being really nice to each other at moment which can be hard but i don't want things getting nasty between us

yukkibear

Glad you've found a new place to live. That will be a new start for you which will hopefully help you a lot x

lilmissmup

Thanks hun I think it will help a lot.

Just wish i didn't have to do it I couldn't cope with seeing anywhere else without breaking down i think.

Just dreading the other major changes like if he gets a new girlfriend.....:o

mariagti

Thats good news you've found another place, a fresh start for you.

You said he smoke weed which he loves more than anything. Which sounds like maybe it played some part in your split, as you always did say his always sitting around playing on his xbox. Didnt save any money towards your future.
So i dont mean to sound nasty but it could be a good thing in some ways that you've parted. As in the future when/if he did want children would he of been able to give up the weed? As im sure you wouldnt of wanted to bring a baby up in that environment with weed around the house and being smoked.

On the other hand i know it must be very hard for you and upsetting as such a long time together with him always being there.

Keep strong hun. xx

xHayles84x

Hi Dawn,

So sorry to read you couldn't work things out, it must be so hard especially as you were together for so long. I agree with Maria, and again i don't mean to sound nasty, but he didn't do very much for your future, you got him a credit card to help improve his rating and he went and bought and laptop, you tried so much, and it seemed one way. Obviously i can't really judge just by what you say on here, but hopefully this new start will bring you good things chick.

Really good news on the new place, this will be the new start you wanted.

Your virtual friends are here if you need us hun! ((((HUGS)))))