lilmissmups moving on and hopefully upwards diary!

retrocircles

Lovely new diary. Well done on paying off £500 in debt in 1 month! That's amazing.

Definitely make some small achievable goals... Good luck, I'm sure you'll be fine! If not, we're here to help you along the way. xo

lilmissmup

I prob won't be around much for a while.

OH left me Monday night over the "B" issue after a discussion Sunday, currently staying at his mums, don't think we will be getting back together so defo got to budget now as I can't afford this house on my own

My nan has offered to help me with my rent for a while but realistically I am going to have to move out shortly.

I am being as strong as I can be, lots of tears but my friends are being lovely and most people at work know as its such a small company I can't not say anything.

I stayed round my best mates Monday night and another friend came round and spent the whole evening with me last night until I went to bed, I am now just waiting to get to work to be distracted again but I did sleep nearly all of last night, dreading the weekend as just don't want to be alone.

He text me five times yesterday and I didn't reply, keeps asking me if I am ok, well no I am not he should know that but I want to make him sweat a little see if he realises that he can't be without me.

He still coming in the house at lunchtime as its five minutes from his work to see the cats which I am not overly happy about but until he says its definately final I won't take his key, he will need it to clear out his stuff anyway. Thats gonna be when it really hits me.

wendz86

Sorry to hear that Dawn. Must be really hard for you. Hope that we hear from you soon. Take care of yourself.

lilmissmup

Thanks hun, tbh I am a wreck but theres nothing I can do if he realises he loves me enough to consider a family in the future than we have a chance but I really don't think he will.

I am just trying not to be alone so seeing my mates as much as possible as when I am alone I get really upset. Waiting to go to work now just desperate for a distraction.

I am leaving my mobile at home so I can't be tempted to text him or stare at it all day.

MinkyBoo

Lilmissmup I'm really sorry to hear about this, fingers crossed he figures it all out in his head and comes home soon. Take care, minky x

hypno06

Sorry that things have come to a head, but it was becoming such a big issue for you both that something had to happen sooner or later, one way or the other.

Perhaps a bit of space is all that is needed. In the mean time, expect nothing, give into your emotions otherwise you will end up exhausted, and keep posting. Plenty on here have been through similar over recent months, so can completely put up with any drunken "but I love him soooo much" posts

lilmissmup

Thanks you two.

I am trying to give him complete space to think about things, hes supposed to be coming over at the weekend, on Monday night he said he would come to to talk money, joy!

I am not sure if I want him here or not, I do want to see him but worried I will beg him to come back, maybe a couple of weeks without seeing him completely would be better.

xHayles84x

So sorry to hear about this Dawn. It sounds like you have great friends around you who are taking good care of you.

Take care chick x

yukkibear

Sorry to hear that Dawn, you know where your virtual mates are if you need us x

SarahNeedle1872

Sorry to hear about this Dawn, I do agree with what Hypno said though...

Don't forget to keep posting

(((hugs)))

Sx