lilmissmups moving on and hopefully upwards diary!

mariagti

Sending (((HUGS))) to you Dawn,

Sorry to hear this, Im sure like you and the others said once his had some space at his mum's he will realise what his just lost.

Keep strong hun! xx

lilmissmup

Spoke to him today and he is adamant this is it. He is supposed to be coming over Friday to talk money.

I have been out tonight and his mum text me whilst i was out, been leaving my phone at home so came back to her message saying she was sorry and she hopes I am ok, replied saying no as wanted a family with him and would miss them all but its set me off again so much

lilmissmup

He has been over today and he has cancelled his car insurance with last years insurers so they can't take that money from me, thats a relief.

He won't communicate about us at all, says he doesn't want to think about anything but was still lots of tears from both.

He has agreed to pay half the rent for this month and should have all his stuff gone in two weeks.

I am going to try and start looking for a flat either this weekend or next, just need to get house in order and cleaned.

Feel strangely calm right now, if he can't see what hes giving up then thats his issue I guess as i think hes just wasting his life, hes 30 and going back into a bedsit when we could have carried on building a life together.

mariagti

Oh hun im not sure what to say, but sending lots of love your way!

Its a shame things had to end that way and that he couldnt be open to building a family life together yet or in the future.

Are you in any sort of contract with your current house? or can you just leave with short notice?

lilmissmup

Contract is up next month so can move out.

Spotted a few places on rightmove I am going to ring up about tomorrow.

Theres obviously a lot more to things that I can say on here, he has depression issues that he is not willing to deal with, he just blocks it all out but there are reasons for that which i don't want to talk about on here.

Had a few more texts off him tonight as he forgot some food stuffs i told him to take and just chatting about getting stuff of my pc for him.

I wrote him a long letter last night that i gave him about stuff including saying how I would be willing to talk to someone i.e a counsellor about us but thats not going to happen as he never would.

So I have to be strong and move on Even if he did come back to me what if he did this to me again in six months, that would hurt even more.

SarahNeedle1872

Dawn, I'm sorry its come to this, I hope you are ok.... alrighht so I know thats a silly thing to ask, but you know what I mean! (((hugs)))

Sx

lilmissmup

Had another rough night as he has now changed his Facebook to single....

I know its only a little thing but i had changed mine so it had no information on what sort of relationshhip i am in. He seems to be advertising to the world :rolleyes:

Although i don't think he knows how to edit the stuff, my friend had to show me properly.

I text him saying i was hurt he seemed to be offering himself out, no reply yet, sent it at 4am when i noticed what he had done.

Luckily i have a friend who lives off no sleep so was on msn with her until 5.30am chatting then got another rough bit of sleep in.

Gonna ring a letting agent this morning.

stacy

Hey lilmiss, i wouldnt have text anything to him about that. I know what you mean though it seems small but i think everyone would feel the same way if someone they loved changed it to single. Hope your coping a bit better, Just think one day you will find someone who will know immediately that they want a future with kids in it with you, id say put this one down to experience. If hes messed you about this much so far about the baby issue then leave him and the aggro behind look foward to a better happier future. You just concentrate on your deposit making, im sure the rest will fall into place!

lilmissmup

Yeah just was with him 6.5 yrs so not easy although when I think about things theres prob other reasons he went even if he won't say.

Things got a bit nasty last night so trying to back off now before we hate it each other, again Facebook was the reason. Also found the photo of us from his wallet just on the bookcase right now.

I am viewing a house in a couple of hours, hoping its nice as i want out of here, think that will help me moving on a lot.

hypno06

Good luck with the viewing today!

Remember doodledo went through all this very suddenly, just a few months ago, and now her life is moving on leaps and bounds....new house etc helping take those steps forward.

It is really tough right now - and of course it may get tougher - but then it will get better

Enjoy the viewings, anyway - be as nosey as you want!