The giving up/cutting down alcohol support thread! Part 4

40somethingmum

Morning all:hello:

Just posting a quick hi to all my old mates and a big welcome to all newbies ( there are lots of you !!):T.

Sorry I have gone a bit AWOL this week but have been a bit down in the dumps . BUT I am not drinking:T:T. Was sat here yesterday morning ready to post and just burst into tears.

I think I will be ok when kids go back to school as I seem to have to work doubly hard during holidays. I really need a holiday ( not had one in ages) but we can't really afford one. Whenever I am home I am always thinking I should be working ( I always have some work at home with me just in case) and therefore can never really relax. Did have plans to have a few days off but lost a bit of earnings through having swine flu 1st week of holidays. I also think the flu is responsible for me having the "blues".

Sorry , this quick post has turned into a bit of a moan:o

Have a go;)od day everyone. ( Ps that smilie was a mistake but I quite like it.... gotta get your fun where you can:rotfl::rotfl:)


Love

40SM:D

40somethingmum

Hi FH

Are you at work ? Busy ?;)

40SM

40somethingmum

Right I am off to "nice & easy " my hair as I am in danger of looking like I am 40something:rotfl:

40SM:D

PRICE_IS_RIGHT_2

40somethingmum wrote: »

Right I am off to "nice & easy " my hair as I am in danger of looking like I am 40something:rotfl:

40SM:D

:rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:Me too! Just got back from 11 days hols in Majorca, and highlights bleached and white roots showing through - looks ridiculous. :rotfl:

Back on the AFD straight and narrow, I'm glad to say.

SEA: well done, really pleased to hear from you.

xx and (()) to everybody - August is such a weird month, much more difficult to keep focussed on being AF while the kids all off school, going on holiday etc.

40somethingmum

PRICE_IS_RIGHT wrote: »

:rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:Me too! Just got back from 11 days hols in Majorca, and highlights bleached and white roots showing through - looks ridiculous. :rotfl:


Its hard work being beautiful ain't it;)

40SM:D:p

graemecarter

jo1972 wrote: »

Morning all,

Hi to the new posters :wave:

Very very p!ssed off with myself this morning, same old same old here.

I had a fantastic day yesterday, went to town with the kids and took my mum, she bought me/us a new landline phone as my old one was so muffled that you had to shout into it. Then she treated me and the kids to lunch and we had a look round the shops. OH got the bonus he was hoping for at work and so we have booked a week away next week.

Everyone was upbeat and happy, so why did I go spoil it

I wrestled in my head all day and promised that if things worked out with OH's bonus then I wouldn't drink. I hate myself

Sorry for yet another downer post, I'm off to B&Q to buy paint and am decorating the kitchen today which will hopefully cheer me up

xx

Oh Jo1972.

Don't be hard on yourself - remember your counsellor said for you to cut down by one can a week. She didn't tell you to stop altogether.

I occasionally 'spoilt' good days out - that's alcoholism. No reason to drink, and yet I did. There is no other explanation for it apart from alcoholism (mine)
When I admitted I was alcoholic (which is not about units drunk, but more about what alcohol does to you) I found that I could start recovering from this illness. And my life has improved dramatically.
I needed to get desperate, until I was willing to do ANYTHING to stop the way I was drinking and the way I was feeling.
Without this desperation, most people won't do what they need to do to clean up.
That's life I'm afraid.

cazzasmazza

Morning all!

I had an AF day yesterday and am looking forward to another one tonight. It helps a huge amount that my parents are staying with us this week and they don't drink. As my OH doesn't drink either, it is pretty impossible to get away with boozing in secret, as my parents are like whirlwinds of energy, so we are always doing something round the house, or going out for a walk or something. So that's good!

I'm so sorry to read some posts from some of you lovely people who are feeling guilty after having a few drinks when you promised yourself you wouldn't. OOOOHHH, haven't we all been there more times than we wish to count!

It's good to write things down and vent feelings and anger. And I'm sure I speak for everyone that we all understand each other on here, after all that's why we are part of this thread - we all have a common goal and want everyone including ourselves to reach it. So hugs to everyone who is not feeling so good today (for whatever reason) :A

I've only had 2 AFDs since my last drinking binge, (so I'm one to talk!). I think it's important to lose that guilt and that self loathing - feeling like that makes me want to hit the bottle even harder. It's a terrible vicious circle that I want to rid myself of. I hope I can.

I am going to another AA meeting on Friday evening, as that's the time when my drinking bells will be SERIOUSLY haunting me! :eek: My parents are going back home on Friday, plus it's the weekend and I won't have had any alcohol for a few days by Friday (hopefully) and I just know I will get desperate for a drink. It's going to be a toughie - in fact the whole weekend is going to be tough.

It's my OH's birthday on Friday and I am still going to an AA meeting! I've talked it over with her and she is fine about it. But I still feel guilty about leaving her on her birthday night. To be fair, we (and friends and family) are going for a posh chinese meal on Thursday evening for her birthday, so at least on Friday I am not actually skiving off a planned night out!

Hugs and love to everyone.

Caz
xxxxx

ForeverHopeful_3

40somethingmum wrote: »

Hi FH

Are you at work ? Busy ?;)

40SM

40somethingmum wrote: »

PRICE_IS_RIGHT wrote: »

:rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:Me too! Just got back from 11 days hols in Majorca, and highlights bleached and white roots showing through - looks ridiculous. :rotfl:


Its hard work being beautiful ain't it;)

40SM:D:p

Morning 40sm~I so know what you mean about always having something to do and not relaxing. That's my life! :rotfl:And yes, plenty to do today but still feel the urge to come in here

As for looking beautiful, well.........it sure takes more effort these days! It's my eyebrows I'm having problems with. Sorry, back to hair again At least YM isn't around :rotfl:But they've suddenly lost their shape. What's going on?

jo1972

cazzasmazza wrote: »

It's my OH's birthday on Friday and I am still going to an AA meeting! I've talked it over with her and she is fine about it. But I still feel guilty about leaving her on her birthday night. To be fair, we (and friends and family) are going for a posh chinese meal on Thursday evening for her birthday, so at least on Friday I am not actually skiving off a planned night out!

Caz, you are doing fantastically :T I wouldn't worry about going to the AA meeting on your OH's birthday, it's only a couple of hours out of the day and I'm sure she is proud of you for trying to get yourself better

graemecarter wrote: »

Don't be hard on yourself - remember your counsellor said for you to cut down by one can a week. She didn't tell you to stop altogether.

The problem is that I think this is the excuse I'm giving myself to drink. I told her I didn't want to cut down and now I feel I'm failing by drinking, I will admit that I 'only' had 4 cans as opposed to the usual 5 or 6 BUT after my last blood test I know I have an enflamed (sp??) liver and I'm making it worse, my days are numbered before it will become more damaged and irreversible. I want that happy and proud feeling back when I know I'm sober. I want to be a week or two sober when I know that picking up is a BIG BIG deal to break my sobriety, not a 'eff it', I drank last night so not ruining any long term sobriety, I'll do it tomorrow

Just got back from B&Q, got green paint for the kitchen, DD1 wants to paint the bathroom and toilet and told me to get orange paint :eek: I normally play it safe with the colours but thought hey, new life, new decisions and lets live a little :eek: it is very orange :undecided

Right, off to paint

Thanks for support everyone :A

xx

jo1972

jo1972 wrote: »

Right, off to paint

Still sat here :rolleyes: god I'm so lazy!