The giving up/cutting down alcohol support thread! Part 4

Whirley

Hi, i just want to join in with this... have had 2 AF nights now after a week from hell where i just drank every night to the point where sat night has become a blurry memory of distaste and disgust at something i did.. i like many others am a binge drinker when i'm out, and was drinking 1 to 2 bottles of wine every night.. i feel so absolutely ashamed and humiliation is my best friend at the moment. i am a single parent i'm old enough to know better and i hate myself. have been in a truly toxic relationship on and off for nearly 6 years and my self esteem is battered. debt and alcohol dont mix. so i'm going for total abstinence. i'm not sure if i can do it. but i believe the only way for me is to have none at all than to cut down. i cant make my debt go away yet but i can make the problems caused my my drinking go away...

boo666

i done a detox a few years ago by taking librium {if that is right} and it made me very ill.
i have since gone for the stay away from drink road, it does work for me unless i have one drink thinking i can control it but i cant and it ends up in me drinking myself to sleep.
this can happen once a week, once a month whenever i am low.
i would say do not have drink in the house and do not go out with friends who drink because that always gave me the go ahead.

samandsheryl

Thanks Jo.

My first goal is to reach next Monday without having had a drink. I've told my partner that i've given up so that should help a bit as i know i'll not ony be letting myself down but her as well.

You all seem such a great bunch, i'm glad i posted.

Sam

Whirley

hi sam i just joined in this thread today.. i think i'll go for the same as you, if i can get thru the weekend without failing it'll be a miracle! i'm telling everyone i'm doing this!!! Boo, i agree with you entirely, i need NONE! i fail when i even have a sip!

samandsheryl

Hi Whirley, we can both do this! If i even get tempted i'm just going to try and remind myself how much i hate what i become when i've had a drink. If i still decide to have a drink, knowing full well i will become a **** then i will know that i have a bigger problem than i thought.

cazzasmazza

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I need to apologise, particularly to Fay, today. I failed dismally last night, drank loads, OH didn't notice, I hid it and drank it secretly. Feel like !!!!!! this morning. Have no idea why I did it and am p!ssed off with myself that I didn't stop it before it started. I enjoyed it whilst I was doing it, although felt guilty.


Hi Jo, I know exactly how you feel about your drink-fest last night. I had my own "party for 1" on Saturday and Sunday evenings - for no reason. I felt guilty and horrid all weekend and I was SO hungover yesterday, which was the day of my AA meeting!! Urgh. :mad:

At the meeting I was asked very matter of factly by someone whether I was 24 hours sober and I had to say, "No". Saying it made me feel very uncomfortable, but I think I felt bad because I've never actually been honest with ANYONE before, even with myself, about how much and how often I drank. It felt weird to not to have to lie about it.

I wasn't judged and no-one batted an eyelid at my answer, as we were all at the meeting for the same reason.

I felt understood, without having to say very much.

Hope you have a lovely day with your family which cheers you up.

Hugs,
Caz
xxxx

winebox

jo1972 wrote: »

I need to apologise, today. I failed dismally last night, drank loads, OH didn't notice, I hid it and drank it secretly. Feel like !!!!!! this morning. Have no idea why I did it and am p!ssed off with myself that I didn't stop it before it started. I enjoyed it whilst I was doing it, although felt guilty.

Sorry for the downer post

xx

Don't apologise to me :o:o:o I despair of my ability to not drink. My only af days were due to being on The Tablets. Now I've morphed into "I'm away next week what's the point of bothering now" mode which, depending on your point of view, is stupid, childish, lazy, .....or all three.

Hi Boo, Sam, Whirley (is your surname Gig? ) & welcome.

Miss P you had a glitsch - back up there!

That wagon is just retreating into the distance from me at the mo.

God I sound sorry for myself; sorry!!

Caz thanks for the post re your meeting.

Whirley

i already know i have a bigger problem than i thought i've known it for years sadly but never ever been able to stay off longer than 2 maybe 3 nights at most.. its the binge moments that are the worst tho.. i truly disgust myself. i dread going out. in fact i wont now unless absolutely necessary anymore.. have a wedding coming up but my kids will be with me so i cant disgrace myself too much lol.. (you gotta laugh..i'll cry if i dont!!! ) . WE CAN do it Sam. I'll post as regularly as i can it helps when others understand how hard it is...

mumofboys_2

Hi All

Cazza Well done - that took guts I don't have. I am so happy that you feel inspired.

Jo Today's another day. Smile ruefully, think "Silly me" and do it differently tonight!

Sam, Boo and Whirley Big welcome, the people here are great, you are in the right place.

Still AF from this end but having a really bad day today. Kids are being feral, and feel that I am drowning in the never ending list of stuff to do, running out of time to do it and achieving nothing due to the incessant need to sort out inter sibling world war 3. My bells started ringing about 12 and I had a good sob at lunchtime. I think today is my struggle day.

Hope everyone else is well.

MOB

PRICE_IS_RIGHT_2

Hi Everybody :hello:

Just got back from holiday, drank every day, but knew I would. Was never drunk, but had too many units each evening between 6:30 and 11:30 pm. We went with FIL, who is difficult at the best of times, and he drank to excess every evening. DH is also very difficult to cope with on holiday, especially when has a few drinks - he becomes even more argumentative than usual. I'm afraid I could not go without wine every evening - could not have coped in that situation otherwise. All 3 DDs were happy overall all holiday - but not easy, keeping DDs, FIL and DH in order for 11 days. I sometimes wonder whether holidays are actually worth the disruption to normal life.

Anyway, a few AFD's now will put me back on track. I can't wait to start the new job in September.

Welcome to the new people - this is a great place to be. I think we will all get back to normal after August is over.

Thanks for doing the scores, Miss P. xx