The giving up/cutting down alcohol support thread! Part 4

barneydee_2

sorry
but I fell of the wagon, other half came home from work and he had got me a bottle of wine:mad: I have told him not to any more so today will be my first afd, at work today so I will be back on tonight .

Dee

Different_Corner

First day of visitors over. Three lagers, don't feel bad, but you know that underlying guilty feeling. I don't want to drink to relax. I just want to relax. When I don't drink it feels like the pressure is off.

Cazza , love to know how you got on.
Barney - positive thoughts for tonight.
Fay, I too rediscovered my love for reading when totally off the beer. Became highly addictive, aswell as reading some really inspirational stuff.
Jo - if your paintbrush finds itself at a loose end my living room ceiling needs a coat....

Miss_Piggy_2

Morning all

GC -thanks for looking after my seat!:T Am feeling extremely annoyed with myself and have a corking headache to boot this morning. Slept really badly and halfway through the night I was mentally beating myself around the head with a stick. Am I stupid or what?? I'm thankful it was only a few glasses of wine and that I didn't get bladdered.

Coming downstairs this morning I was reminded of some of the reasons I wanted to give it up completely in the first place. Piglet is full of beans and my throbbing head isn't coping well with that. The sink is full of last nights washing up. Feel I have to "make it up" to OH so have left him in bed whilst I get up early with Piglet. Once again I feel I'm starting the day on the back foot. I HATE that feeling.

Anyway, Piglet is badgering me for breakfast so best get on.

Cazza - how did you get on last night???

Miss P
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Wanna_Bee_Free

Hi Miss Piggy, so sorry to hear you are struggling. Try to be kind to yourself and remember how well you are doing.

I haven't caught up with all the posts yet but just wanted to say I clambered back on the wagon yesterday after my long weekend away so that's 3/8 for me please. No hangovers over the weekend but drank quite a lot every day. The wine bells were strong early on last night - 'go on, you deserve it, you've been on holiday, one more day won't matter, you deserve it after the journey back, wine would be nice with dinner...' Managed to resist and they'd faded by 8.25.

I'm planning on another one tonight.

Have a good day everyone.

DEBTMONKEY1A

Miss P-still 6 days AF (although it's really 8 days in my mind as started my 'campaign' on 30/7 so 6 days out of 10...that makesme feel better!) in August-not 7!

I'm afraid i had some whisky last night...no huge urges/cravings....usual thoughts like 'I'll start again tomorrow'...etc

I'm setting myself a personal target as well as my 21 days in August for this thread....done 7 days...I'm thinking 10 days is the next logical step...thoughts guys?

This thread & keepin my own diary really helps. Withiut this thread I think my motivation would be not as good!

Will monitor myself over the month....if the 'hassle/stress' factor in having the willpower to NOT drink the day after I've had a drink In September may do whole month AF or in fact just give it up.

I know we're all different but for me once ONE night AF done the following days are easy. If say I had a drink (as has happened this month) after I've hit target of 7 days AF there is no craving to have the drink....so if no craving to have the drink why bother in the 1st place??! I'm convinced it is for me just an ingrained 'habit' not a strong physical addiction...(no withdrawals/shakes) but a slight 'psychological' addiction.

On a weird 'positive' basis my hangovers/appearence/mood is 80% better...just showswhat a week of liver recovery does!

Will post later on this pm to catch up!

Hi to all newbies!

On a positive note G/F is MUCH MUCH better...still not 100% yet!

cazzasmazza

Good morning all!

Well, I feel full of beans this morning :j

The AA meeting turned out to be a really really positive experience!

I admit that I almost didn't go because I got so nervous. I was trying to deep breathe while I was travelling there and my stomach was in knots. I'd sussed out previously where the meeting was, so I thought i knew where to go in - but that entrance was locked. Panic set in at that point!

So I walked round the side into the car park and found another door at the side of the building, which had a disabled ramp and metal railings round it. There was a group of what I thought were "young people" hanging around outside the door, and some were sitting on the railings. I thought it was a gang of youths and I was about to slink away, when I noticed everyone was drinking out of mugs and tea cups.......... hmmmm, not exactly gang mentality (get me, Columbo!!)

So I approached and everyone stopped talking and looked at me. I quietly asked, "Is this where the meeting is?" Someone then said "what meeting are you after?" and I suddenly felt really scared!! I thought, "What if I say "AA" and this isn't the right place?". But I did it and said "The AA meeting??" and then they all smiled and said yes, come in!!

What a relief that was!!

I was made to feel really welcome by everyone - gosh what a nice bunch of people!! I was still a bit teary and emotional, but I managed to "share" during the second half of the meeting, along with everyone else. there was a guest speaker in the first half and he was a wonderful speaker - funny, but poignant, blunt even at times, honest to the core about his alcoholism and his journey (which spanned over 30 years!). AT the end of the meeting, lots of people came up to me and asked how I found it and was I ok and I got tons of leaflets and people's phone numbers, in case I feel a "wobble" - they said ring them any time.

It was all quite humbling.

I have a HUGE amount to think about. Everything about last night has been whooshing round my head and I dreamt about the meeting all night. But I've woken this morning and I feel strangely different. A bit giddy?? A bit hyper?? A bit nervy?? A bit emotional?? All of those things I think, I can't quite put my finger on it. But it's in my tummy none the less and it isn't a bad feeling, it's a good feeling.

Sorry for the long post, but I've been bursting to post since I got home last night!

Hugs and love to you all and thank you so much for your continued support.

I will definitely be continuing with AA meetings.

Caz
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changing_ways

That's brilliant cazza:T:T:T, I'm so glad it turned out well cos it must have taken a lot of courage to go. And it sounds like it really helped you.

Thanks for posting that, I'd never had the nerve to go to AA, but might think again now.

Miss_Piggy_2

:TCazza!!

Bet you are glad you went??? Beginning to wish I had the courage to do something like that!!

Miss P
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samandsheryl

Good morning all

Long long long time lurker but not had the courage to post before. I want to completely give up. Had managed about 4 months from October last year but then completely failed. I become a different person when i drink and am really worried that the things i do could make me lose all i have.

Sorry, not really to sure what to add but just needed to get my first post done.

Sam

samandsheryl

Hi all

Long time lurker but not had the courage to post before. I gave up in October last year for 4 months but have since gone back to my old ways. I hate the person i become when i drink and fear that if i don't stop now for good then i could lose all that i have.

Sorry, not really sure what to add, just wanted to get my first post out of the way while i'm feeling brave.

Sam