The Trials and Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

tea_lover

Wow, loads of positive adoption things happening - exciting times! Best of luck to everyone having appts, getting info... or just generally thinking about it.

Slightly odd question.... did anyone else find that menopur/cetrotide/a combination of the two made them feel sort of guilty? I can't explain it very well. I don't feel low/depressed as such, just like I'm letting people down all the time, mostly OH. My scan appt the other day ran over and he was waiting for me, I felt stupidly OTT bad about it. I was practically in tears as I thought he'd be late back to work (his boss is a great friend and really wouldn't care). Also, I didn't know what time he was finishing work yesterday so hadn't cooked anything when he came back (I'd been at work as well). I felt awful about it - despite the fact I hate cooking and make him do it most of the time anyway.

I feel a bit like I don't know why he puts up with me as I'm not good enough. Without sounding like a right cow, I don't usually think like that lol!

Is it just hormones? Do I just need to have a word with myself?

To be fair I should point out that OH has told me not to be silly (in a nice way) and that I've got nothing to feel guilty about.

VK-2008

Hi guys not been on in a few weeks thought I would update u on progress
Iui jan - abandoned due to over stimulation clomid and gonal f
Iui feb - abandoned as I ovulated naturally gonal f only follies not big enough
Iui mar - third time lucky gonal f at higher dosage and we got our iui done yesterday back for scan today and I have ovulated yeah to bd again tonight to increase chances if not af by 5th April iv to go for pg test however they expect me to be due 2nd so hurry up April so we can find out! Longest 2 weeks of my life ahead!!!!!!
Arrrrgggghhhhhhh exciting

Primmer

Tealover - the affect that all these drugs have on you make you feel all sort of crazy things so that I don't think that anything, including what you have described is unusual. On top of that it is a huge thing to go through and you will be feeling anxious as a result of that too. I know that when I took the pessaries later on in the treatment after having egg collection and after the embryos were put back in I kept seeing spiders at night and would wake up and leap out of the bed and would swear that I had seen it when there was nothing there! :rotfl:

Primmer

Good luck VK - really hope it works for you and you get your bfp

tea_lover

Primmer wrote: »

I know that when I took the pessaries later on in the treatment after having egg collection and after the embryos were put back in I kept seeing spiders at night and would wake up and leap out of the bed and would swear that I had seen it when there was nothing there! :rotfl:

:eek::eek: I HATE spiders!! OH is definitely going to be getting annoyed with me if I get to that stage - I've made him strip the bed in the middle of the night before now when I thought I saw a spider .

Thanks for the reassurance. Part of me knows it's just normal side effects, but most of me is having a crazy lady day today.

Am so not looking forward to pessaries! I keep looking at them in the box and getting a bit worried!

tea_lover

Today's classic comment from the woman who thinks IVF is only needed because people drink too much...

"People shouldn't be allowed to be a midwife if they haven't had children. What can they possibly know about it?"

becca0417

Tea I don't know how you keep yourself from laughing!!

mrshappy

Good luck VK x

Tea-I think that the drugs we take cause all kinds of crazy-I wasn't on the same ones as you, but I felt quite low and weepy while I was on them. I also got really overwhelming feelings of sadness a few times for no reason-I would be doing something and just fill up with tears. The combination of hormoney drugs, anxiety, excitement, expectation etc is all going on-no wonder we go a bit strange. hope you're feeling better though x

good luck to the adoption ladies x

Runnerduck

tea that sounds perfectly normal to me, i know my hubby has the patience of a saint when im on the drugs as anything can reduce me to tears! and as for spiders, hubby is always on spider patrol, and it was no worse during ivf!


vk good luck on the 2ww xxx

good luck to all going into adoption xx

bigzippy

I had a weird dream this morning that I was pregnant but had ignored it for 2 months (incase it 'went away') and was due for the 12wk scan if a couple of days. Dreamt that it was my first cycle on the smooth-muscle relaxants & that had done the trick (I've started them this cycle) and that I was right about the tubes being in spasm. There was also some craziness in the dream though, but we'll forget about that and hope it's some sort of "premonition"

As for the fostering, we're eagerly awaiting the arrival of the information and talking about it more and more in the meantime. We talked to a close friend yesterday and she thought it was a great idea and that we'd be perfect for it, which was good to hear. But then last night my brain started going, trying to convince me I was just being silly :cool: I'm sure there'll be a bit of this, back and forth, for a while...:o

How are our graduates doing? :wave: