The Trials and Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

ginvzt

nichart20 wrote: »

liloandstitch - agree with the christmas disappearing under consumerism the shops start earlier every year. I saw xmas cards in a shop in September :eek:

Can beat that - saw Christmas cards SALE advertised beginning of September. They must have been selling them already if they can claim it is a sale.. We were pretty shocked and turned the other way...

nichart20

Dont know if you have seen this but though id post it ***warning made me cry a lot***

http://www.tearsandhope.com/emptyarms_video.html

jiblets1

Hi all. Sorry I'm especially quiet of late, but my laptop is playing up, and Reading and writing on my iPhone takes a while....

Had another really good meeting with the f/counsellor last niht. Oh was there too this time- and she came to the house which made things easier. We discussed how stressed ive been feeling and how I just feel there's pressure everywhere I turn. She has told me she wants to see me before I go back to work after my op later this month and we will decide together if I am recovered enough (emotionally too) to go back to work. That really helps me, as I am the sort who would push myself to go back as soon as my body is ready.
She has also told me, which surprised me, that when they are ready for us for the ivf she is able to talk to them and put it off for a month or however long ifthats what I need. And we wouldn't be back at the end of the list again.

So all in all I feel a huge amount better and she has helped again. She also told me I've been going through a lot and I must learn to lean on people a bit more. I feel responsible for so much and I need to snap myself out of it. I hope you all utilise your f/counsellors- mine sorts me out a treat.

I hope I haven't made any weird typos-long posts on the phone aren't easy!

jiblets1

nichart20 wrote: »

Dont know if you have seen this but though id post it ***warning made me cry a lot***

http://www.tearsandhope.com/emptyarms_video.html

ha ha thanks for the warning, I'm not even going to look at that-I've shed to many tears recently.

ginvzt

nichart20 wrote: »

Dont know if you have seen this but though id post it ***warning made me cry a lot***

http://www.tearsandhope.com/emptyarms_video.html

Right, that got me sobbing... Maybe I should play this to anyone who decides suddenly to tell what to do, or like one of my friends keeps telling me about another friend of hers that had to go down the IVF route and has twins now. I know things worked out for her, but we are still empty handed and it pretty damn hurts when everyone knows they know better and keep saying that it will happen one day! That one day better come soon...

Sorry, I thought I had it all together for this time... Seems not...

MadMac_2

Jiblets, I'm so pleased to read the meeting went well - that really is such good news! I think you're doing very well if you typed all of that on your phone, I would have given up long ago, I reckon! But great to hear from you, thank you, x

Ginvzt, that one in John Lewis looks like the one I saw last year! I'm still tempted, but the vitamin money pot always wins...

All this talk of Christmas! Well, I was in M&S food hall in early October and they were playing Christmas carols - I really did think that was a bit too much. At least you have the choice of looking at the Christmas cards and wrap early if you want to, but you can't choose to get away from piped music! Grrrr. I even told them so on a comments card, I felt that aggrieved! Was obviously having a very bad day that day... :rolleyes:

MadMac_2

Nichart, yup got me in floods of tears too - and Ginvzt has said it all.

That video is so apt, and reading their story - well, it never gets easier to see written down, even though you're living with it in RL.

Legacy

Hi everyone. Never posted on here before but have been reading your posts for sometime now. Finally plucked up the courage to come on and tell you my story and hopefully become a regular poster on here. My OH and I have been TTC for 6 years.. We've had all the tests done and I've got quite bad PCOS and OH's got zoo-something-or-other (basically he didnt pass the "swim up" test with flying colours!). Anyway, I was prescribed Clomid (150mg days 2to6) back in 2008 and concieved after the 4th month on the clomid. I always thought that once i actually WAS pregnant that the rest would be plain sailing.. Ho-Hum! I went for my first scan at 13 weeks and there was no heartbeat. I felt like my whole world had just imploded, as I was confident that if I could just reach 12 weeks everything would be fine. I miscarried naturally just before Christmas 08. We had a break for a few months and began trying again on the clomid in August 09 and fell pregnant the first month. This time despite worrying every single second of every single day (and night) that something bad would happen again, I tried to stay strong by thinking that the chances of having 2 miscarriages in a row would be very very slim. Again, how wrong was I? I was rushed into hospital in mid-October 09 with abdominal pain and suspected ectopic pregnancy. "Fortunately" (?) I miscarried again naturally which saved having an operation and now we're back to square one. Due to start trying again next month. I'm quite a positive person in general and despite whats gone on, I know that eventually it'll be our turn. Clomid has been a "wonder drug" for us as prior to that we didnt think we'd be able to concieve at all. I think we all know what an emotional rollercoaster this whole TTC thing is and if I can offer any support to anyone on here I'd love to. I wish you all the very best of luck and know that one day we'll all get out dreams fulfilled. In the meantime, have fun babydancing! Lots of love & baby dust.. Legacy xx

jiblets1

Welcome Legacy,
Sorry to hear that you've had a hard run of it. It's good to hear someone who's had success with clomid though, too many of us have found it torturous with no good result at the end.
Good luck with your continuing journey.

MadMac_2

Hi Legacy, welcome and I second the above! Thank you so much for sharing your story and I'm so pleased you have managed to keep hold of some positive mental attitude - I'm not sure I could after everything you have been through. You are very welcome to spread some PMA around if you can on here, you can probably tell I for one am in need!

Look forward to hearing about your ongoing journey and sharing the highs and lows with you, x