The Trials and Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

sarahs999

Hello all. Had a shocking time at the hospital for my HSG yesterday. In fact I became so hysterical that they couldn't do the procedure at all, so I'm going to have to re-book it with sedation. Which means another month lost.

I feel such an idiot but I have such a history of terrible gynae things (lived in third world for a long time with terrible health care, had some really traumatic things happen) that it just sort of takes me over and I lose control - I was just sobbing and sobbing and I couldn't relax so they couldn't get to the cervix. The doctor asked me if I'd had counselling for it which I haven't as it has never been that bad before, but I guess I should think about it now. I tried relaxatrion techniques too beforehand but the moment I got in there I went to pieces.

ginvzt

Sarah, so sorry - please, take care of yourself the stress can't help. It is very difficult, and I don't like going for these procedures, but my consultant is great, he manages to get me relaxed and I hope I can stay under his care for the foreseeable future. Don't think about it as a lost month, give yourself time... (I know it is not easy - I think of every month as lost... )

sarahs999

Thanks ginvzt. I just felt such an idiot. I wish they had offered the sedation as an option beforhand as I would have definitely taken it.

ginvzt

sarahs999 wrote: »

Thanks ginvzt. I just felt such an idiot. I wish they had offered the sedation as an option beforhand as I would have definitely taken it.

I think they just try to avoid it, if possible. It is much easier for them if you just come in, they do the job and you leave, and they don't have to worry about you recovering from sedation as well. I can see their point, but if they knew about your problem, they should have offered it to you.

You are not an idiot! I am scared of going to the dentist, and every time in the chair, I am literally stop breathing out of fear for a minute or two, I never fainted, but I am just locked in fear. That is how we are and what makes us who we are...

shelly

Sarah, sorry it went so badly for you.

I'm the same as Ginvzt and petrified of the dentist. I have to have conscious sedation when I go which at the time is nice but recovery takes me a couple of days.


As for me AF is definately here and very painful!
I need to pop out but back and legs are killing me.....as if belly cramps aren't bad enough, my back and legs have to get in on the action!! lol

liloandstitch

Hugs to you Shelly xxx

Sorry you had such an experience Sarah, that sounds awful. The sedation def sounds the way to go, dont let it put you off having it though. Huge hugs - dont worry, we all have our phobias (I wont tell you what I was like having my first op earlier this year, I had repeat panic attacks in the anaesthetic room, as I thought I was going to die on the operating table - and that was after a premed etc)

Hugs all round as Im feeling generous!!!!

Lilo

Leopardlady

HI Guys,

Well i think i have ov'd but nothing is that clear as i have not been temping very well this month, as mentioned earlier my OH has tried to get us to relax and take a step back this month, so have been un easy about the beep of my thermometer early in the morning. For this reason i have been unable to pinpoint any rise in temp, although it has risen recently and i have the ewcm, so at least i am pretty sure i have ov'd!

Oh well OH and i have had a great start to the month, although now i think exhaustion is taking over, we both work in a university so term has just started and he is teaching a lot and i am running a course, so we get home exhausted!

Sorry to hear how tough it has been for you Sarah, Ginvzt is right, don't look on it as a wasted month, take a break for a couple of weeks and enjoy something unrelated

Sorry AF is causing such discomfort shelly! hugs to you all who need them

Thanks again for the welcome

ginvzt

Very quiet here... Hope you all are enjoying the fantastic sunshine we have here!

I am starting my Clomid today. Decided to put it off till the evening, as I wasn't sure how my body would react to it, and I am not keen on possible blurred vision when I have to drive 25+ miles to work and then the same back. I am very short-sighted and my eyes are very sensitive to light as it is. Also, I am working from home for the next 2 days, so if something, it is easier for me not to see all the people here. Oh well, I am sure all will be fine!

liloandstitch

hoping it all goes well for you ginvzt.

I have my fingers crossed that AF as finally gone home after 10 days. Lets hope she leaves it more than 2 weeks before she comes back this time - I must be making her too comfortable!

Lilo

Leopardlady

Good luck with the clomid Ginvzt, hope your body copes well!

I hope AF has left for at least 4 weeks (or longer!) Lilo

I had a very strange dream last night and woke up feeling very confused and a little emotional! I dreamt that i was in labour???? i was very uncomfortable in my abdomen and had very strong feelings that i was having a baby, but had not been pregnant!!???
Anyway needless to say that has thrown me a little today, i hate those dreams that are still around when you wake up! Oh well, then when i woke up i reached for my thermometer, thinking i should see what is going on and it would not turn on, so i think it needs new batteries! not great as i have only had it a month??!

Oh well, the sun is now shining here and i am going to a bbq tonight at the pool at college, so that will be lovely Life can be wonderful Hope you are all having a wonderful afternoon