The Trials and Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

jiblets1

So I found time to do a decent amount of dr googling last night. It seems that mostly all I learned about PCO and PCOS is how little is known about it. One paper (from a gynaecological conference no less!) finally told me that there are 2 types of PCOS (had to google "2 types of PCOS" to get anywhere...) and basically told me what the nurse said about the second type not having hormonal problems.
They talked about how there is really very little standardisation of diagnosis etc for actually having PCOS.
The main thing I gleaned from several sources is that there are potential links with insulin production problems. So no matter which type I have, a sensible insulin diet and exercise will help me.
So then I looked in to the GI diet, and it really seems quite do-able. So my latest effort to take some sort of control is going to involve starting to think about my diet in light of GI info, and definately getting some sort of exercise going on. I'm so rubbish at motivating myself, as any sort of forced exercise just bores me. But improving weather is around the corner, and that means I can do more natural exercise and hopefully that will help.

I'm still considering taking a private cycle, and I'm feeling slightly more inclined towards doing it. Not sure how hubby feels at the moment, as he went and spent £89 on the dog on a whim today in Pets at Home. Under interrogation it seems that this was his stressed out way of expressing what a good father he would be. Thought I'd give him a little longer before I push him to think about private! But he's obviously feeling exasperated too...

I'm getting scared to go back to that clinic. It feels like every time I go there they give me more bad news.

ginvzt

Got quiet here again!

So, AF is here - appeared yesterday afternoon, so day 1 today. Booked my scan for next Thursday and I hope I won't be leaving on that work trip this Sunday and can make the scan. I am reducing the Clomid dose this month after so many follicles last month, so I will be on 25mg.

Didn't have a great night sleep with the pain, and I have dentist appointment this afternoon. All I want to do is just to curl up under the duvet on the sofa... But hey - someone has to work and earn the money for that IVF, which seems to be inevitable by now!

JohnnieStar

ginvzt - Sorry about AF, but GL for the next round!

hamish - GL with your first app.

xx

jiblets1

Hi all, I think OH and I have decided we will go private. I don't know why it doesn't seem 100% right though. It kinda seems like cheating, and we all know cheaters never prosper... We rang the clinic today and were gutted to realise we can't get a private appointment until May 20th anyway! I thought if we went private we'd be seen next week! We then also had a little scan on the web for other private options, and there seem to be very few around here. So also a bit gutted about that. And to be honest, looking at their website I couldn't make out what the hell was included in packages, what wasn't and how much it would all cost us in the end. Private with our same NHS consultant seems a lot simpler, and we already trust these people anyway. So I think maybe that's the way we'll go. It still feels odd though. And I'm not sure why.

Do you think it would be likely that if we kept ringing a cancellation might come up for sooner? Basically the difference if we go private is it'll probably be time for the big 2ww in Julyish on private and decemberish on NHS. And I did barter with my sanity that if I got 2 (I know, maybe I wouldn't need both) IVF goes in this year, my brain wouldn't go pop. So NHS = only one go this year. And private = one private go and maybe one NHS go this year. I thought it would feel simple. Why doesn't it?

ginvzt

jiblets - I am glad you come to a decision. It is huge, and I think it will take time to sink in. There is nothing wrong with ringing the clinic once in a while to find out if there is any cancellation.

As for me, my work trip is on. I am leaving at 6:55 on Sunday. Yes, on Easter day. Will be the 'most exciting' Easter spending whole day on the planes and in the airports. Lovely.

I had to cancel my scan this month as there is no way I can make it next week now - I won't be back till following Sunday. Hospital said not to take Clomid this month too. Therefore I am having a break. It is fine - will give me more time to lose the weight!!!! Which doesn't seem to be going anywhere at the moment.

jujugaboo

Hi jiblets, don't know if it is different in other areas but I was told if we went private that we would not be allowed any free goes with the NHS. We get 2 free goes with the NHS in my area and after that (if that doesn't work) we will pay to go private but we didn't want to lose our free goes even if we do have to wait a bit longer.

jiblets1

jujugaboo wrote: »

Hi jiblets, don't know if it is different in other areas but I was told if we went private that we would not be allowed any free goes with the NHS. We get 2 free goes with the NHS in my area and after that (if that doesn't work) we will pay to go private but we didn't want to lose our free goes even if we do have to wait a bit longer.

Thanks jujugaboo, I'm sure it's fine in my PCT. I have checked, and since the NHS and private clinic I'm using are the same place and people I'm sure they're right. It's crazy how things vary from region to region isn't it? We've been told 1 private go won't jeapordise our NHS goes, but more would. But I was also told if I went private to a different clinic the NHS wouldn't know about it anyway...

But we've done it! We've booked in, so May 20th I'll be having my TIC meeting. I presume it will go quite quickly from there, depending on when my cycle falls. What's the bet I'll have another 55 day cycle just starting when I need it to hurry up...?

jujugaboo

You are lucky, mine are in the same place too but they wouldn't let us go private and NHS. We were all set to go private and then found out we were top of the list anyway so we were quite lucky. Good luck with your meeting and hope you have a short cycle as I know how frustrating that is at times.

liloandstitch

Sorry guys, have been MIA. Jibs, good luck with the IVF and ginvzt, enjoy your trip.

Have a great easter, Lilo

Winky,_The_House_Elf

Congrats on taking the first steps Jiblets! It's scary and exciting all at once! Don't worry about your cycle length as mine could be 60 days+ but they can give you something to start AF if she is being bloody awkward!

The job situation is a nightmare, which I understand. I have just down graded to lose some of the stress, which means less money but a better work life balance, but at least its the same company so Mat benefits are ok.

Hope you are all bearing out in this weather

Winky x