The Trials and Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

teaandcakeordeath

So sorry to hear about your news lucy. I hope you and oh are looking after each other.

I'm sick to death of fb- if i read one more of those AWFUL smug posts about how wonderful mums/dads/kids are I'll go postal. Don't even get me started on colleagues. Two days back at work and there's 4 preggos moaning about their symptoms. One of them confirmed her pregnancy on my first sodding day back-typical really, I've been off since April! I could've hurled her out of a window. Her bf works in the same department and everyone was laughing and congratulating his super sperms and revelling in the wonderousness of fertility. I nearly walked out. I hate everyone and everything right now.

We're putting our flat on the market to move in with my mum and help with her bills. If it sells then hopefully I can go part-time for my sanity if work will let me. Luckily they have caught her cancer early (stage 1) but they don't know for definite what grade it is until surgery. At the moment they're talking radiotherapy then tamoxifen (joy- we'll both be going through menopause together!) but the possibility of chemo is still very much on the table. I know it could be so much worse but I just don't have a good feeling- I feel the same as when I found out my grandad, dad and nan had their cancers and when my grandad went for heart bypass... They all died and I knew they would despite medical assurances and stats.

Sorry to hear about your friend t2d. I hope that the treatment is successful for her (and you!). I wish I could do something to help you feel better.

vseviour

Sorry to hear about your mum teacake x

sexki11en

vseviour wrote: »

Big time freaking about about scan tomorrow, hubby is at work and mum not answering phone. The follicles were small on friday, so she's upped dosage to 225ml. Think I'm putting too much pressure on myself to stick to schedule, should just be happy that its finally happening, so think I'm gonna cancel job interview. Now my mind is wandering to egg collection - if I can't do jaabs, how am I gonna cope with that..??!! Deep breathing isn't work, might have to go for a run..

Sorry for ramble, just needed to let it out... x

Hey honey,

If you're not doing it already, get a hot water bottle on your tummy to help those follies grow. Also get as much protein in you as you can (non animal better than animal) Also make sure you're drinking 3l (or more if you can) of fluids a day (skimmed or semi skimmed milk is good for the protein - at least 1 pint a day) to help those drugs flush through your system.

Also, EC isn't as bad as you'd expect. I've had one under general and one under sedation. Besides - what wouldn't we do to see a LO in our arms? I know I'd walk over hot coals if I had to (sometimes it feels like I have!)

Chin up - you're nearly there.

SK x

vseviour

Thanks SK for the tips - gonna go dig out the hot water bottle from the boxes and boxes of packing, and I haven't had much to drink today, so will do that. Am vegetarian and actually planned a high protein dinner after Chickpea suggested it.

Thanks for the encouragement - this has been my lowest day by far and needed a boost! x

tea_lover

vseviour - big hugs sweetie. Honestly, EC is the easiest part, you're asleep!! Am sending "grow follicle" vibes your way, really hope the scan today goes well xx.

We got a cat!! He's still settling in and I'm paranoid about him not being happy but the signs are ok so far (he's only been with us since sat). I told OH last night that the responsibility was too much for me and I didn't think I could cope with a child - I really wasn't joking at that point

Floaty

I've got everything crossed for you vseviour, hope your scan goes really well.

Sorry to hear how you're feeling TCOD. I bet your Mum will love having you there, it'll be such a support.

I know what you mean about the cat Tea - when we got ours last gear I felt super aware that people might think we got him as a baby substitute. I don't think we did, but maybe subconsciously... Maybe it is a bit of practice

vseviour

Hey, the scan wasn't great, around 10 follicles but only 10 - 12mm long, so another scan Wed then egg collection will hopefully be Fri or Sat (Sat means I can still make interview). Feeling emotional still, went to bed early last night, struggled to stay up to 10pm to do jabs! Thanks for everyone's support.
Tea, what colour cat? Have you named it yet? I'm definitely getting one if this doesn't work, and I don't care what people think!! I'll have a whole house full! X

tea_lover

vseviour - good luck for the next scan, sounds like they're coming on. FWIW, mine took ages to get going then I had loads of them by the time of EC... think they just took a while to work out what was being asked of them lol.

The cat is black and white, he has v cute little white socks We call him Percy, I have no idea why. OH just called him that and it seems to suit him! We've looked at kittens quite a few times and that was always the plan. Then a friend of OH's dad needed to rehome their 8yr old cat so we took him in. It went really quickly, we heard about him on thursday and by sat lunchtime he was at ours.

Floaty - I'm not even going to pretend he's not my baby substitute! It must be good practice, I was so proud of him for pooping last night!!

Part_Mouse

Tea cat cuddles are fab, we got a little kitten a few months ago and she is very mothered and loved.enjoy him.

Vsevior no experience I'm afraid but hope the next scan brings better news.

I swear the menopur is making me so tired and extra emotional.scan and bloods tommorow for me.hugs to all.

time2deal

Can I have a little 'cheers' for my BMI being 29.76. yay!

Granted this is measured first thing in the morning, post ablutions and in the buff, so I suspect when I stand on a scales in the doctors with clothes on it will be higher, but I'm pleased to be getting there.

I have an NHS appointment for IVF on 2 October, so the aim is to be safely sub 30 by that date.

Sending 'grow you little blighters' vibes to all of those suffering through FSH injections! 10 at 10-12mm with 5 days to go sounds good to me. I had more, but only a couple were that big so early. Mine had a hugh burst of growth with the final ovitrelle jab.