The Trials and Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

tea_lover

Ladies, I'm really fed up

I've got a weird pain in my stomach. Not af pain, not endo pain. Hard to describe but feels a bit like a pulled muscle, but really deep inside, like I've been stretched. I feel sick. I think I'm hungry but when I eat I feel even more sick. I've got a headache I can't shift & I'm so tired it's making me cry.

!!!!!!? Have I totally lost it, I seem to have developed a phantom pg now!

fannyanna

Tea - how are you feeling today?

tea_lover

fannyanna wrote: »

Tea - how are you feeling today?

Not as bad, thanks. Stomach still feels weird, kind of like a brick has been dragged through it and bruised it.... I really can't describe it lol! Better than the last couple of days though so hopefully was just the heat or a bug.

Hope everyone's doing ok today. T2D, hope your MRI goes really well xx.

bigzippy

Sounds like IBS episodes I've had a couple of times, tea, could it be that?

Good luck with the MRI, t2d, thinking of you!
Btw, I have found internal scans tearfully painful previously, yes, although I think that's because of my endometriosis-particularly in the Pouch of Douglas. It improved a little after the lap I had. Hope it improves for you and that if it is stenosis, that it's an easy quick fix and the last thing you need to deal with to do with this awful ordeal! :cool:

Fannyanna I've replied to you on the ttc thread

:wave: to everyone else

Floaty

Hope you're all bearing up, sounds like some trying times for some of you. Afm, my GP muffed our referral, so my appt due on 16th July is now on 19th August. Am feeling frustrated because time is precious, and also angry with ourselves that we didn't crack on with getting a referral ages ago

Spent some of the weekend with best friend (who has one child and had a miscarriage a few months back). They're trying again now and I hate that it makes me feel jealous and nasty, after what they've been through. I feel like ttc has made me into a bitter person.

Sorry to moan, internet peeps. Sending hugs and vibes to you all. Thank you for listening xxx

Derby2

Floaty: My consultant has managed to cancel 3 appointments in a row, and considering he only works Mondays (!) it's caused a decent delay for us too. Very frustrating...

I was thinking about all the mean thoughts I have and the bitternes too, and I don't think it makes us bad people but simply human. We're going through some pretty rubbish times and it's understandable to get these feelings now and again. As long as it doesn't become all we're feeling!

good_vibes

Hi all,
Floaty and Derby *hugs*. I have been feeling loads of bitterness too the last few days. Spotting today explains a lot of that. It's nice to know your not alone and that your not a bad person.
A lot of other positive things have happed over the past few days, but been over shadowed by the frustration of ttc.
I don't think the side effects of clomid are helping either.
Have a good day all

time2deal

CD1 for me today. Which is good as I thought I had skipped one again as all the pain had stopped.

Good news. My body is basically like a foreign country now. Things are similar overall, but there are major practical differences. Looks like my AF has to build up, and then all arrives in one intense burst as it makes it way out. It's hard to manage, but I guess I will get used to it and learn how it works again. Nothing like having to learn how to manage your period again at 36!!

lilymay1

Hi ladies,

I often take a nosey on this thread hoping for good news. Glad to see so many of you have a positive future and that the road is starting to open up a little more.

Mainly posting about the jealousy a few people mentioned. It doesn't make any of you bad people and is more than understandable. It won't stop when you do get pregnant, it'll just be directed towards different people; mainly those who have never had a bad experience, those who don't appreciate being pregnant, those who complain about being pregnant etc etc.

I will always be bitter about the things I have had to face. I find it difficult to accept that most people will never know the pain, but of course in reality that is a good thing.

I find many of you, particularly you T2D, very inspirational. My difficulties TTC were little in comparison to what some have faced and I know how difficult I found it. I will keep my fingers crossed for every one of you.

Lily xx

vseviour

I've had a busy few days - flew to Leeds yesterday for sperm analysis and new patients seminar, back home today, CD52 so FS wanted to see me, did pg test and internal scan, taking Prostap on 5th Aug if period doesn't start, then down-reg from 22nd Aug. Glad it's finally happening, but it seems like we've waited two years and now - GO GO GO! I feel more relaxed now there's a plan (miss you BZ!) and strangely less jealous too. My sister is due in the next few days and I've even grown tolerant of the Royal baby stories (I predicted George Philip Louis!). Feels like we've turned a corner :-)