pammyj74's MFW diary (or possible wishful thinking!!)

Caroline73_2

gallygirl wrote: »

Crikey Pammy, that was a walk & a half!!!!!!!

I did that walk once with the pushchair. Never again.

pammyj74

Well hospital had me in tears again. I am so daft sometimes. I was feeling all dizzy and sick all day and had a banging headache but didnt want to take any meds in case it stop them doing something. I first of all couldnt find the dept, it was all mazes etc and that was stressing me out on top. Then when I found it they sent me back down the corridor to the xray dept who put this weird thing around me. I was feeling awful like I was going to pass out. When I eventually got seen by the consultant they tell me that my wisdom tooth is half way through and I will need to be put under to get it out or it will just keep getting infected and cause me grief. This is going to be another 3 month wait!!! Then she said that I will need to be looked after for 24 hours and that I can not be left in charge of my children! The more I think about it the more stressed I get. I could probably ask my sister to come and stay but the doctor said that I would also need someone to care for the kids as well as she wouldnt be able to do both. I am hoping that their dad will have them for a couple of days, if worse comes to the worse they will have to miss school and if he says no then I will ask their grandparents to have them at theirs.
I am soo depressed about the whole thing as things like this make me realise how little support I have from anyone. I dont know how I am going to get to the hospital and back home as my sis doesnt drive. I hate hate hate asking people for help. The doc said if I had to they would keep me in over night to keep an eye on me but I would have to go to Northampton for that. And that to me is taking a bed up unneccesarily.

I am so tired again, wish I could just go to sleep right now, might do once kids are in bed tonight but have loads to do still. wish I could sleep for a couple of days lol

katsu

*hugs* Pammy.

You have come up with two plans tho - the ex or the grandparents and your sister can stay with you if someone can pick you up. No chance the ex could put the kids in the car and do it?

You are doing really well at bringing up the kids without the support.

Oh - and people like being able to help others, so don't feel bad about asking for help!

yukkibear

Try not to stress as this wont help the pain you already have in your tooth. Sleep on it and think again in the morning with a fresh head. There is always a way around these things, and it WILL be fine I promise.

"Hugs" I know the pain you're going through and it will be a relief when the tooth comes out, childcare stress or no stress.

cha97michelle

Stress won't help. Worst case your sister can bring you home in a taxi. It needs to be done, and when you have it done you will feel lots better pretty quickly. If it is going to keep getting infected then it sounds like the first available appointment needs to be taken.

As for tonight, what do you NEED to do, ie if it is about making money then take a night off. Get the stuff together you need for tomorrow, and then sleep if you can. You have missed so much that it would probably really make you feel better.

mummalove

Good advice. I think you are getting yourself worked up, when really you probably don't need to at all.

I am certain that between your sister, your ex and your ex-in-laws they will all try to help you -after all, you know that if anyone else was in the same boat you would fall over yourself trying to help. Just let people help you, don't feel guilty about asking...that is what family and friends are for

I do understand just how much of a relief it will be for you when it is all booked and done...but in the meantime stop trying to be superwoman and just relax tonight, do the bare minimum and chill

Take care.

gerbiljo

I hope the tooth gets sorted soon and you are feeling better

pammyj74

Well Caroline is coming to visit tomorrow (should have been today but forgot hosp) so need to try and make my house slightly presentable Dont worry Caroline I wont bake anything lol

I know I should be at ease asking people for help but I still dont like it. I guess I am so used to dealing with things on my own.

On a mse front, didnt park in the hospital and saved a whopping £2.50 and also £2.50 from holiday club as cost me £7.50 instead of £10.

Baby_steps_2

Hi Pammy,

Sorry to hear your news about the tooth. Hope your feeling a bit more positive now. It must be horrible to feel you ahve no suppourt. I'm sure you have more than you realise you jsut need t learn when you need to ask for help.

Feel better sooon xx

pammyj74

Had a lovely meet with Caroline again today and we are going to go and win at the bingo on Saturday (see can be optimistic sometimes )

Am really really shattered as had a bad night with tooth again, feel like banging my head against the wall at 2am! So am typing this and going to bed before midnight :eek: and I might even be rebelious and hit the snooze button in the morning. Cant believe its Friday already again, where are the weeks going??

Want to say a big thank you to Gallygirl and Caroline who have offered themselves as a backup should I need a hospital taxi I am overwhelmed how people who you dont really know can be so nice So thank you