Cambridge Diet part II

piratess

Evening .....

Ive had a wobble already! my head is at a place i dont really know where! ..
Ive a got a voice talking to me ! and i cant shut it up .. and now im doubting everything ! ...... Its not nice! ... I got through tea ok, feeling rubbish at the thought of serving up GB to the family with spag bol and me sat there with half a sachet of choc and mint which i didnt finish cos it turned my stomach! ....

so my head is saying things like "why bother, noone cares if you lose weight or not"
"your ment to be big!" "you can still look nice and eat food" .. "Your OH loves you as you are" oh grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Sorry by the way

postingalwaysposting

piratess wrote: »

Evening .....

Ive had a wobble already! my head is at a place i dont really know where! ..
Ive a got a voice talking to me ! and i cant shut it up .. and now im doubting everything ! ...... Its not nice! ... I got through tea ok, feeling rubbish at the thought of serving up GB to the family with spag bol and me sat there with half a sachet of choc and mint which i didnt finish cos it turned my stomach! ....

so my head is saying things like "why bother, noone cares if you lose weight or not"
"your ment to be big!" "you can still look nice and eat food" .. "Your OH loves you as you are" oh grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Sorry by the way

Aww no Piratess, did you eat? I understand what your head is saying, I was the same but you know its just because you believe you are depriving your body. Infact you are doing one of the best things for your body. No one is 'ment' to be big, I said that to myself when I was younger, its untrue. As for people caring, I care, I know how determinded you were a few months ago, find that determination again. As for looking nice, well I thought I looked nice, I didnt, I looked like a pig who couldnt stop eating.

I am in no way saying you are a pig etc but I certainly did. The problem is we become accostomed to people looking at us in a certain way, to people expecting us to be something and expecting us not to change. But you are the potter in your life, you can change the mold, with a bit of effort

Would it help if I showed you my pics? Or maybe offered a bit more support The first four days are the worse but after thats its easier, I promise. Could you reward yourself after getting past a week on the diet?

Take care....

piratess

Awww Pap thanks so much for your lovely Reply

I HAVNT eaten! .. ive been good that way! but i feel im constantly fighting with my head! .. I dont even feel hungry, I think its just the habit of putting somthing in my mouth!

Its hard to explain .. I still feel determined but i feel like i dont know! .. Maybe we get comfortable i think .. feel safe maybe ? i dont know tough to explain .......

i was thinking of trying SS+ from tomorow so at least im eating with the kids ... but my next thing is do you still go into K ? or will i constantly be hungry ?

Id love to see some piccies pap

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piratess wrote: »

Awww Pap thanks so much for your lovely Reply

I HAVNT eaten! .. ive been good that way! but i feel im constantly fighting with my head! .. I dont even feel hungry, I think its just the habit of putting somthing in my mouth!

Its hard to explain .. I still feel determined but i feel like i dont know! .. Maybe we get comfortable i think .. feel safe maybe ? i dont know tough to explain .......

i was thinking of trying SS+ from tomorow so at least im eating with the kids ... but my next thing is do you still go into K ? or will i constantly be hungry ?

Id love to see some piccies pap

Ohhh well at least you haven't caved :T Go you! I do understand what you mean, I have been there many a time The only thing I would sugesst is maybe list thing that make you happy or why you want to lose weight. Then keep going back to it. Or each time you are feeling like eating write down how you feel, why and what time etc. At least you can overcome mental hurdles, whereas feeling hungry/ill is harder.

SS+ is simple and yes you can still get into ketosis. It just means the average weight loss is 12lbs a month not 14lbs as with SS. You wont be hungry as loong as you watch your portions, if you have large portions it will knock you out!

Right I will get you pictures tomorrow and PM you. The only reason is because I havent had one done for about a month so I am now a stone lighter They arnt pretty but maybe they will give you a push

piratess

Thanks Pap

Ive done the whole list thingy .. maybe ill try a meal a couple of times a week ... weekends are my worst days cos kids and OH home all day lol ..

I look forward to seeing piccies tomorow hun Im working 9 am till 2 so am occupied for a while at least xx

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piratess wrote: »

Thanks Pap

Ive done the whole list thingy .. maybe ill try a meal a couple of times a week ... weekends are my worst days cos kids and OH home all day lol ..

I look forward to seeing piccies tomorow hun Im working 9 am till 2 so am occupied for a while at least xx

Try it, it wont do any harm. However let you CDC know because your weightloss could be a little slower If it will help you stay on track a SS+ meal isnt much.

If weekends will be hard plan something. A walk in the park with the kids having a picnic (you have a tetra/water). Or if you havent a park near and your children are young make a street treasure hunt, just a list of things to find on the street (ie black and white at, yellow house etc etc, make it personal to your area) that they must tick off and go for a few miles walking. Or can you not take them to a cheap sightseeing place to take your mind off things. Anything to keep you and them occupied, cutting and sticking :rotfl:

Ohhh thats four hours done then :j I am wishing you lots of good vibes for tomorrow. One step at a time, one hour at a time

stokegal

Hey everyone

Well Piratess - I rushed home from work today to come on here and see how you had got on and OH had locked the back gate from the inside so I couldn't get in until FIL had fetched the front door key from OH an hour and a half later...:mad: Men.... so couldn't get on till now but I am chuffed to hear that you haven't caved and want you to know that I have my mental pom poms out and are chanting "Go Piratess, Go Piratess" lol

Pap - After reading through the thread you truely are an inspiration and so kind with your help, I'd love you to be my cdc

I'm meeting my cdc tomorrow for the first time tomorrow - I'm very nervous as she sound all posh on the phone and lives in a really nice area in Stoke - I'll rock up with my scruffy hair (not brushed most days - I think I look boho - but I actually look more hobo, lol) excuses for being fat and probably swear (it just slips out )

BTW - Someone mentioned something about Reciepes, I'd be really interested in those - my friend use to freeze her shake or something and have it like ice cream - if thats possible

Stokegal

hunbun_3

Hi Piratess, you are doing great y'know. Yes, the next few days will be hard as your body will be craving for what you are depriving it of ( I am expecting the next couple of days here to be flippin' hard work), BUT once you get into ketosis, honestly its a different kettle of fish. Think about it a bit like an addiction. I am addicted to food, I eat when I am not hungry so therefore its not a primeval need to eat because my body doesn't need the food. Breaking a habit is not easy, and it doesn't just involve the chomping. Like you say, its the hand to mouth thing, the social thing etc.

When I first started I was very bothered about not wanting the kids to know, because I didn't want them to develop the same attitude to food that I have. I have done SS + throughout (except for falling off in December). I have explained that I want to 'get healthy' and we have had the same meals, just minus the baked spud etc for me. Radishes have become my soul mate, together with good old celery sticks. Sometimes the very need to crunch something cannot be damped down!

I have kept a diary from day one, I put in there all sorts of daft things, my feelings, hopes etc. Looking back on it is really helpful for those tough days.

You will get through it, your determination will drag you through to the next day. Look back at your posts on here, as Pap says, you showed massive determination in them and that won't dissappear.

Each day is a new day. If you slip a little one day, don't worry, in the overall scheme of the rest of your life its nothing.

Lets make 2010 our best summer yet girlies - no more sore legs and wishing the hot days would go away.......

Stokegal - don't worry about meeting your cdc, lets face it, we have all got the same problem/need for help, if we didnt we wouldn't be either on here or doing the CD. Pap has put some fab recipes up on earlier posts. Ice cubes in with the shakes on blending makes a sort of ice creamy 'ish slush thingy - they do taste much better when you keep them cold. They go sort of warm when just using water.


Night night folks....xxxxxxxx

Cherryscone

Has any one restarting ? how did you find it ?

piratess

Hey .. Quick break and im off out again for my last call, but wanted to come update! ..
StokeGal thanks so much for the support! .. it made me smile to think of you and your pompoms! lol .. Men aye ! .. cant live with them cant live without them! ..
HunBun ... im completly with you! .. it is an addiction and mostly its a habit, my OH said last night it must be like him trying to give up smoking, its the hand thing thats the worst! ..

Sooooo the end of my Day 1 went ok .. very restless in bed last night didnt sleep well atall! ... And this morning my word! .. My mouth felt like the bottom of a sewer only worse! how ever OH kissed me before work ill never know! .. And then to top it off i got up to go to the loo and almost fell over, i kinda stumbled back into the wall! ........ felt so dizzy light heated almost sick! .. my eyes wouldnt focus either ...... is this normal ?????????
I tried the Porridge for breaky YUK YUK ........ it smelt like babyfood and i had a spoon full and just kept rolling it round in my mouth trying to swallow!! anyway after urging a little it all went in the bin! ...........
I had a warm choccy shake and sanity returned! how yummy are they !!!!!! .. so ive rung CDC and im now swapping all 4 of my porridges for choccy .. ~good times~
Ive just had half a strawb one warm and wow! .. it tastes like angel delight it really does so defo on the list for next week! and quite sweet to so will be a good one for evening

Ok so how am i feeling .......... not hungry! (never thought id say that) .. drinking water but not sure ive had enough today so far ... i feel a teeny bit light headed .. and a lil sign of a headache. other than that ... i feel fine

Means so much to me ya know .. you here egging me on! .. Well im hoping i can egg some of the newbies on to now ive got day one out of the way LOL

much love xx