The giving up/cutting down alcohol support thread! Part 3

barshamhillbilly

Hugs from the hillbillies Jo

40somethingmum

jo1972 wrote: »

Not doing much good at staying away

Apologies for the mammoth post........

Just noticed the forum is out of action after mid day so thought I'd pop on and say morning to all.

Big hugs to Fay and well done that girl for staying strong. What you said and the way you said it was so familiar to me and I'm sure loads others on here. The pure frustration and anger you feel when you 'won't let yourself' do what you are trying to do, then the tears, mate I tell you I've been there frequently. Knowing that someone else goes through this is a comfort to me (not to great for you :rolleyes:), but it means my reaction to alcohol is normal, plus I know that this behaviour is irrational so alcohol must be trying to control me that's why I get in the car and burst into tears (I've done this too!). I wonder how many people in my local Tesco have got into their cars and burst into tears after not buying a bottle of wine, I bet there's a few. Keep up the great resolve, you know you're my hero :A

WBF, that was a lovely post, isn't it great to have somewhere to vent and tell all. I know there are hundreds possibily thousands of lurkers out there but most are lurking because they might feel they need help too. Being honest with others takes us out of denial and makes us wake up and be honest with ourselves, especially when you read back what you've written. Good for you and OH working together, good luck

Right, I've not read anything else for a few days apart from those 2 posts, I'll read back in a minute if I have time before the forum closes.

Just wanted to pop on a report another AFD please dear Budgie.

It was a touch and go AFD though I might add, a minor version of Fays experience. Driving home and stopped at Tesco, OH rang and said that he was going out straight from work which my immediate reaction was 'great I can get drunk and he won't even know!' then I wrestled with myself (not literally) whilst walking round the shop thinking 'should I/shouldn't I'. I don't buy it in the supermarket anyway as it's dearer and warm so the booze aisles have no affect on me luckily. Got in the car and sat there for a full 10 minutes trying to decide whether to go to the offy or not. I thought that if I drove straight off then I wouldn't have given myself a chance to think about it (the angel in my head must be trying desperately to shout louder than the devil!). The upshot was as I was driving towards the offy, OH was out all night, it was only 5.30pm and if I bought beer then I'd drink it and be drunk by 7pm, I tried to imagine what it's like being drunk at 7pm and missing the soaps on TV, feeling sick cos I've drunk too much and the hatred that comes on later. So I decided to drive straight home and if I really wanted to go out later and buy beer I could (at a more respectable time :rolleyes:), OH is not in so no one to answer to, DD1 wouldn't bat an eyelid if I said I needed to pop to the shop. So that's what I did. I didn't feel anxious at all because I knew I had the choice.

Then, things started to go downhill but not on the drink front.....

I've been feeling quite down and not that well for a few weeks now, had that viral broncitis thing, still got the cough, plus I keep having dizzy spells and kind of pressure head aches, then the last few days been feeling a bit nauseus and like I need to just lay down in the quiet. This has been coming on and off for a few weeks, but last night when I got in it was constant. I decided that I wasn't going to be suffering that till Tuesday when the docs is open so went to the walk-in centre at the hospital and it turns out I've got benign positional vertigo, which I think probably came on since the start of my chest thing. Doc has given me some tablets which I'm going to go get when I've finished typing this, I've googled the tablets (obviously :rolleyes:) and it says they cause drowsiness and extreme drowsiness for some (thank god it's half term!) and you must not drink alcohol as this will make the vertigo symptoms worse :eek: :eek: :eek:

But I need the tablets cos I feel like I've been spinning round and round then standing still, feel like I'm still moving when I'm not, which makes me feel sick, it's not nice.

So looks like a few enforced AFDs for me.

I'm going to have a read back now, if I don't get back before the forums go down, have a lovely sunny day

xx

Edited to add: sorry for spelling errors and double words, this dizzy thing is a nightmare and it's even worse when checking what you've typed!!

Oh Jo

What a nightmare . Hope the tablets make you feel better soon. Enjoy the sunshine and take it easy, very easy.


40SM

Lurkio

((((jo))))

I had summat similar once..... not pleasant.....

jo1972

Just read back the past 10 pages of thread that I'd missed in just 4 or 5 days :eek:

Wanted to do personals but I can't remember anything :rotfl:

Stroppy, how are you now? Hope you're feeling better x

WBF, sorry to hear about the job news, hope things look up soon x

Lurks, yes horrible innit! It's summat to do with particles in the inner ear which have broken away and brushes against the fine nerve hairs which make you think you're spinning round even though you could be sitting dead still, really spooky feeling.

BHB, much love to the hillbillies from us Essex'ers too

ERmmmm...now I've forgot..

Oh yeah....edited to add: welcome to the new posters London Guy and Cardboard Chewer :wave:

xx

Sea78

Hi all
Well, I've now hit rock bottom. I'd managed 2 weeks without drinking during the week and was feeling positive, but then a series of absolute nightmares happened yesterday and I got beyond smashed.

I don't remember much - but it involved people coming to my rescue and helping with the kids.

I feel so ashamed. Some of my student apparently 'found' me in the street just outside my house in a state - they brought me back in my house. I could lose my job about the fact they saw me in this state and no doubt was swearing and stuff, although apparently i was a happy drunk.

They were then too worried to leave me and when friend from london rang, they answered and then she got in touch with some friends who came.

This has all been told to me today. Other stuff happened, but it really pales into insignificance.

I'm scared. I'm scared of losing my job. I'm scared of losing my kids. I'm just scared.

So I've looked up online and I'm going to an AA meeting on thursday. I'll have to find someone to babysit for me.

I can't believe it's come to this. That my alcohol issues have lead me to feel like this.

fedupandskint

Oh Sea, what on earth has happened in your life to make you react in this way?

Go for it to the AA meetings, if you need this level of support to change and hang to what you want in your life.

Hang in there Sea and don't give up x Take care my dear x

mackeroo

:hello: Hi Everyone

Not been around for a couple of days so thot i would drop by the eve to say hi to all and to catch up with all the news. Had 3 nights in a row drinking (2 were planned and i kinda orchaestrated the 3rd one to involve alcohol) and im having an AF eve so still on track BB with 2 AF days this month since i joined you guys. Suffering a hangover today where nothing i eat or drink is sufficient, which i hate as im trying to lose weight in amongst having more AF days, planning a big food shop tomorrow so will stock up on lots of salads etc
SEA78 ~ sorry to hear your situation, maybe this incident is the one that takes you to a place where you need to go and i hope that going to AA is a support for you.

Sadly no back holiday weekend for me, so going to try and make the most of having my first hamgover free Sunday in a long time!
Enjoy your weekend folks
x

fluffyb

I am so sorry to hear that Sea but you are now doing something positive about it and for that I applaud you :T

maman

:grouphug: (meant to be a group hug but I always think it looks a bit...)

Oh Sea, what an awful thing to have happened. I feel so close to my virtual friends on here that I just want to help them when they're having problems. I wish I could come round and babysit for you.

annie_d

Oh Sea xxxx

And like you Jo. I want to answer to so many on here but as soon as i have scrolled, i have forgotten the names. Please know everyone that i am thankful for you all and know without a shadow of a doubt that without you all "being there" I would have given in to the demon drink before now.

23 Days AF

Night night x