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searching_me

so beenie if you did split would he help take care of bubba? would you want to go through it again as a single parent? x

BeenieCat

Honestly i wouldn't mind, sometimes i feel life was so much easier without anyone here to question my decisions or get in a mood when the house is a bit messy.

Obviously it's not what i want for my life, to be a single mother to 2 kids, 2 diff dads both off scene!! But honestly as hard as it is, it has lots of pluses!!

Sami_Bee

Beenie - you sound very like I was after 3 months of feeling horrendously tired/sick at the beginning of this preg.
we had a hard week of massive row followed by not talking to each other for a few days and then gradually talking again until it was sorted.
Its more than likely ur tiredness/hormones plus him feeling worried/scared and a little annoyed - well thats what we found anyhoo, Things were much better once we talked it out and MS started wearing off

Although we're both as stubborn as each other so still slept in same bed back to back with separate duvets :rotfl:

searching_me

my mate shes got 2 kids from 2 different dad both absolute to$$ pots but shes doing really well and at uni learning to be a math teacher... she feels the same at least its just her and her decisions for her kids nobody else x

searching_me

i'll be honest me and OH nearly spilt whn i was about 12weeks as i didnt know if i could do it again or if we had the money or if i was just replacing the one i lost ... we both ended up in floods of tears him saying how could you do this to me why dont you want my child.... once id admitted my fears i completely changed with alot of help from OH x

BeenieCat

Sami you're right and deep down i do believe it's all of those things but i'd never be able to get him to understand.

He says i'm depressing and i'm making him feel depressed, and since BOTH of us lost our jobs recently that adds an extra strain as our (ok, his) money has now ran out and we're living on benefits which we hate.

When i was single with DS i've always worked but now i don't know what to do about work, thinking it'd be easier to have the baby and then go back - but he's itching to get work asap, but despite being qualified in 3 totally different fields it's not happening atm.

We've had huge fights before, in some ways i think we're daft to have conceived as we are but mostly we're very good and very much in love and a strong partnership. I think if i had more energy i'd be able to get off my arris and motivate him to get decorating etc as he needs to be busy but we're both stuck in a rut atm and i need HIM to motivate me!

elle_gee

Hi all.. Think I'm all caught up now

Hugs to all who need them, especially tara and BeenieCat xx

Going out for tea wasn't as bad as I expected although I had a bit of a mini breakdown after I posted and ended up sobbing on OH's shoulder for a few mins I went out with an ex colleague plus the other one who I used to work with and now work with again - the one who makes all the comments about my weight/size/eating. I was just totally dreading any comments on what I had - we were going for a carvery so I was expecting comments about how much I put on my plate etc. Am having a bit of a rough week and I just couldn't take the thought of any more pressure being put on me It wasn't actually that bad in the end - the one I don't work with now has bloke trouble so that took up most of the conversation thankfully.

Like I say, just having a rough week.. At work tomorrow, off on Friday, in all next week then off all of Bank Hol week. Got so much to do and so little time, plus a stroppy boss to contend with who keeps making comments about passing the buck on to me and blaming me for things. She was in trouble with her boss the other day (over something I had nothing to do with) and was moaning to someone about it, then turned to me and said "It's your fault!". When I asked why, she said "Well why should I take wrap for it when you're here? I'm not letting the buck stop with me so I'm passing it on to you" - feeling brave, my answer was "like everything else around here!", accompanied by a scowl in her direction. Given up hiding my feelings now!

Like I predicted, I now suspect I might be getting Dad's cold. Got that fuzzy head feeling that my hayfever meds haven't shifted Just hope I don't come down with it in a major way on Friday and Saturday for the Baby Show!! :eek:

OH has gone home tonight to play on his comp.. something about a war starting that he wanted to be part of! He's said he'll be home by midnight but I'm not so sure. After my breakdown moment earlier, I really wish he was home now - I know I see him every day at work and evening at home but we haven't spent any time together properly for ages (well, other than tile shopping last weekend!). It'd be nice to get away for a few days in our week off but I feel guilty for going away when there's so much to do at home

*sigh* Sorry.. enough of my moaning!

Hope everyone else is okay xx

searching_me

sounds like you need a big ((cuggle)) x

money_maker_3

Right sorry girls, I am cracking up with this site tonight. Am getting kicked out constantly everytime I try to do anything, so I am off to bed

Night all xx

tarajayne

In our house we call it a huggle, you can have one Elle. XXX