Support for people with Depression

shazrobo

happy birthday sazzy, hope you have had a lovely day

shaz xxx

rose07

SAZZIE

hope you had a good day

xxx

rose07

Miroslav wrote: »

I'm hanging in there. Don't know how, but I am.

I'm sorry to folk for not being strong enough to respond to them at the moment. I wish you all well though.

Miro soo sorry to hear about your cat. I understand how much your cats mean to you. Esp as you feel like they are all you have.

Try to keep hanging on in there hun, we are here for you.

take care, and hope you can sleep tonight

thinking of you



xxx

Miroslav

PinkTwirl wrote: »

Thanks. God, I sound down don't I? It's my dad's place and I guess I should accept the way he wants to live. It's a case of if it ain't broke don't fix it with him, and if it's broke then fix it rather than buy a new one, even if that means it's held together with copious amounts of tape! When I've had money over the years, I've offered money to help him out, but to no avail. Now I'm back here after 10 years, it's quite strange. He's actually proud that the carpet in the hallway is 35 years old.

I think furniture that is 15 years old is good in comparison!

Yeah, just seem to be in on my own all the time. Someone at work told me I turned out ok during the week. I was taken aback because sometimes I feel like I must be the weirdest person on the planet!

The carpet in your dad's hallway is older than me! It may have even less of it's original furry top than me as well!

Hey, get in the queue. The weirdest person on the planet award has been won by myself, yet again. You'll have to wait a while for that moment, along with everyone else! Glad somebody at work was positive about you.

Miroslav

rose07 wrote: »

Miro soo sorry to hear about your cat. I understand how much your cats mean to you. Esp as you feel like they are all you have.

Try to keep hanging on in there hun, we are here for you.

take care, and hope you can sleep tonight

thinking of you



xxx

Thanks Rose.

My other 4 are getting on with it. They kow the other one isn't here in body, but are adapting.I just wish I could speak to them, so they understand.

I had to be up early today. I'm not sleeping well, but trying to keep busy. 7 Britney programs on today and I know little Paws would want me to tape them as normal, regardless as to whether I got into them or not. She always used to look at the TV when she was on, with a 'Oh no, not this woman again' look on her face :o:o:o:o:o:o

Jo_R_2

Miroslav wrote: »

I had to be up early today. I'm not sleeping well, but trying to keep busy. 7 Britney programs on today and I know little Paws would want me to tape them as normal, regardless as to whether I got into them or not. She always used to look at the TV when she was on, with a 'Oh no, not this woman again' look on her face :o:o:o:o:o:o

Aw that made me smile Miro!

I am having a pretty bad day so far. Yesterday we planned to paint the living room so dropped DDs off at my parents. On the way back the car broke down, so by the time OH got back after being towed, the shops were shut so didn't even get any paint.

OH is still in bed, with baby asleep next to him. I'm feeling pretty p*ssed off, being as yesterday was a wash out, I was hoping to at least get some shopping done before my parents drop off DDs (expecting them sometime soon) so we don't a) end up dragging three kids round the supermarket, b) end up with no food until tomorrow, or c) OH escapes the chaos to go to the supermarket on his own whilst I end up with the kids (I know which I'd rather do!)

Suffice to say as he's still asleep, we haven't gone shopping. The car is decidedly dodgy anyway today, it wil start up but we don't trust it to go much further than round the corner so I can't even go by myself in the car. We have OH's work van but I can't drive that so it's either wait for OH or not go Doesn't look like we're going then!

I hate this, I feel sometimes like my life is run depending on other people which is why I feel so much out of control and it's like it switches a green light on feeling down and then the downward spiral starts... It's crazy because in itself, not being able to get the shopping is a small inconvenience.

The thing is, I know when OH drags himself out of bed, he'll be moaning about how he wishes he'd gotten up earlier... :mad: He'll insist he goes shopping in the van (can't fit all of us in so I'd have to stay at home with the kids) and whilst in theory it's a good idea because we'll at least get the shopping, I'm going to be majorly p*ssed off because my parents will have gone home by then and I'll have DDs and baby whilst he goes off - the thing is he'd throw a stress if it were the other way around and I left him at home, so he knows how hard it can be sometimes.

I've been up three times to try and get him up but to no avail, so I'm sat here stewing because the minutes are passing in which we could go and get the shopping before my parents get back and he's still catching an overinflated amount of ZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz's:mad::rolleyes:

Sorry for rambling, can you tell I'm annoyed?:mad::mad::mad::mad::mad::mad::mad::mad:

shazrobo

wish i was dead, cant take no more, sick of this life

Tulip

shazrobo wrote: »

wish i was dead, cant take no more, sick of this life

:hello: Shaz,

Sorry to hear you are feeling like this at the moment,have a cup of tea or coffee and contact the samaritans if you are feeling bad like this,I am here for you Whats wrong to make you feel like this,want to share? if not you dont have to I understand.Contact your CPN if you have one and have a chat to her.

*hugs*

Katie

beachbeth

Shaz, I agree with Tulip. Hang in there and ring the Samaritans if you need to. I really feel for you. Do you find that the weekdays are better than holidays and weekends? I can identify with this as it used to be the case for me at one time (thats another story that I won't go into at the moment).

There are people here that you can offload to if you need to. Hugs. ((()))

shazrobo

weekdays between 9 am and 3pm, i can be me, shaz, do as i please within reason, come weekend and holidays i'm just mum/housekeeper/taxi driver/slave etc.fed up being a referee to 2 teens who don't get on, one of them so aggressive, i fear for the safety of the other,as well as myself at times.

feel so lonely too, and this is perhaps the hardest thing. i go to craft groups and chat to others, but unable to go anywhere weekends or school holidays, feel resentful being tied to 2 ungrateful kids.

bf is living the single life, and enjoying himself as usual, but instead of being happy for him i'm jealous. wish i was happy, and had the freedom.

do i stay with him, and enjoy the good times we have together, usually once a week, sometimes twice, or do we split just because i ask the impossible and want to spend some weekends with him, instead of being on my own.
he a typical single bloke i guess, enjoys rugby, beer, weekends away with the lads, and has me for the other

i know they not his kids, and we arn't his problem,
sorry rambling on

shaz x